His Despair by S. N. Nina Arthur (e textbook reader txt) 📕

Davina’s Pov:-

Days went on, Mr. Thomas began to do tests on her regularly and I was growing very curious to know what he has to say about April’s condition. I want to know what happened to her, and how I can help her to recover from this.

Day by day I was growing more curious and also disappointed. I was extremely frustrated because of Arthur. I couldn’t control my anger when I don’t see anything from him whenever I look at my phone as I hear it ringing, but when I look at it, that small hope inside me gets crushed. 

As days went, that hope was replaced by frustration and sadness, I don’t know why he isn’t calling me and I don’t understand why I am behaving this way. I was getting hurt and I can’t stop myself from thinking about him and hoping that he will call me. 

I tried hard to divert myself from this but I couldn’t. I want to suppress this and forget about him completely but I guess my body and mind were completely controlled by him. No matter how much I try to control myself, I end up lost in his thoughts and thinking about why he wasn’t calling.  

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Day 8

“Whoever did this to her wanted her to fear them and obey their commands... The bruises on her body were evidence to their intentions… it’s clear...whoever this person is... They have vented their anger on her… might be the anger on her parents were taken on her!” Mr. Thomas said while looking at April. She was sitting on the floor playing with her doll, I swallowed the lump in my throat while looking down at her with tears rolling in my eyes.

We were sitting in the living room with the April’s reports laying on the coffee table, Mr. Thomas was sitting on the opposite couch. 

“Her vocabulary is extremely weak… she was only taught to say her name… Yes, No, and remaining things were only gestures... they made her respond to only their command… she was not taught to respond to any other person… for her age, she’s too weak, Miss Ellis,” he said while lowering his head, my eyes moved to his hands, they were fisted in anger. 

“H-How can I help h-her,” I stuttered while controlling hard not to cry,  he looked at me with a sad expression on his face. 

He sighed deeply, “You need to talk to her and make her believe she’s safe, you need to gain her trust and try hard to make her talk… teach her things,” he said while looking at my face, “... she needs a mother figure, Miss. Ellis,” My eyes moved to her.

“...You need to be her mother… You need to teach her everything a mother teaches… care for her as a mother… love her like one… she needs the love! Love of a mother” he said while looking at me with a serious expression, 

Everything happened between me and April flashed in front of my eyes, our meeting, her weak condition, there was some invisible connection between us and I don’t know what is that but it was so strong that I ended up fighting with Arthur for her. 

From the day I met her, I have felt this connection and I don’t know and I don’t care what it is but I have decided that I would protect this child from every single one no matter what happens. 

I took a deep breath while closing my eyes, “I will!” I whispered, 

“I will be her mother and take care of her… I will help her recover from all this, “ I said looking at him, a small smile appeared on his face hearing my words. 

“Alright then…” he was beaming with happiness, “... I'm gonna give a list of things for you which will help you with April… “ he took a pen and a notebook, “...her diet, medications…” he began noting down while explaining to me about the usage. 

Unknowingly my eyes moved to my phone. A sigh left my lips when I saw no notifications, a sadness settled inside my chest. 

Arthur! Please!

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Day 11

“Yes,” I said while helping April to hold a pen, she was quietly following me. After what Mr.Thomas has said to me, I began to take care of her like a mother, I consider her as my own and never let her out of my sight. 

I was positive that she’s getting used to me and growing comfortable around people now. Other than me, she’s becoming comfortable with Mr. Thomas as well. The way he talks to her, treats her and makes her comfortable was something very pleasing to watch. I wish Arthur does that too, I wish he stops hating kids. I just wish April and Arthur would grow close to each other. 

I placed a book in front of her and gestured at her, she slowly began drawing circles on the paper. I leaned my back to the couch and watched her. I was sitting on the floor with April sitting beside me, she looked so calm and peaceful than before and it made me feel relieved. 

I pushed her hair back while smiling at her, she turned her head and looked at me, “Go on…” I said while smiling warmly. 

I sighed deeply while taking my phone and looking at it. A few days back I fought with Coop, I was growing impatient and a sudden urge to hear Arthur’s voice, it began to eat me inside and before I could realise what I was doing, I found myself shouting at coop to give Arthur’s number. 

I wanted to ask him, Why did he make me wait for him this badly when he never intended to call in the first place? Where the hell he was? What was stopping him coming back? 

Coop being Coop, declined me, he said, “Mr. Spencer said to not do that Miss. Ellis.” I went ballistic and began to scream at him in frustration. From the time that Arthur left for the business trip, I don't know how I survived these many days without proper sleep. I couldn’t sleep at night at all, there was constant craving for his voice, to see him, to touch him.