Back To You by Msy Dee (namjoon book recommendations .TXT) 📕

I took my phone, 21 missed calls from Micah. I ignored it, and dial for Gabriel.

“Hey beautiful, what’s up?”

“Are you free now? I am at the Alexandra park”

“Yeah, sure. I will be right over” he hung up the phone.

I not sure why am I calling him at this moment, I am not sure what to say to him. Perhaps I just need someone by my side who can understand and listen to what I want.

“Laylea!” someone shouted for me. Its Gabriel, he ran to my side immediately when he saw me. He saw my puffy eyes and merged mascarar, “What’s wrong? Did somebody hurt you?” I feel like crying again after I hear him saying these. I said nothing, and looked at him. My tears just let it out on her own and won’t stop. He sat beside me and hugged me to his chest. He pat on my back and said nothing. After a while, I felt tired and sleepy. His chest is so warmth, without giving a damn what happen next. I fell asleep..

Suddenly, I opened my eyes. I checked my phone, it’s midnight already, 2 hours have passed?! I looked at Gabriel, he was dozing off. OMG, did I just fall asleep here for 2 hours on him? I tried to get up slowly without disturbing him. But then I did and he woke up looking at me.

“Hey, are you feeling better?” He asked.

“Yes, thank you and sorry for sleeping off just like that.”

“Yes, my butt hurts actually. But is okay, don’t have to apologise.” He stood up slowly to stretch himself. I am feeling so guilty right now, I checked my phone and its out of battery. I sat still and not sure what to do next.

“You must be hungry right?” Gabriel asked.

Yes I am starving. “Not really, I should go back home right now”

“Are you sure? With your ruined makeup and puffy eyes? How would your parents react to that?” I hesitated. Definitely I do not want my mum to get fussed over this and maybe threaten to call the police before she can find out what happen. It’s a no for me to go home in this state.

We reached a bar nearby, which is the only choice we have since all other cafes are closed already. Gabriel ordered some snacks and drinks for me while he ordered beers for himself. The food came, and I am drooling. He giggled when he saw me staring at the food. “Go on, eat it.. We can order more if you like”

There are pizzas, nuggets and fries. I started out with pizza, it was heavenly delicious. I gobbled down the food like a hungry baby, ate one piece and another. “If you feel like telling me what’s wrong, I am always here to listen” Gabriel mentioned it out to me.

What should I say to him? I caught my boyfriend cheating on me? And I ran off without saying and end up crying like a water tap in the park.

“Yes, I will tell you once I am ready. Don’t you want some food? You are hungry right?” Gabriel shared the food with me and we chattered.

“Do you know beer could solve your troubles when you are depressed? It makes you forget what have happened.”

“That’s call drunk dude, stop drinking so much” He laughed.

“sometimes drunk is good, you don’t have to face anything when you are drunk. Everything else doesn’t matter to you.” He has a point though, I don’t wish to face or think of anything right now. I wish to forget tonight and Micah. I took over his beer and finished all in one shot. He smiled, and ordered more for us.

It’s 1.30am, we are still drinking at the bar. Both of us in the drunkard state, talking loudly and laughing at each other. Then the bar owner came to us, telling us that they are closing in soon. We would have to settle the bill and leave now. So Gabriel stood up, walking wobbly and settle the bill. I waited for him, and we leave to

gether. We board the cab together, and head to his house. We landed up in his room and I lied on his bed.. He took off his shirt and lay down beside me. I kicked off my heels and mumbling all kind of words I can imagined.

“We should drink more! Forget everything, the people the reality” I exclaimed to him.

“You silly girl, you are drunk. Go to sleep right now”

“Are you down? You are weak..”I teased

He looked and me, putting his hand on my face.. “Did I not mention that you looked beautiful tonight.” I looked at him back. I went up to him and kiss him like I give a damn about what’s going to happen.

