By Shore and Sedge by Bret Harte (feel good books to read txt) 📕

“Ah! it is a goddess, Mademoiselle, that has deigned to enter the cell where—where—I—amuse myself. It is droll—is it not? I came here to make—what you call—the experiment of your father’s fabric. I make myself—ha! ha!—like a workman. Ah, bah! the heat, the darkness, the plebeian motion make my head to go round. I stagger, I faint, I cry out, I fall. But what of that? The great God hears my cry and sends me an angel. Voila!”

He attempted an easy gesture of gallantry, but overbalanced himself and fell sideways on the pallet with a gasp. Yet there was so much genuine feeling mixed with his grotesque affectation, so much piteous consciousness of the ineffectiveness of his falsehood, that the young girl, who had turned away, came back and laid her hand upon his arm.

“You must lie still and try to sleep,” she said gently. “I will return again. Perhaps,” she added, “there is some one I can send for?”

He shook his head violently. Then in his old manner added, “After Mademoiselle—no one.”

“I mean—” she hesitated—“have you no friends?”

“Friends,—ah! without doubt.” He shrugged his shoulders. “But Mademoiselle will comprehend—”

“You are better now,” said Rosey quickly, “and no one need know anything if you don’t wish it. Try to sleep. You need not lock the door when I go; I will see that no one comes in.”

He flushed faintly and averted his eyes. “It is too droll, Mademoiselle, is it not?”

“Of course it is,” said Rosey, glancing round the miserable room.

“And Mademoiselle is an angel.”

He carried her hand to his lips humbly—his first purely unaffected action. She slipped through the door, and softly closed it behind her.

Reaching the upper deck she was relieved to find her father had not returned, and her absence had been unnoticed. For she had resolved to keep de Ferrieres’s secret to herself from the moment that she had unwittingly discovered it, and to do this and still be able to watch over him without her father’s knowledge required some caution. She was conscious of his strange aversion to the unfortunate man without understanding the reason, but as she was in the habit of entertaining his caprices more from affectionate tolerance of his weakness than reverence of his judgment, she saw no disloyalty to him in withholding a confidence that might be disloyal to another. “It won’t do father any good to know it,” she said to herself, “and if it DID it oughtn’t to,” she added with triumphant feminine logic. But the impression made upon her by the spectacle she had just witnessed was stronger than any other consideration. The revelation of de Ferrieres’s secret poverty seemed a chapter from a romance of her own weaving; for a moment it lifted the miserable hero out of the depths of his folly and selfishness. She forgot the weakness of the man in the strength of his dramatic surroundings. It partly satisfied a craving she had felt; it was not exactly the story of the ship, as she had dreamed it, but it was an episode in her experience of it that broke its monotony. That she should soon learn, perhaps from de Ferrieres’s own lips, the true reason of his strange seclusion, and that it involved more than appeared to her now, she never for a moment doubted.

At the end of an hour she again knocked softly at the door, carrying some light nourishment she had prepared for him. He was asleep, but she was astounded to find that in the interval he had managed to dress himself completely in his antiquated finery. It was a momentary shock to the illusion she had been fostering, but she forgot it in the pitiable contrast between his haggard face and his pomatumed hair and beard, the jauntiness of his attire, and the collapse of his invalid figure. When she had satisfied herself that his sleep was natural, she busied herself softly in arranging the miserable apartment. With a few feminine touches she removed the slovenliness of misery, and placed the loose material and ostentatious evidences of his work on one side. Finding that he still slept, and knowing the importance of this natural medication, she placed the refreshment she had brought by his side and noiselessly quitted the apartment. Hurrying through the gathering darkness between decks, she once or twice thought she had heard footsteps, and paused, but encountering no one, attributed the impression to her over-consciousness. Yet she thought it prudent to go to the galley first, where she lingered a few moments before returning to the cabin. On entering she was a little startled at observing a figure seated at her father’s desk, but was relieved at finding it was Mr. Renshaw.

He rose and put aside the book he had idly picked up. “I am afraid I am an intentional intruder this time, Miss Nott. But I found no one here, and I was tempted to look into this ship-shape little snuggery. You see the temptation got the better of me.”

His voice and smile were so frank and pleasant, so free from his previous restraint, yet still respectful, so youthful yet manly, that Rosey was affected by them even in her preoccupation. Her eyes brightened and then dropped before his admiring glance. Had she known that the excitement of the last few hours had brought a wonderful charm into her pretty face, had aroused the slumbering life of her half-awakened beauty, she would have been more confused. As it was, she was only glad that the young man should turn out to be “nice.” Perhaps he might tell her something about ships; perhaps if she had only known him longer she might, with de Ferrieres’s permission, have shared her confidence with him, and enlisted his sympathy and assistance. She contented herself with showing this anticipatory gratitude in her face as she begged him, with the timidity of a maiden hostess, to resume his seat.

