By Shore and Sedge by Bret Harte (feel good books to read txt) 📕

stranger; the gilding and mirrors blinded his eyes; even the faint perfume seemed to him an unhallowed incense, and turned him sick and giddy. Accustomed as he had been to disease and misery in its humblest places and meanest surroundings, the wounded desperado lying in laces and fine linen seemed to him monstrous and unnatural. It required all his self-abnegation, all his sense of duty, all his deep pity, and all the instinctive tact which was born of his gentle thoughtfulness for others, to repress a shrinking. But when the miserable cause of all again opened his eyes and sought Gideon’s hand, he forgot it all. Happily, Hamlin, who had been watching him with wondering but critical eyes, mistook his concern. “Don’t you worry about that gin-mill and hash-gymnasium downstairs,” he said. “I’ve given the proprietor a thousand dollars to shut up shop as long as this thing lasts.” That this was done from some delicate sense of respect to the preacher’s domiciliary presence, and not entirely to secure complete quiet and seclusion for the invalid, was evident from the fact that Mr. Hamlin’s drawing and dining rooms, and even the hall, were filled with eager friends and inquirers. It was discomposing to Gideon to find himself almost an equal subject of interest and curiosity to the visitors. The story of his simple devotion had lost nothing by report; hats were doffed in his presence that might have grown to their wearers’ heads; the boldest eyes dropped as he passed by; he had only to put his pale face out of the bedroom door and the loudest discussion, heated by drink or affection, fell to a whisper. The surgeon, who had recognized the one dominant wish of the hopelessly sinking man, gravely retired, leaving Gideon a few simple instructions and directions for their use. “He’ll last as long as he has need of you,” he said respectfully. “My art is only second here. God help you both! When he wakes, make the most of your time.”

In a few moments he did waken, and as before turned his fading look almost instinctively on the faithful, gentle eyes that were watching him. How Gideon made the most of his time did not transpire, but at the end of an hour, when the dying man had again lapsed into unconsciousness, he softly opened the door of the sitting-room.

Hamlin started hastily to his feet. He had cleared the room of his visitors, and was alone. He turned a moment towards the window before he faced Gideon with inquiring but curiously-shining eyes.

“Well?” he said, hesitatingly.

“Do you know Kate Somers?” asked Gideon.

Hamlin opened his brown eyes. “Yes.”

“Can you send for her?”

“What, HERE?”

“Yes, here.”

“What for?”

“To marry him,” said Gideon, gently. “There’s no time to lose.”

“To MARRY him?”

“He wishes it.”

“But say—oh, come, now,” said Hamlin confidentially, leaning back with his hands on the top of a chair. “Ain’t this playing it a little—just a LITTLE—too low down? Of course you mean well, and all that; but come, now, say—couldn’t you just let up on him there? Why, she”—Hamlin softly closed the door—“she’s got no character.”

“The more reason he should give her one.”

A cynical knowledge of matrimony imparted to him by the wives of others evidently colored Mr. Hamlin’s views. “Well, perhaps it’s all the same if he’s going to die. But isn’t it rather rough on HER? I don’t know,” he added, reflectively; “she was sniveling round here a little while ago, until I sent her away.”

“You sent her away!” echoed Gideon.

“I did.”

“Why?”

“Because YOU were here.”

Nevertheless Mr. Hamlin departed, and in half an hour reappeared with two brilliantly dressed women. One, hysterical, tearful, frightened, and pallid, was the destined bride; the other, highly colored, excited, and pleasedly observant, was her friend. Two men hastily summoned from the anteroom as witnesses completed the group that moved into the bedroom and gathered round the bed.

The ceremony was simple and brief. It was well, for of all who took part in it none was more shaken by emotion than the officiating priest. The brilliant dresses of the women, the contrast of their painted faces with the waxen pallor of the dying man; the terrible incongruity of their voices, inflections, expressions, and familiarity; the mingled perfume of cosmetics and the faint odor of wine; the eyes of the younger woman following his movements with strange absorption, so affected him that he was glad when he could fall on his knees at last and bury his face in the pillow of the sufferer. The hand that had been placed in the bride’s cold fingers slipped from them and mechanically sought Gideon’s again. The significance of the unconscious act brought the first spontaneous tears into the woman’s eyes. It was his last act, for when Gideon’s voice was again lifted in prayer, the spirit for whom it was offered had risen with it, as it were, still lovingly hand in hand, from the earth forever.