He unzip me gently while we are exchanging the kisses like mad. We lied naked on the bed with him kissing and touching me everywhere and I do the same back. This urge and desire is so strong that I can’t hold back, knowing that he’s Gabriel, knowing that I just had a bad day with my boyfriend, knowing that I don’t give a damn to all these. I need some comforting right now, I am at a high peak that I need somebody to catch me when I fall. Gabriel assured me by kissing me gently, cupping my breasts like a trophy he have never won. He cherish my presence and he rise to his hardest point. I can feel it between my leg, and so he went in slowly and I accepted it.

He is so strong yet gentle, he desire for more without hurting me, he made me a holy queen at that very moment.. I gave myself to him. As my body wanted it badly, everything was perfect. I can feel his warmth body on me, he embrace me like nobody else did. Not even Micah, I know I need this.

The next morning, I woke up from a hangover. The feeling sucks, my head hurts like hell.  I looked at my surround, the reality still came after all.. I looked at Gabriel who is sleeping soundly like a baby. We had sex last night and I remembered everything.

This might be the first time I have the chance to look at Gabriel closely. He has a clean face with chubby cheeks, adorable is the word I guess? Then, Gabriel opened his eyes and caught me looking at him. He smiled, “Good Morning” stretching his body like some sexy wolf.

Gabriel hand me a set of outfit for changing. I looked like crap, ruined make up and I smell like alcoholic. How could anyone stand the sight of me looking like that?!

Gabriel sends me home and I saw Micah standing and walking around. I froze, Gabriel looked me. “What’s wrong?” He asked.

I not sure what to answer his question.. “Would you like to have some breakfast before going off?” I asked him

“Sure, why not.”

I brought Gabriel to the café nearby. We ordered some food and I am dazing, thinking what to do with Micah if he kept waiting outside my house. “Would you like to share your problem with me?” Gabriel asked.

“About last night.. the reason why did I end up in the park and called you..it’s because something happened at the prom.” I can tell that he’s listen patiently with full of concerned and worries. But I continued, I wanted to say out everything. I need a listening ear and advice..But I too, don’t wish to hurt his feelings. “I saw my boyfriend – Micah with one of his classmate – Ivy hanging out at one of the storage room. I followed them and heard their conversation.. Apparently he is hooking up with her.” I looked at Gabriel after finish saying. His expression is so stern and mad, I can tell that he is controlling himself from exploding, he clenched his fist under the table. “I saw him outside my house earlier, and I have no idea what to react if he saw me. So I asked if you to have breakfast with me. Sorry about it”

“Don’t have to. I don’t feel offended from what you have done, I am glad that you called me out. Can’t even imagine what would happen if you stayed there alone the whole night. That fcking bastard.. I can send you to your doorstep later, I will not let him get close to you a single inch.  

Woah.. he looked damn serious in this. If I paint him in green, he would look like a hulk right now. “Don’t have to. I am sure he is gone by the time I go home later.. Don’t worry about me, I will be fine.”

“Are you sure about this? I can just take a day off and accompany you”

“Nah, I am fine really. You should go for your work. I would call you if there’s anything happen”

“Okay, and Laylea.. about last night”

Here it comes, another reality that I need to face

“Yes, last night.. I am grateful that you took me in. I enjoyed the time that I spent with you, but don’t worry. I won’t make you responsible for something that we did when we are drunk” Should I be saying this?

“I am serious in this. I enjoyed my time with you as well, and I want to cherish this moment between us. How would you feel about that?”

“I am sorry to say, but I have not on a total break off from Micah. I don’t wish to hurt you by using you to forget Micah. I hope you understand that I need some time in this.. I am 

grateful for what you have done for me, but I wasn’t ready to make any move yet.” My heart ache, I just hurt Gabriel which I said I wouldn’t want to.

“I understand, perhaps I am too anxious about this. But you don’t have to feel bad that you are using me.. I want you to know that I would always be there for you.”

I nodded.

After the breakfast, we are separated. Gabriel went home and prepare for work. And I walked back slowly thinking about the conversation earlier, feeling bad for Gabriel and mad at myself. On the way back, I keep a lookout for Micah.. He is not outside my house anymore, I fasten my pace to my doorstep wishing him not to appear and prepared my key in my hand opening the door.. “Laylea!” I turned,