Life makes you strong by Charol Conner-Rivera (best life changing books .txt) 📕

I'm always thinking that bacause I'm fat I don't deserved to be loved by anyone but for some reason alot of people like me. I was always told by my brothers and sister that I was ugly now because I gained so much weight but my tought were who cares. I learn that a person is not beautiful because of her other shell a person is beautiful because of their felings toward others.

I got so tired of being the ugly duckling in my family that now I don't have any family. I don't speak to my mother because she always threated me different that the other six kids she has. I had to grow up babysitting my brothers and sisters while my mom went partying with my aunts and uncle to a bar. I couldn't have not fun. If I ever told my mother no when ever she wanted me to babysit I would get hit with whatever she found. I was skinny them but them and people seem to like me alittle bit better but I still din't have fun because as the older girl I had to take care of the little one's. Things got really bad at home so as soon as I turn 18 I decided to leave the house and ran away with a man that I taught care about me come to find out he was just using me and when I got pregnant by him he told me to leave and I left because I can't never force any one to be a father when he wasn't even a man. I unfortunally went back to my mother's house were my sister that was two year's younger than me was living with her boyfriend which was to be the father of her second child and also by older brother and his wife were living there and also expecting a baby. I was one out of three females that were living with my mom and expecting a child. I was always reminded that I was also the only one who's child did not have a father. The day came when I went to have my child a boy name Jonathan. I was so happy because I was the only one that had a boy but also the only one who had everything for the baby because all the other couples were waiting for my mother to buy them everything but me the one they say that was having the kid without a father worked until 3 days before I had my child and I bought everything that my child needed before he was born.

My pregnancy was not easy because every one put me down. I didn't have any helped from my mother when it came to my child crying all night but my sister and my brothers wife had all my mothers helped. I felt like I wasn't worst anything but the experience helped me be a better mother for my child. I went to work 2 weeks after I had my child and my grandmother who loved me so much helped me by babysitting her only great grandson at the time; I even moved next door to her and walk to work and from work at 2:00 a.m. in a street that was very dangerous to walk thru at night but god helped me thru everything. While my sister and sister in law were receiving wellfare for their child I decided to struggle with my son and work not wait for the government to give me money because how can I show my child to be a man when he grow's up if I'm waiting for the government to support us "No" I have to show him now that he needs to study hard so he doesn't have to go thru what I'm going thru right now some times going with out food for me but making sure he has everything that he needs. I gained alot of weight from 125lbs that I used to weight now I weight 289. I'm embarrast to say that I think I'm very ugly but even if I think I'm ugly I found a man that loves me and my child no matter what! He thinks I'm so beautiful because he say beauty is not on the outside of a person is in the inside and he thinks that I'm very beautiful and fun to be around he tell's me that everyday. We have being together for 10 years and married for 4. With him I learn to look at life a different way. My mother and I still don't talk to each other even thought we work at the same place, out 3 sisters and 3 brother I only speak to one because she's the only one that don't put me down because of my weight. I pray to god that everything change but I think some times I rather be like that just my son who is 11, my husband and I.

Publication Date: 12-13-2009

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