Griffin by Rahela Ferarri (smallest ebook reader TXT) 📕

stand and began lowering down, gazing me directly in the eyes. I was so turned on I could come in my pants. She took my glass, and drank a sip leaving a trace of her dark red lipstick on it. She drove me crazy. She was giving me back the glass, and I instinctively grabbed her hand with the glass in it. I swear she felt it too. I am positive. She wanted me. We were swallowing each other with eyes, and for a second I remembered we were not alone and let go of her hand. Then I took the glass, and drank the rest of champagne from her lipstick trace. The guys were speechless. I mean, they must have envied me so much. But my focus was on her. She elegantly stood up and returned to the stage. As soon as the song finished, she called it a break, and rushed back stage without giving me a single look. I called the waiter and sent her a drink backstage. Griffin, for God’s sake, it was so stupid thing to do. Of course she won’t take it. Are you a fucking idiot? Go after her.

 

I didn’t even think it through. I just rushed to the backstage when a huge security guy stopped me at the door.

 

Security:              “I’m sorry Sir, but this is a restricted area.”

 

Griffin:                 “I know, but I am a personal friend of the owner, and I will only be there a second. I won’t cause any trouble.”

 

Security:              “I’m sorry, but I can’t let you pass, Sir. You have to leave.”

 

Carl rushed out after me to see what’s going on.

 

Carl:                    “James, is everything okay?”

 

Griffin:                 “I need to see her. I know her. We work together.”

 

Carl:                    “What? She works with you?? How? Are you kidding me?”

 

Griffin:                 “I don’t have to explain now. Carl, could you please ask your friend to let me in for two minutes. Please, it’s important.” – He stood in disbelief for a moment, but he called the boss, and the Security guy stepped aside and let me in.

 

It was a very dark place, and I tried to find my way through. Then I saw her, holding drink in her hand. I grabbed her hand and she turned around.

 

Griffin:  “Miss Petrov...”

 

Mia:     “Mia”- She replied, staring at the floor.

 

Griffin:  “I never imagined this side of you existed.”

 

Mia:     “But this is not all I am, please, let me explain, I never….” – She was again the little girl. Full of doubts and lacking self-confidence.

 

Griffin: “Please, Mia, don’t explain yourself. I want you to know you’re unlike anything I’ve ever seen before. You’re an enigma to me. You have so much passion and life inside you… You’ve opened the door to a completely different world to me, I never knew it existed; and at the same time, you’re so brilliant, intelligent and different in so many ways…”

 

Mia:     “Please don’t say that.”- She was doubting my words, and shutting me out.

 

Griffin:  "No, let me finish.”-I lifted her soft chin. “Look at me.” – Those beautiful eyes focused on mine again. She didn’t know what to expect of me. How I would react. I decided to open myself to her. To expose the things I’ve been keeping even from myself. I needed to tell her, and she needed to know. “I was so jealous yesterday, when you went with that guy, that I couldn’t recognize myself. You have awaken something that has been buried deep inside me for a long time, and now I just don’t know how to handle these new feelings I have. And tonight….I was…”

 

Mia:       “You were what?” – She snapped. There was a wild cat inside, wanting to reach the surface, ready to defend her. I felt I was losing her, and I needed to tell her how I felt.

 

Griffin:  “I forced you, pushed you to your limits and loaded you with tasks, only because I knew you could handle it. That you have what it takes. I did not believe that a beautiful woman like you could ever earn my deep admiration, but you did. You are worth to me five times more than those executive assholes who don’t give a damn about me, or the company. But you got my back. I feel that. And I want you by my side. In every way.” –I paused to regroup my thoughts. This was it. She needs to know, and then to decide. And I could only hope for the best. “Mia, if you say to me that you’re happy with that guy, I swear to God I’ll walk away, and you won’t hear another word of this from me never again.”

 

Her bend rushed her to the stage again. I guess we lost a track of time.

 

Boys:     “Mia, we have to get on stage. Hurry up”

 

This was it. I am completely exposed, and in her mercy. Whatever she says, I will respect it. Now, it’s in her hands.

