The Broken Rule by Kazia M. (fiction book recommendations txt) 📕

hand he spoke. "I'm a dick a huge stupid dick and I'm sorry."

 

 

His close proximity made my inside melt. I removed his hands from my face and unintentionally kissed him. I might as well forgive him and make the best of tonight. This will be the last time he will ever have me. Stripping myself of my dress ,I allowed Logan to fill me with pleasure.

 

 

 

Logan's POV

 

 

As we had sex Lauren reacted to me differently. I couldn't tell if this was good or bad but she was crying. I've seen her she'd a tear but these were the real deal. Her eyes were a waterfall. She held onto me like she was saying goodbye through sex. This couldn't be goodbye! Could it? Maybe I'm being paranoid. She wouldn't give up on me- on us. Shaking my head to rid the sickening thoughts of her leaving me, I concentrated on what we were sharing now. Together we came and collapsed onto the bed. I weaved my arms around her waist and pulled her closer to me. Neither one of us spoke. Kissing her passionately one more time we let sleep takeover.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Chapter 6

 

Friday Track Practice

Six Weeks Later.......

 

 

 

"PICK UP THE PACE KIRBY!"coach Trish yelled.

 

 

 

 No matter how hard I attempted I couldn't run any faster. Lately practice had become to much. The first track meet of the season is coming up and I'm slacking. Usually the 200 meter run is a piece of cake but I can barely make it down the track. I guess that comes with being pregnant. Yes I'm fucking prego. No one knows but my girls since Lilah bought the damn pregnancy tests. The tests were meant for her but she was scared to take it alone. Julissa and I being the good friends we are took one with her. Actually I took seven because I didn't believe the first six. I thought my friends would stop talking to me but they've been very supportive.

 

 

Lilah came with me to a private clinic ,that her sister works at, yesterday to confirm everything. I met with an older man name Dr. Haul. He was nice and gentle. He informed me that I'm six weeks along and my baby is developing well. We discussed my options and what prenatal care I'd need. Honestly I'm not sure about keeping it or not. I have to decide soon because the time is expiring. Gradually coming to a stop I walked over to coach.

 

 

"You're behind Lauren."she said checking her stopwatch.

 

 

"I know coach."I said vexed by her obvious statement.

 

 

"We want to win the trophie this year and I can't afford to have you messing that up."

 

 

"What are you saying coach?"

 

 

"You're a great runner but this last few weeks you've been straggling. Something is holding back you're full potential. Until you're head is in the game Bianca will substitute for you this weekend."

 

 

"What?!"I asked furious. "I've worked my ass off all year to start this season."

 

 

"I don't like your attitude Kirby."

 

 

"I DON'T GIVE A DAMN!" I snapped catching everyone's attention.

 

 

"You're out of the first and second track meet."

 

 

"Count me out of all of them. I quit." I said walking away.

 

 

Coach and I never got into an argument before. Then again I never had to be benched during a track meet. My feelings are hurt that I quit but I'd have to stop eventually. The baby isn't even her and already ruining my life. Grabbing my gym bag from the locker room I headed for my car.

 

 

 

"Bae wait up!"my boyfriend yelled running to me. I stopped and faced him. "Are ...you...okay? I... seen... what... happened."he said through deep gasp for air.

 

 

"I'm fine Vance."  Yes, I'm dating Vance. He's nice and nothing like Logan. We got together after our date at the carnival. We hid our relationship for two weeks because somebody was afraid of my dad and brother. To be honest they still aren't to happy about it but they try to be nice to him. Mom's ecstatic about our relationship.

 

 

"Do you want me to drive you home?"he asked pulling out his keys.

 

 

"No, I can drive my c-" I paused. Vance cologne made my stomach turn. Now days that intriguing smell I use to love disguised me.

 

 

"Lauren what's wrong?"

 

 

Oh shit! Vomit came from my mouth and through my nose. Vance stood behind me and held my hair. Five minutes straight I threw up everything. The toast I had for breakfast and the pizza slices I had for lunch was now in front of me. My head began to spin when I tried to stand up straight. I stumbled but Vance held on to me so I wouldn't fall.

 

 

"Come on I'm taking you to the nurses office."he said dragging back towards the school. 

 

 

"Vance I don't need to see the freaking nurse." I exclaimed pulling away from him. Running back to my car he caught me. Using both of his arms he trapped be between him and my car.

 

 

"Lauren something's wrong and you need to find out what it is."

 

 

"I know what's wrong and it's none of your concern."

 

 

"You're my girlfriend so yeah it is my concern. Now tell me what's wrong." Tears began to fall from my eyes. Vance eyes filled with worry. He has the right to know. "Lauren please tell me what's wrong."he begged cuffing my face into his soft hands.

 

"You're going to hate me."I cried.

 

 

"I can't hate you Lauren." Wiping away my tears he placed a kiss on my forehead. 

 

"Vance I'm .......pregnant."  Disbelief was written all over his face. His hazel eyes darkened as he backed away. An unfamiliar expression appeared one that I'd never seen before. 

