Her Love Fades... by Kerry Boo.. (books suggested by bill gates TXT) 📕

back with force almost like she thought this was going to be her last kiss.

I couldn’t help but smile, even though she wasn’t officially mine, I still felt like she was. In my heart. I know cheesy as hell but true. I could feel her smile in to our kiss, I had to pull away. “One more thing baby girl.”

She moved her bangs out of her eyes and blushed. “What’s that boo?”

I grabbed her hand. “I still want to hold your hand in public.” I laughed, I figured she wouldn’t care, but I still felt the need to make sure she was ok with it. She smiled and nodded her head. “And…you’re always going to have my heart baby girl, I don’t care whether you have a bf and I don’t care if I have a gf, you will always own it.”

“Same for you Lukas.” Her dad walks in and tells her to get in to the car that they had to go some where. She kisses me again and drags me out the door and into the car. I sit down and she sits beside me, I slide closer to her and wrap my arms around her waist. It’s storming pretty bad, all we could hear was the rain pounding on the car; the lightning lighting up the car and the thunder screaming.

Andi was covering her mouth with her sleeve and staring out the window. It was dark you couldn’t see anything except when the lighting light up the sky. I watched as a tear slowly slide down her face, I hugged her tighter. “Andi is everything ok?” she shook her head no as another tear dived down her face.

“What is it babe?” She shook her head no like she wasn’t going to tell me but I squeezed her tighter to offer comfort and she glanced up and me and buried her head in to my body.

She sniffled. “This is how my sister died.”

I wanted to make her tears vanish without a trace; no evidence they were ever there but her makeup was smeared and her eyes were red and swollen. I didn’t know what I was supposed to say so I just hugged her tighter and let her cry in my arms. That was all I could do. Her crying turned into sobbing and her sobbing turned in to bawling. If I could have held her any tighter, believe me I would have.

“It was storming like this and my dad was driving to New York, the car was smacked in to by another car, on my sisters side… she made it to the hospital and had a surgery. She was ok for the surgery for awhile” I could feel her body shaking. “I went in there to see her… I was lying on the bad with her when she flat lined, she was the closest person I ever had.”

“babe.” I could feel my throat getting tighter. I struggled to keep talking. “I am here for you right now, I always will, I know I can’t replace her… and I know you miss her and need her, but I will be here for you as long as you want me to be.”

She sobbed. “Are you prepared to honor that promise? Because I am going to want you here forever.”

I lifted her up and placed her on my lap so she was facing me; she wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me. I wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her closer, I pulled back and took a deep breath and then I said forever. I went back to kissing her she unwound her arms and grabbed my hand, I was positive I only wanted her.

By now she had stopped crying and was smiling, in addition to kissing me… which just made me happy.

Her father walked up to the car and yanked the door open, he was pissed, and I didn’t know why I didn’t care why. But I was sure he was going to bitch about it where ever the hell we were going. His look turned from anger to disgust when he seen her sitting on my lap. I looked at Andi with question in my eye, she just shook her head.

Andi<3
“Umm dad is everything ok?”

He turned and looked at me and then at Luke. He clenched his jaw and spit the words “I hope you used protection.”

I seen Luke’s facial expression instantly drop, he put his head down and stared at the floor. He stuttered. “Y-yes…si-sir.”

And looked at me and kissed him. I looked in to his eyes and whispered “he isn’t going to do anything boo.” I could see the tension in his eyes slowly fade. I looked at my dad; he was watching us in the mirror. I can’t believe he was driving while I was sitting on Luke’s lap. I looked back and Luke and leaned close to him and whispered “forever.”

He smiled at me and all the worry drained from his eyes, “and always.” I started smiling and crying and laughing, so good tears I guess… he looked at me and started laughing, meanwhile my dad was in the front seat driving, I could tell this was rubbing him the wrong way. I slide beside Luke and buried my head in to his shoulder. He wrapped her arms around me… and then… there was a loud crash.

I jumped up as my eyes surveyed outside trying to figure out that crash was. Luke grabbed my face and kissed me. Only then did I see a gun pointed at our window. My dad had crashed in to someone and they were pissed. They were out for blood. i held on tight to Luke I was scared that this was going to be our last moments together.