But Mr. Renshaw seemed to talk only to make her talk, and I am forced to admit that Rosey found this almost as pleasant. It was not long before he was in possession of her simple history from the day of her baby emigration to California to the transfer of her childish life to the old ship, and even of much of the romantic fancies she had woven into her existence there. Whatever ulterior purpose he had in view, he listened as attentively as if her artless chronicle was filled with practical information. Once, when she had paused for breath, he said gravely, “I must ask you to show me over this wonderful ship some day that I may see it with your eyes.”

“But I think you know it already better than I do,” said Rosey with a smile.

Mr. Renshaw’s brow clouded slightly. “Ah,” he said, with a touch of his former restraint; “and why?”

“Well,” said Rosey timidly, “I thought you went round and touched things in a familiar way as if you had handled them before.”

The young man raised his eyes to Rosey’s and kept them there long enough to bring back his gentler expression. “Then, because I found you trying on a very queer bonnet the first day I saw you,” he said, mischievously, “I ought to believe you were in the habit of wearing one.”

In the first flush of mutual admiration young people are apt to find a laugh quite as significant as a sigh for an expression of sympathetic communion, and this master-stroke of wit convulsed them both. In the midst of it Mr. Nott entered the cabin. But the complacency with which he viewed the evident perfect understanding of the pair was destined to suffer some abatement. Rosey, suddenly conscious that she was in some way participating in ridicule of her father through his unhappy gift, became embarrassed. Mr. Renshaw’s restraint returned with the presence of the old man. In vain, at first, Abner Nott strove with profound levity to indicate his arch comprehension of the situation, and in vain, later, becoming alarmed, he endeavored, with cheerful gravity, to indicate his utter obliviousness of any but a business significance in their tete-a-tete.

“I oughtn’t to hev intruded, Rosey,” he said, “when you and the gentleman were talkin’ of contracts, mebbee; but don’t mind me. I’m on the fly, anyhow, Rosey dear, hevin’ to see a man round the corner.”

But even the attitude of withdrawing did not prevent the exit of Renshaw to his apartment and of Rosey to the galley. Left alone in the cabin, Abner Nott felt in the knots and tangles of his beard for a reason. Glancing down at his prodigious boots which, covered with mud and gravel, strongly emphasized his agricultural origin, and gave him a general appearance of standing on his own broad acres, he was struck with an idea. “It’s them boots,” he whispered to himself, softly; “they somehow don’t seem ‘xactly to trump or follow suit in this yer cabin; they don’t hitch into anythin’, but jist slosh round loose, and, so to speak, play it alone. And them young critters nat’rally feels it and gets out o’ the way.” Acting upon this instinct with his usual precipitate caution, he at once proceeded to the nearest second-hand shop, and, purchasing a pair of enormous carpet slippers, originally the property of a gouty sea-captain, reappeared with a strong suggestion of newly upholstering the cabin. The improvement, however, was fraught with a portentous circumstance. Mr. Nott’s footsteps, which usually announced his approach all over the ship, became stealthy and inaudible.

Meantime Miss Rosey had taken advantage of the absence of her father to visit her patient. To avoid attracting attention she did not take a light, but groped her way to the lower deck and rapped softly at the door. It was instantly opened by de Ferrieres. He had apparently appreciated the few changes she had already made in the room, and had himself cleared away the pallet from which he had risen to make two low seats against the wall. Two bits of candle placed on the floor illuminated the beams above, the dressing-gown was artistically draped over the solitary chair, and a pile of cushions formed another seat. With elaborate courtesy he handed Miss Rosey to the chair. He looked pale and weak, though the gravity of the attack had evidently passed. Yet he persisted in remaining standing. “If I sit,” he explained with a gesture, “I shall again disgrace myself by sleeping in Mademoiselle’s presence. Yes! I shall sleep—I shall dream—and wake to find her gone?”

More embarrassed by his recovery than when he was lying helplessly before her, she said hesitatingly that she was glad he was better, and that she hoped he liked the broth.

“It was manna from heaven, Mademoiselle. See, I have taken it all— every precious drop. What else could I have done for Mademoiselle’s kindness?”

He showed her the empty bowl. A swift conviction came upon her that the man had been suffering from want of food. The thought restored her self-possession even while it brought the tears to her eyes. “I wish you would let me speak to father—or some one,” she said impulsively, and stopped.

A quick and half insane gleam of terror and suspicion lit up his deep eyes. “For what, Mademoiselle! For an accident—that is nothing—absolutely nothing, for I am strong and well now—see!” he said tremblingly. “Or for a whim—for a folly you may say, that they will misunderstand. No, Mademoiselle is good, is wise. She will say to herself, ‘I understand, my friend Monsieur de Ferrieres for the moment has a secret. He would seem poor, he would take the role of artisan, he would shut himself up in these walls—perhaps I may guess why, but it is his secret. I think of it no more.’” He caught her hand in his with a