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sight of him consoled.

Without, in the garden, Grizel was flitting from tree to tree like a big gold moth, bending her head to drink in the heavy perfume. The curve of the neck, the curve of the cheek half hidden against the leaves, the reed-like figure bent low from the waist, they were the very epitome of grace.

ā€œMartin! Martin! I must have some of these to take up to my room. Thereā€™s magic in the scent of red roses... real country roses, living on their own stems. It has something different from all other scents. These are the trees which little Juliet planted? How sweet she was that day, when they were planted, and she was so happy, so dirty, like a pretty child in her big pinafore! They ought to be sweet!ā€

Martin winced. He did not reply, but taking a knife from his pocket cut off one or two of the best blooms, carefully pruning the thronged stems. For the first months after Julietā€™s death her name had been continually on his lips, he had loved to talk about her, to hear her discussed; later on the reference had become rarer, more strained; now for years it had been avoided as elaborately as though it had belonged to a criminal, a prodigal. The young fair face still hung on the walls, but in the house where she had lived no one mentioned Julietā€™s name. Only Grizel, an outsider, talked of her still, naturally, simply, with a transparent pleasure in the remembrance.

Martin was not sure whether the reference more pleased or jarred. Yes! he remembered! He should never forget that bright autumn day, the laughing crowd of spectators, the picture of his girl wife in her short garden skirt, waving her spade in triumph. He could never forget, but the personal significance had faded. There seemed little connection between himself and that boyish bridegroom; it was an effort to realise that that sweet child had truly been his wife.

The present moment seemed far more real, more vital. Himself, the man, occupied with the matured work of life; Grizel, the woman, instinct with the lure of her sex. He held the roses towards her that she might enjoy their fragrance, and for a minute they stood in silence, side by side. Then Grizel raised her head, and looked into his face with a long, penetrating glance. This was the real moment of their meeting, and both silently recognised it as such.

ā€œHow goes it, Martin?ā€ she asked in her soft rich voice. ā€œHow goes it?ā€

ā€œHaltingly, Grizel, haltingly!ā€ his smile flickered, and died out. ā€œWeā€™ll talk of that presently; you are the one person to whom I can talk on that subject, but first of all there is something else. Prisoner at the Bar.ā€”Why donā€™t you like my book?ā€

His voice was gentle, bantering, almost tender in tone. There was not the faintest touch of offence, but Grizelā€™s discomfiture was as naĆÆve and undisguised as that of a child.

ā€œMartin! you said that we were not to discussā€”ā€

ā€œNot in public; not at meals, not even before Katrine, but certainly when we are alone. Thereā€™s no getting out of it, Grizel. You said nothing, it was only a tone, but as it happens I understand your tones. The book may run through a dozen editions, but for you it has failed. Why?ā€

She stood before him, slim and straight, her face puckered in thought.

ā€œIā€”donā€™tā€”know! Everything,ā€”or was it nothing, Martin?ā€

ā€œCan I help you to find out? A few leading questions perhaps... Is it clever?ā€

ā€œVery clever.ā€

ā€œOriginal?ā€

ā€œOriginal!ā€

ā€œInteresting?ā€

ā€œQuite interesting.ā€

ā€œClever, original, and interesting, and already in its third edition! What would you have more, Mistress Critic?ā€

Grizel lifted her right hand, and lightly tapped her heart.

ā€œClever, interesting, original, but it didnā€™t touch! The craft is good, Martin; you are a skilful workmanā€”I think you grow more and more skilful, butā€”ā€

ā€œGo on, Grizel; donā€™t be afraid. Tell me the whole truth.ā€

Grizel faced him in silence. It was not often that so grave and thoughtful an air was seen upon her sparkling face. Her eyes gazed past his, far away into the night.

ā€œOnce,ā€ she said dreamily, ā€œthere was a painter. He painted marvellous pictures, but it was the depth and tone of his colouring which made him celebrated over all the world. And of all his colours there was one in particular which appeared in all his pictures, and the secret of which his fellow-artists tried in vain to discover. It was a red, Martin, a red so rich, so warm, so kindled, that all who beheld it felt warmed in their souls, and his fellow-artists questioned and pondered, and tried in vain to produce the same glow upon their own canvasesā€”and the years passed, and they grew old and weary, and still they failed. At last one day the great man died, and those who tended him for his burial were amazed to find a wound, an open wound, above his heart. And then at last they understood. The red of his pictures, the glow which had warmed the world, had been painted with his own blood!ā€

There was silence in the garden. The scent of roses hung heavy upon the air.

ā€œAnd I,ā€ said Martin slowly. ā€œI write in ink.ā€

Grizel made no reply. She turned from the rose-bed, and passed along a winding path which led round the herbaceous border to the slope of the orchard beyond. It was a narrow path, too narrow for two to walk in line, so that Martin, following, could not see her face. It was like Grizel, he reflected, to have chosen that path at this moment. She divined that he could speak more openly unseen.

ā€œAnd even, Grizel, if I wrote in your painterā€™s medium, my reds would have no glow! One cannot give out what one does not possess. While I am cold myself, how can I give out warmth? It is so long, Grizel, since my heart was warm!ā€

A sigh floated back to his ears.

ā€œPauvre!ā€ breathed the deep voice, but she did not turn her head; the gleaming figure flitted before him down the darkening path.