 

 

"YOU CHEATED ON ME?!"he screamed. I flinched at his sudden out burst.

 

 

"NO!"

 

 

"EXPLAIN IT TO ME BECAUSE IM FUCKING CONFUSED. WE HAVEN'T HAD SEX MEANING YOU FUCKING CHEATED!"

 

 

"I WOULDN'T CHEAT ON YOU AND YOU SHOULD KNOW ME BETTER THAN THAT. I GOT PREGNANT BEFORE WE GOT TOGETHER."

 

 

Vance stood silent. Getting into my car I drove off. Glancing through my rearview mirror I saw him still standing there. Instead of going home right away I drove to the beach. The beach is the one place I can come when I need to think. And at this moment I really need to think. I only need one question answered. Do I want this baby?

 

 

 

As I strolled along the beach I read a few pamphlets Dr. Haul gave me. I also wrote a list of pros and cons. I didn't need a kid this young. I couldn't run track this year. My parents would hate me and put me out. Khalil would hate me more than anyone. I'd be a single parent. I don't have enough funds to support two people. I'll have to put college on hold. I had all these cons and only two pros. And those two little pros won. One my baby didn't ask to be here. Two it's a product of me and someone I once loved. I'm going to keep my baby and get a job. Laying on the warm sand I heard my message alert. Checking my phone, I had thirty missed calls from Vance and a text from Julissa. Ignoring his calls I read Julissa's message.

 

Julissa: Bring ur Ass so we can start the movie !!

 

Me: OMW!

 

 

 

CRAP! I forgot I had to be at Julissa's. Running to my car, I drove to my house to grab some clothes. I rarely did sleepovers with my friends but things have changed. Thursday I stay at Lilah's and Friday's I'm at Julissa's. I sleepover to avoid Logan. We haven't talked since we had sex after the carnival. I changed my phone number and treated him as if he didn't exist. At school he tried to talk to me but I ignored him. The two classes we did share I switched out of them. And everytime he spends the night I'm not home. When he is at my house just visiting I make sure we are never alone. 

 

 

 

 

Logan's POV

 

 

 

 "I'm home!"yelled a familiar heart melting voice. That couldn't be Lauren. It's Friday meaning she's doing one of her famous disappearing acts. She's been avoiding me and it's driving me bonkers. When I close my eyes I see her. All day I think about her and us. That I could make her happier than Vance. On several occasions I've contemplated killing him and kidnapping her. I know I sound insane but I love her. Hiding my feelings for her are becoming unbearable. So unbearable I can hear her voice. God I'm checking myself into the loony bin.

 

"Is anyone home?"

 

Okay that sounded to real. Stepping into the hallway I seen Lauren's bedroom door open. Creeping down to her room I stopped in her doorway. She's packing clothes into a miniature suitcase and didn't notice me. She rapidly threw things into it. A pair of her lace panties ,that were meant to thrown in the suitcase, hit the floor.  I picked them up.

 

 

 

"You know if you don't slow down you'll lose your panties."I joked twirling her underwear on my index finger.

 

 

"What are you doing here?"she growled snatching her underwear.

 

 

"It's Friday."

 

 

"No, I mean what are you doing here in my room?"

 

 

"What? I'm not allowed in here anymore?"I asked pouncing on her bed.

 

 

"Wow you would think after being ignored you'd get it."she said grabbing her suitcase and walking to her bedroom door.Wrapping my arms around ,her from behind, I pulled her into my chest. God I've missed holding her."LET ME GO !"she screamed trying to get free.

 

 

"No. Lauren I'm sick of you avoiding me. I miss you."

 

 

"Wish I could say the feeling is mutual."she spat.

 

 

"Is that how you really feel? Do you hate me that much?"I asked turning her to face me. Her chocolate eyes starred deep into mine. A tear slipped down her cheek.

 

 

"Why can't you leave me alone?"

 

 

"Because I love you."

 

 

"Bull you only love what I can offer."

 

 

"Lauren that's not true."

 

 

"Look Logan I have a boyfriend and I'm over you."

 

 

"Prove it."

 

 

"What?"she asked taken by my response.

 

 

"If you're over me prove it."

 

 

"Fine. How do I prove it?"

 

 

"Let me kiss you and if you don't kiss back than you're over me."

 

 

 "No thank you."

 

 

"Are you afraid you'll know truth?"

 

 

"What is the truth exactly?"

 

 

"You're not over me and love me too."

 

 

"To prove you wrong I'll do it."

 

 

Lauren stood still with her eyes locked on me. Cuffing her face into my hand, I kissed her. Her lips were extremely soft and juicy. I bit her bottom lip for more access but it wasn't granted. I expected her to kiss me back ,run her hands through my hair, or something. But she did nothing but stand there. My heart began sinking at her unresponsive lips. Reality struck and I couldn't accept it. I didn't want to accept. My eyes watered and down the tears came. The last time I cried was when my mother abandoned me and my sisters. And that happened years ago. Unable to be around Lauren any longer, I left. I went into my room. If Khalil didn't have my truck ,to impress some chick, I would've went home.