Chapter Ten

 

This was it. I am completely exposed, and in her mercy. Whatever she says, I will respect it. Now, it’s in her hands. The absence of control was an unfamiliar territory to me. I felt like someone just swept the rug below my feet. But I didn’t care. She tried to loose herself and run out on the stage, but I held her back. I wanted an answer. I knew that she was struggling inside. Come on Mia, just let this girl I know come out on the surface. I puled her so close, we were on a breath range. My heart wanted to break out of my chest. I don't remember wanting anything so badly as I wanted to pin her against the wall, pull up her dress and take her on the spot. Then she shifted and stared my eyes so insolently I let go her arm. This other person that existed inside of her, was unfamiliar to me. There is so much more about her, and I became aware that I barely scratched the surface. Her lips were so close I had to refrain myself not to kiss her. Her body was pressed on mine. In an istance, she took over the control, and moved her lips lower, down to my neck. Fuck, she was so seductive. The tension between us was so strong I flinched and stepped back. There was a chair behind me, and as soon as I made a step back, I tripped and found myself sitting on it. She didn't take her eyes off of me. Finally, she leaned and whispered to my ear:

 

Mia:       “You don’t know me.” – She rushed to stage again.

 

The adrenaline rush began to flow through my body. I was a mess. What the fuck was that thing I saw tonight in this leather dress? I still had such a hard on, but it wasn’t just about her looks. It was the whole package. I waited for 37 years to meet creature like this and it was the first time that I became aware of the fact that I might never have her. Maybe she was right. I didn’t know her.

              

I couldn’t go back to the table, having her so close to me, and not being able to touch her. I had to go home, take a shower and clear my mind. I rushed out and took a cab. Her smell was still on my neck. It was driving me crazy. Images of her didn’t leave my mind.

              

I entered my apartment and threw my keys at the table, quickly taking off my shoes. Then I noticed that someone was already there.

 

Diane:   “I thought I could wait you here anyway. The doorman let me in.” – She gave me a soft kiss. I imagined those lips I wanted so badly. I was still aroused, and all I could think of was her. Mia. I grabbed her aggressively, and with every kiss I imagined her. Her skin. Her taste. I lifted her dress, and in one stroke I ripped her panties. Diane was ecstatic.

 

Diane:   “Oh, James, I love you so much. You were never so passionate.”

 

Griffin:  “Stop talking!”- I ordered her, and she obeyed instantly. I faced here against the wall, and my eyes were closed. I imagined lifting her dress and taking her at the back stage. I slammed into Diane harder and harder imagining puling Mia's blonde hair backwards and kissing the grains of sweat off her neck. I came in such an ecstasy, and Diane had enjoyed this non expected display of affection from my side. I quickly zipped my pants, and went straight to shower. I released stream of hot water and sat beneath it, with my back against the wall. I knew what I did was wrong, but I had to release this tension somewhere. Anyway, I can’t think about this tonight. There was a voice coming out of the hall.

 

Diane:   “James, do you want me to join you?”

 

James:   “No. Feel free to use another bathroom. Don’t wait me up, I’ll be up working late.”

 

I needed to be alone.

 

I took my laptop but I couldn’t focus. I couldn’t sleep either. Who the hell is this girl who flipped my world in a split second? Actually, it happened a while ago without even noticing it. She crawled underneath my skin so imperceptibly, and spread through my system like a virus. It was never physical. I wanted to explore every dark corner of her soul, but she shut me out.

              

I laid on the sofa, and barely slept at all. I woke up before Diane did, and went for a run. I didn’t want to be there when she wakes up. It was cold, and I could smell snow in the air. Actually, it felt really good. It sucked the alcohol of my system. When I came back, she was already gone. Good. I took a quick shower, and made myself a strong coffee. I grabbed my laptop. Let’s see who this guy is. I needed to see what was about him that attracted a woman like her. He must have something. She was all but superficial. It wasn’t about money and fame. It was different and I knew. It would have been easier if I just assumed she was into him because he was a celebrity, but not this girl. Okay.

 

Alex Black. Real name: Alexander Williams. Age 43. Almost twice her age. Never married. No children. No known relationships. How is this possible?? Dated models, actresses, bla, bla... How the hell does she fit in the picture? Golden Album, Top ten, Platinum album, sold out tours, Europe, Asia, Australia, USA... Net worth over 30 million dollars. I closed the screen. I saw enough.

 

How can I cope with someone like him? I mean, I have a PhD, I’m great at what I do. But does this all mean anything for her? This world of theirs confused me. This guy would probably laugh at my face. I mean, I spent my entire life learning, studying, building this company, making reputation, and he is living it. He is actually living the life. He is a millionaire, travels all over the world, and... And he has her. This hurt the most. Griffin, you are making a fool out of yourself. She could never belong to you. What? You