ā€œI flattered myself that I had made a brave pretence. It was a good enough sham to delude the world, but You have found me out. Donā€™t think that I regret itā€”I am thankful to Heaven that some one understands. To be praised for what one knows to be false is a bitter pill. Sometimes I wonder, shall I throw it all up? Settle down comfortably into the rut, andā€”grow roses! I could grow good roses, Grizel; the best of their kind. There would be no need to be ashamed.ā€

In the twilight he saw her shake her head. A fold of the golden robe escaped her hands, and trailed on the ground. They stooped together to lift it up, and she smiled up at him with her sweet gay smile.

ā€œBut you couldnā€™t, Martin; you couldnā€™t do it! You might make a hundred resolutions, but youā€™d begin again. Thereā€™s no escape that way, dear man. You must write, as you must breathe, therefore it follows that you must get warm. Chills are depressing things, but they are dangerous only when they are allowed to settle. This old house of yours has its back to the sun.ā€

ā€œI can read your parable, Grizel, but circumstancesā€”like housesā€”are not easily turned round. Life has made chains for me from which I cannot escape. Katrineā€”ā€

ā€œI ratherā€”suspect,ā€ interrupted Grizel drawling, ā€œthat Katrineā€™s chains are slackening! Some one, or something, has been supplying the oil. Another creak or two and she will be breaking loose, and going off at a tangent which will surprise your innocent mind!ā€

ā€œSymbols again! I donā€™t follow so easily this time, but if the signs are good, I am uncommonly thankful. I can talk openly to you, Grizel, for you wonā€™t misunderstand. Katrine isā€”on my mind! Perhaps it would be more honest if I said on my nerves! Iā€™ve a suspicion that Iā€™m on her nerves also, and the mischief of it is, that things are growing worse. Thereā€™s nothing definitely wrong, and yet thereā€™sā€”everything! I feel an utter brute.ā€

To his astonishment, to his relief, Grizel laughed; a blithe and comfortable laugh. They had reached the summit of the orchard by this time, and had paused to look down at the twinkling lights of the village before turning back to the house.

ā€œPoor, dear, conventional brute! Am I expected to be shocked? Iā€™m not one bit, and I canā€™t pretend to be. Itā€™s not your fault, and itā€™s not Katrineā€™s. You have both done your laborious bests to accomplish something that has never been accomplished by effort since the world began, and you are both overcome with Remorse because it has failed. Iā€™d like to present you with a putty medal apiece to the memory of a successful failure. You have lived together, two utter strangers, who happen to have been born brother and sister, for eight long years without once descending to violence. Itā€™s magnificent, itā€™s incredible! You ought to be intoxicated with pride! Itā€™s the most unique quality on earth which enables two people to live in happiness and understanding, and what constitutes it, the dickens only knows. Weā€™ve got it,ā€”my old Buddy and I. We are at opposite ends of the poles, we can on occasions quarrel like cats, but in the main we understand; we fit! You and Katrine donā€™t touch within miles. Thereā€™s no credit, thereā€™s no blame. Fate placed us together, not choice. I have succeeded becauseā€”please realise this!ā€”I didnā€™t need to try. You, poor lambs, have tried away what little chance you had. It is affectation to pretend that it is your fault. The only blame would be to go on living in a false condition.ā€

ā€œI know it, I know it! Iā€™ve been feeling it more and more strongly. Itā€™s not fair to Katrine; itā€™s not fair to me or to my work. But what can I do? I brought her here, she has given up her youth to looking after me, thereā€™s no other home open, to herā€”I donā€™t pretend that her happiness is bound up in mine, but she thinks that it is, and thatā€™s virtually the same thing. She would feel desperately aggrievedā€”ā€

ā€œOh, you unselfish people, thereā€™s no dealing with you!ā€ Grizel shrugged impatiently. ā€œLet her feel aggrieved! If itā€™s a case of smarting for a week, or freezing for life, then let her smart! Canā€™t you make up your mind just for once in your life to speak the bold, blatant truth? ā€˜Katrine, my dear, we are getting sick of each otherā€”letā€™s cut it, and part! Iā€™ll give you an allowanceā€”go off and pay visits, or set up a crib of your own, enjoy yourself in your own way, but for Heavenā€™s sake let me be happy too!ā€™ā€

Martin shook his head.

ā€œI couldnā€™t, Grizel; I couldnā€™t! It may be the right thing to do, but Iā€™m a coward. I canā€™t face it. Not that way!ā€

Grizel looked at him whimsically. Menā€”the best of men, were so apt to believe that so long as the words were not actually spoken, their feelings remained concealed. And woman,ā€”the pity of it!ā€”could read the meaning of a sign. This woman already had read the signs. Undoubtedly, inevitably, a change was at hand!

Chapter Seven.

Despite her growing indifference towards neighbouring festivities, Katrine could not resist a thrill of excitement in preparing for the Barfield Garden Party, which was in truth no ordinary local function, but an important, almost a national, fĆŖte. Among the guests royalty itself might appear; foreign potentates, ambassadors, distinguished politicians, disciples of the arts and sciences would be on show on the wide lawns, and within the splendid rooms of the old Castle. It would be, as Katrine herself had said, a very Zoological Garden of lions, among whom an insignificant spinster from a country town must of necessity appear the smallest of small fry.

Martin, of course, owned a roar of his own, a minor roar, but still distinguishable among the rest, but his sister had no claim

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