Stories of the Past by Brittany M. J. W. Cook (top inspirational books .txt) 📕

all of us alot of pain. Oh but, no, she can't go down alone she has to take everyone else down with her, just to make herself feel better. She thinks everything is about her happiness. She wants both men to herself. She will do anything to get them both.

As the days go by I wonder when will the truth come out? I wonder when it will all end? I wish I could get away from it all. The lies. The secrets. I wish I could just start over new. Far away from all the lies, secrets, pain, the hurt, and the tears i'v cried.
I just want to get away and hide from all the noise within me. Its screaming at my brain to just yell it out already. I try to hold it in, but I can't for much longer. I just can't do it anymore. I'm starting to hate what my life has become of. I only want to be happy with him, start a whole new life, get out of this one. I'm stuck in a hell zone full of hate and torture. I want to stay with him, free of lies and regret, no tears, no fears. I don't think I can take it much longer.

I sit here and wonder how can I tell him? how do I begin? when do I tell him? Will he ever forgive me? I have so many questions, but I have no answers. None what so ever.


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It's all out now. He knows it all. She can't run from the truth anymore. She still trys and trys to hide it, she knows its to late, but she just won't face the truth. He left when it should have been her that had to leave, but she still won't admit to it. Any of it. I hope the worst will be over soon, but I know its no where near being over.

Her own child, her own little boy tells them the truth and says that he wants to be with his dad and not his mom. What do I, What do we do now? Where do I go from here? Do we try again or just start over?

He might come back, but she is only gonna do it again. Why doesn't she just make it easy and let him go? Leave him alone? Move on? She is the one doing all of it. Causing all the pain, miserly, and tears. Why can't he see that? He can do a whole lot better if he only tried to and everybody knows it. I know it. He should just walk away from her with his head held high, he did nothing wrong. Save himself a whole lot of pain. I know it won't be easy for him to do, but he has to try. Just let her go so that she doesn't have the chance to hurt him ever again.

She has finally gone away now. She can't hurt him, us anymore ever again. He has found some one a whole lot better some one worth being called a mother. She is everything a real mother should be. I also finally get to move in with the man I love so very much and be happy. I get, We all get to start over with out any lies, any secrets. We get to live with out anything to hide from one another.

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Sitting here alone I wish I had a friend, but I'v always been alone. I guess I should be getting used to it since I'v been here all my life and all alone. I never really knew my parents, I was raised by someone I'm not even kin to, but I truly thank them for there kindness.

Every day all I do is cook, clean, and sit on the front porch in my chair and watch the beautiful purple, pink, and a hint of orange lighting of the sun setting,and the sun rise over the tall green trees and fields of green grass growing tall in the distance. Sometimes I wish I could be anywhere but here. I also learned to live my life to the fullest because tomorrow is never promised to anyone.




As the days go by I start to look around and wonder what it would be like to go around the world, maybe to the mountains, the rivers and creeks, the beaches. I wonder what it would be like to see the world and all it offers to us.

Most people take it for granted, but me I have learned to love what you had. To go as far as you can. To do what ever you love, what ever makes you happy. I have learned to make the best out of life and to always do your best and to never quit.

God has made the most beautiful things on Earth. You should never think twice on what you love to do. Some times I just like to sit on the porch after a rain storm and look at the giant, beautiful rainbow. It's so full of different colors and different shades of it.




Or sometimes just sit on the porch and watch the clothes blow in the wind that are hanging on the clothes lines.





I love the country, it has nothing, but fields and a dirt road. There are no streets, city lights, car noises it's just quiet, wide open fields of green grass and trees, with a creek near by to wash laundry in.

It's so beautiful how everything is nice and colorful. There is nobody around for mile to start any trouble. Nothing but piece and quiet. I love it out here so much, but I want to see more, to see the city and meet new people. I want to learn new religions to learn new cultures.

If you sit quiet enough you may get to see the deer sitting in the fields eating. They look so graceful walking around out there without a care in the world.




Maybe if you go to the creek and your quiet you can catch some fish of all shapes, sizes, and colors.




I wonder if I was anywhere in the world, but here where would I be now? How different do people dress? How many languages could I learn? So Many questions, but so few answers. I wonder What types of foods do other people eat, how do they live. I want to learn everything I can about them and all there ways.

I read about them a lot so I know some things about them. I read about the Amish and their ways, the Shakers and their ways and bunches more. All of them sounds so interesting to me, in a lot of different ways.

I also wonder if I could go Anywhere in the World, but here.


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Text: Most photographs from Google, but there are a few by me. The pic on the cover is a pic of me...!
Publication Date: 09-07-2011

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