The funeral was arranged for two days later, and Gideon found that his services had been so seriously yet so humbly counted upon by the friends of the dead man that he could scarce find it in his heart to tell them that it was the function of the local preacher— an older and more experienced man than himself. “If it is,” said Jack Hamlin, coolly, “I’m afraid he won’t get a yaller dog to come to his church; but if you say you’ll preach at the grave, there ain’t a man, woman, or child that will be kept away. Don’t you go back on your luck, now; it’s something awful and nigger-like. You’ve got this crowd where the hair is short; excuse me, but it’s so. Talk of revivals! You could give that one-horse show in Tasajara a hundred points, and skunk them easily.” Indeed, had Gideon been accessible to vanity, the spontaneous homage he met with everywhere would have touched him more sympathetically and kindly than it did; but in the utter unconsciousness of his own power and the quality they worshiped in him, he felt alarmed and impatient of what he believed to be their weak sympathy with his own human weakness. In the depth of his unselfish heart, lit, it must be confessed, only by the scant, inefficient lamp of his youthful experience, he really believed he had failed in his apostolic mission because he had been unable to touch the hearts of the Vigilantes by oral appeal and argument. Feeling thus the reverence of these irreligious people that surrounded him, the facile yielding of their habits and prejudices to his half-uttered wish, appeared to him only a temptation of the flesh. No one had sought him after the manner of the camp-meeting; he had converted the wounded man through a common weakness of their humanity. More than that, he was conscious of a growing fascination for the truthfulness and sincerity of that class; particularly of Mr. Jack Hamlin, whose conversion he felt he could never attempt, yet whose strange friendship alternately thrilled and frightened him.

It was the evening before the funeral. The coffin, half smothered in wreaths and flowers, stood upon trestles in the anteroom; a large silver plate bearing an inscription on which for the second time Gideon read the name of the man he had converted. It was a name associated on the frontier so often with reckless hardihood, dissipation, and blood, that even now Gideon trembled at his presumption, and was chilled by a momentary doubt of the efficiency of his labor. Drawing unconsciously nearer to the mute subject of his thoughts, he threw his arms across the coffin and buried his face between them.

A stream of soft music, the echo of some forgotten song, seemed to Gideon to suddenly fill and possess the darkened room, and then to slowly die away, like the opening and shutting of a door upon a flood of golden radiance. He listened with hushed breath and a beating heart. He had never heard anything like it before. Again the strain arose, the chords swelled round him, until from their midst a tenor voice broke high and steadfast, like a star in troubled skies. Gideon scarcely breathed. It was a hymn—but such a hymn. He had never conceived there could be such beautiful words, joined to such exquisite melody, and sung with a grace so tender and true. What were all other hymns to this ineffable yearning for light, for love, and for infinite rest? Thrilled and exalted, Gideon felt his doubts pierced and scattered by that illuminating cry. Suddenly he rose, and with a troubled thought pushed open the door to the sitting-room. It was Mr. Jack Hamlin sitting before a parlor organ. The music ceased.

“It was YOU,” stammered Gideon.

Jack nodded, struck a few chords by way of finish, and then wheeled round on the music-stool towards Gideon. His face was slightly flushed. “Yes. I used to be the organist and tenor in our church in the States. I used to snatch the sinners bald-headed with that. Do you know I reckon I’ll sing that tomorrow, if you like, and maybe afterwards we’ll—but”—he stopped—“we’ll talk of that after the funeral. It’s business.” Seeing Gideon still glancing with a troubled air from the organ to himself, he said: “Would you like to try that hymn with me? Come on!”

He again struck the chords. As the whole room seemed to throb with the music, Gideon felt himself again carried away. Glancing over Jack’s shoulders, he could read the words but not the notes; yet, having a quick ear for rhythm, he presently joined in with a deep but uncultivated baritone. Together they forgot everything else, and at the end of an hour were only recalled by the presence of a silently admiring concourse of votive-offering friends who had gathered round them.

The funeral took place the next day at the grave dug in the public cemetery—a green area fenced in by the palisading tules. The words of Gideon were brief but humble; the strongest partisan of the dead man could find no fault in a confession of human frailty in which the speaker humbly confessed his share; and when the hymn was started by Hamlin and taken up by Gideon, the vast multitude, drawn by interest and curiosity, joined as in a solemn Amen.

Later, when those two strangely-assorted friends had returned to Mr. Hamlin’s rooms previous to Gideon’s departure, the former, in a manner more serious than his habitual cynical good-humor, began: “I said I had to talk business with you. The boys about here want to build a church for you, and are ready to plank the money down if you’ll say it’s a go. You understand they aren’t asking you to run in opposition to that Gospel sharp—excuse me—that’s here now, nor do they want you to run a side show in connection with it. They want you to be independent. They don’t pin you down to any kind of religion, you know; whatever you care to give them—Methodist, Roman Catholic, Presbyterian–is mighty good enough for them, if you’ll expound it. You might give a little of each, or one on one day and one another—they’ll never know the difference if you only mix the drinks yourself. They’ll give you a house and guarantee you fifteen hundred dollars the first year.”

He stopped and walked towards the window. The sunlight that fell upon his handsome face seemed to call back the careless smile to his lips and the reckless fire to his brown eyes. “I don’t suppose there’s a man among them that wouldn’t tell you all this in a great deal better way than I do. But the darned fools—excuse me—would have ME break it to you. Why, I don’t know. I needn’t tell you I like you—not only for what you did for George—but I like