My dad jumped out of the car and the guy moved the gun and aimed it at his head. I couldn’t take this, I escaped lukes tight grasp and ran towards my father, he was an ass but I would miss him. I stood in front of my father, so between my dads death of a bullet. The guy let out an evil laugh… Only then did I see the boots. I fell to the ground leaving my father open for exposure to the bullet.

Lukas<3
I don’t know. What was going on and who was that guy holding the gun. Wait! Why was he pointing it at Andi? I walked up beside Andi and pulled her behind me. I could feel her trembling and I could hear her tears rolling down both of her cheeks. Don’t ask. I just could. “What do you want?!” I demanded with both fear and anger in my voice

He must have heard them both because he just laughed. He took the barrel of the gun and ran it down the part of Andi’s arms that was exposed. “her.” His voice was scratchy, it sounded like he had been chewing on pine needles all his life.

I wasn’t going to give Andi to this creep. I bend down and looked her in the eyes. “Andi… Please, go get in the car.” She shook her head and I became frustrated, I didn’t mean to sound as mean as I did but this was her life on the line and she wasn’t listening to me. I clenched my jaw and in a quiet and terrifying voice I whispered in her ear “GET IN THE FUCKING CAR ANDI. FUCKING LISTEN TO ME FOR ONCE.”

I know I hurt her but there was nothing else that I could do. I watched her bite her tears away and grab my hand. She was begging for me to follow after her but I had to stay. With some effort I shook her grip off my hand and pushed her away. She unwillingly climbed into the passenger seat. I could see the tears pouring down her face. The guy wanted nothing to do with us at all. He turned to the car and pointed the gun at Andi,
“Andi… You left something last time you paid me a visit.” What was he talking about? He smiled a horrible big toothy grin that exposed his chipped and yellow teeth. “It’s really a shame you had to go and leave, you ruined all the fun Andi, I mean I had the most fun with you.” He raised the barrel and pulled the trigger. And then ran away.

I ran over to the car, I yanked open the door and she was ok. She was shot in the arm but she shrugged it off like nothing had ever happened. She tried to stand up out of the car but lost her balance. I was there and I caught her before her head smacked hard into the ground. She smiled and kissed my cheek. The ambulance arrived and her father drove him. He didn’t want to go with her… So I did.

The only reason I didn’t move on was because I wasn’t ready to, or willing to. I knew I needed to… I also knew that it was too soon. I turned and smiled at Andi, staring into her eyes. They still stopped every thought that was going on in my head and put them on freeze. They still had the ability to make my heart skip a beat. Would that ever change?

Andi<3
~2 Weeks later~
I haven’t talked to Luke lately and my feelings for him still haven’t decreased not even a little. I’ve been avoiding him, hoping that I could get over him. Move on. You know everything a girl wants after some one continues to keep breaking they’re heart. Every time I looked at him there was a flash of hope that we would get back together again and this time it would last forever. I knew I was being stupid, I was just fooling myself… This ultimately was hurting myself.

I walked to the park where me and Lukas gone before we had broken up. It brought back some memories, and I pushed them away. I didn’t call to those memories so why do they keep replaying in my head? Those memories always brought with them tears. Tears that I didn’t need. I could see autumn sitting under the tree me and Luke had declared our love and made it official. I walked over to her and sat on the green grass and crossed my legs in front of her. I took a deep breath before speaking. “Hey Autumn.” She glanced up at me; she must not have heard me walk over. She smiled and then frowned. I traced where she was staring and figured out she was staring at my wrist. Where Luke’s bracelet was.

“Andi why are you still wearing that!?” she looked at me with anger in her eyes, it made me feel like she was about to yank it off and burn it.

I scooted backwards a little and moved my wrist behind my back. “I’m allowed to wear it autumn. Me and Lukas are supposed to get back together eventually so it isn’t hurting anyone.”

“Andi it’s not hurting anyone, but its going to piss his girlfriend off.”

The air caught in my throat when she said that. Please don’t tell me