His Despair by S. N. Nina Arthur (e textbook reader txt) 📕

Davina’s POV:- 

He looked down at me while breathing hard and grabbed my chin, making me look at him, his finger traced my lower lip as he bent down and kissed me roughly before getting up from me. I stared at him as he walked naked towards the big door beside the washroom and disappeared. 

Tears rushed to my eyes, and I let them fall, I sold myself to him! Now! Am I his sex slave? What have I done? 

I’m disgusted by myself; how can I do this? I signed the contract and let myself get manipulated by him. I with my own hands gave a chance to him to break me and use me for his own pleasure. I let him use my body and shamelessly enjoyed it. I'm ashamed of the fact that my body enjoyed his touch and the way he fucked me. 

Tears rolled down my eyes as the way he fucked me flashed in front of my eyes, I took a deep breath and slowly sat up ignoring the pain between my legs, I leaned my back to the headboard while pulling the cover over my chest and looking up at the ceiling. 

I sighed and closed my eyes; I love you dad and I’m so sorry for hurting you that day!

The sound of footsteps made me open my eyes, I quickly wiped my tears and looked at Arthur, who was walking into the room dressed in a black business suit which fitted him perfectly. He glanced at me while fixing his tie, 

“Pack your things and move in, Coop will help you,”  he said and walked out of the room. 

I got up from the bed and grabbed my clothes which were thrown on the floor, I dressed up and fixed my hair before walking out of the room. As I stepped out, A maid walked up to me with a morning-after pill and glass of water. My cheeks heated up looking at the tray, I quickly took a tablet and gulped it down with water. 

“Thank you,” I said, the maid smiled and walked away. 

As I walked downstairs, Coop was already waiting for me in the living room, I noticed sympathy in his eyes for me, which made me swallow the lump formed in my throat. 

He gestured to follow him, and I did. He opened the car door for me and I stepped inside, I watched him get inside and start the engine. My mind was blank, my body felt numb and all I could do was watch out of the window and give up. All my life I have yawned for love and in return, I got pain and disappointment, I was strong back then but my life broke me. 

I want to hide from all this pain and save myself from the demons which threatened to swallow me whole, but there’s no place in this world where I could hide from all this. I guess someday I will be at peace and far from all the pain. 

I hope someday I will be happy, Somewhere far from here! I hope. 

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“I want you to stay here and continue your studies,” I said, looking at Bella, she had tears in her eyes which threatened to fall down. 

“If you need anything… don’t hesitate to call me! Okay?” I said while taking her face in my hands. She nodded her head and wrapped her hands around me, hugging me tightly and sobbing loudly. I placed my hands around her while tears in my eyes rolled down my cheeks. 

She helped me pack all my things, and Coop loaded my luggage in the car. I hugged Bella one last time and kissed Dulo before getting inside the car and Coop drove the car. 

I wanted to bring Dulo with me, but I don’t know whether Arthur allows it or not. I have to ask him, Dulo will not sleep without seeing me. I'm just worried about him and Bella. Will they be okay without me? I have to talk about them with Arthur. 

As we reached Arthur’s mansion, Coop parked the car in the parking lot. He opened the car door for me and I stepped out of the car. Maids carried my luggage inside, “Here,” Coop said while stopping in front of the room located just beside Arthur’s bedroom. 

He opened the door and led me inside, the maids had brought my luggage inside. I looked around the room, it was huge and looked similar to Arthur’s room. It had a Queen size bed placed in the middle and was covered with pillows. The room looked very beautiful and luxurious. 

“Miss Ellis, your breakfast is ready, Please,” Coop said, even though my appetite had died long back I still nodded my head and followed him. 

He led me to the dining table and pulled the chair out, “Thank you,” I said while sitting down. A butler walked up to me and served me breakfast. I quietly dug in without having any thoughts in my head. After finishing breakfast, I walked straight to my bedroom. As I stepped in the room, I saw that the maids have neatly set my things in the room. 

I sighed, I have no other things left to do and if I sit here alone then I would end up crying. I don’t want to cry again, I have no energy left in my body to cry, I just have to accept my life now since I have no other choice. 

A sigh left my lips again, I think I will just look around the mansion since I have no other work. However, if I’m going to stay here for the next 364 days I have to get used to this mansion. I turned around and walked out of the room. 

Coop was busy in his work to notice me as I walked through the living room. Apparently, Arthur appointed him as my bodyguard and ordered him to follow me wherever I go like my shadow. I walked to the garden and sat down on the bench; the sun rays fell on my skin making me sigh as my body began to warm up. 

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Day went on as I just roamed around the mansion, Coop had shown me the huge library, study room, game room, movie theatre, the beautiful Swimming pool and also the huge kitchen. Arthur definitely has the most beautiful mansion in the city.