Love and Lost by Allison Jennings (librera reader txt) 📕

Table of contents

Best friends…………………… Page 9
Are you truly here………… Page 10
Be yourself………………….. Page 11
Chance………………………… Page 12
Fate……………………………… Page 13
No known emotions……… Page 14
Freedom has a price……… Page 15
I hate the fact……………… Page 16
Just for me…………………. Page 17
Lost……………………………. Page 18
Our love for each other….... Page 19
Possibilities……………………… Page 20
That first step………………….. Page 21
The end of you…………………. Page 22
You are the perfect guy………………… Page 23
We have only just begun……………… Page 24
What it’s like to be with you………… Page 26
To feel your touch………………………… Page 27
Im done................... page 28


Best friends

The one I love being around.
! Te amo!
The one who sticks by my side through
Thick and thin.

Me amigo!
The one who makes me laugh.
The one who I trust.
The one who is always there for me.

The one with a pretty smile.
Tu querro.
The one I would risk my life for.
The best friend I’ve always wanted.


Are you truly here?

To see your face in my darkest shadows.
To feel your warmth in the cold.
To hear your voice in my most negative thoughts.
To read your word in my most needing times.
To feel your comfort in my loneliest moments.
To know your presence is all I’ll ever need.


Be yourself

Everybody says “you should be in the group and be like me.”
“You should be here and there.”
“You should be doing this and that.”
I say “I should be myself.


Chances

I can’t help but think of you even if there’s nothing to lose.
You’re the one I stay dreaming of.
Hoping for that day to come.
I don’t care where you’ve been as long as I’m where you’ll end.
So let’s pray to the lord above.
That you’ll open your eyes to see, that we are truly meant to be. 


Fate

Meeting you was all I was needing to help me get on my feet again.
I’ll never ever forget the feeling I had when our eyes first met.
I hate to jump to conclusions but you’re the one I can’t risk losing.
I know we haven’t had much time together.
But I feel like you’re my forever.


No known emotions

I’ve always felt for this moment,
But I wasn’t really ready.
To see the lights flash before me
And the intense feelings going through my body.
All that was thought of, was
Knowing I just gave my everything to someone who will never last.
No known emotions came to mind.
Figuring out it wasn’t all that it seemed to be
How could I not only waste my time, but corrupt my body?


Freedom has a price

The minute you think you’re free.
Someone tries to take it away.
They come at you like the birds and the bees.

I run as fast as the wind,
Trying to get away.
As the lines of freedom begin to bend.

I reach for its hands, but they stay silent.
I don’t want to risk anything,
And make it bigger than it is.
But in order to do so, I must walk right through it.


I hate the fact

I hate the fact that we aren’t together and the fact that you’re not here.
I hate that we drifted apart and the fact that you don’t care.
I hate that I hear nothing but silence and that we pass each other in the hall.
I hate that we were something and now we are nothing at all.
I hate that I just want to sit and cry.

Because now… I hate the fact that I gave you my heart
And the fact that you promised not to say goodbye.


Just for me

You make my heart skip a beat.
Because I know that you’re just for me.
And when you come to mind,
I get all tingly inside.
For my feelings for you will always stay,
Even if you wish to slip away.


Lost

She can’t see to be who she wants to be.
To see the smile on her face dry up by all the tears or the laughter die by all the pain.
The music stops as her feelings change.
All the paths turn astray.

To see the smile on her face dry up by all the tears or the laughter die by all the pain.
She can’t seem to get where she wants to go.
All the paths turn astray.
To watch the light dim down or the future fade away.

She can’t seem to get where she wants to go.
The floor shakes. The clouds rain.
To watch the light dim down or the future fade away.
All the colors turn to gray.


Our love for each other

My love for you is more than being friends.
More than just a feeling.
It’s more of being logic, to see if I can see myself with you forever.
My love for you is more than an experiment.
Testing my love for you each day.
It’s more of a for sure thing and it’s far from fading away.
My love for you is more than you’ll ever feel toward me.
I can see that now.
Your love for me is more of being great friends.
More of no feelings at all.
Your love for me is more of a non-existent thing.


Possibilities

There are so many possibilities and I’ve been wondering.
When will I get a break?

From crying at night cause I can’t take it no more.
From the feeling of always being alone.
Or,
From the days that make me just want to give up.
When will I have a day?

Where nothing goes wrong.
When I’m actually happy.
Or,
Where I’m glad to be here.
So I’ve been wondering, if these are some possibilities. 


That first step

They had never seen each other before till one day.
He smiled at her like it was fate.
She got symptoms, the symptoms of love.
She knew it would never work. So she walked away.
Then one day he called her up. Her eyes filled up and her heart glowed.
They talked for days and talked for night.
She was happy, and fell for him.
He took her heart and she took his. Well that’s what she thought.
He called one day and said hey.
And to this day, she looks back and cries for days.


The end of you

You toss out your feelings,
Then act like I’m not there.
Now I’m having second thoughts,
But I don’t seem to care.
She says wait till tomorrow.
And that I’m just in denial.
But I’m pass the stage of sorrow
And know my decision is final.


You are the perfect guy.

I just can’t find the way
To express my love for you.
You are just so amazing,
In everything you do.

The time I spend with you,
Is the best I’ve ever had.
And you always know how to have my back.
When it’s me whose feelings sad.

I don’t know how to say this.
But I’ll do my best and try.
And I just want you to know,
That you sir, are the perfect guy.

You make me feel so special.
You make me feel so right.
And if I had it my way,
I would always hold you tight.

I hope that I don’t lose you.
I pray to god each day,
Because as long as you are here
I can push my pain away.


We have only just begun

We’re both having a great time.
Just the two of us.
I simply love this.
As we connect.

Me secretly wanting a hug from you.
You openly show your affection.
To see the rejection in your eyes.
Your simple touch putting a smile on my face.

I’m seeing you differently now.
Trying to figure out what to do.
And now I realize that to me,
Your more than just a friend.

I’m hiding them not only from you.
My feelings for you slip out.
You hear the truth in a slightly different way.


This moment where we’re connecting.
Keeping our feelings inside.
The messages we’re getting out of each other.
It just ended with a horrific” I’m done.”

Turning away, as my eyes fill with tears.
You’re just walking away.
As I’m hurt by your words “OK.”
Not meaning what I said.

I have plans to go somewhere without you.
Looks like you’re going anyway.
We’re not even looking at each other.
Nor saying a word.

Thinking about nothing but you.
I keep seeing you around.
I’m sad we are no longer to be.
We have only just begun. 


What it’s like to be with you.

I have never been in a relationship where I couldn’t walk away.
You have this impact on me, that no matter what
I want to be with you.
I know in the end I’m going to get heart broke,
But I’m going to make the time till then, count.

I couldn’t ever see myself in this kind of relationship.
But I’m glad I get to experience it with you.
I know this won’t last long, but I hope we have a good time till it’s time to say goodbye.

I’m really starting to like you.
I don’t know what you want out of this relationship,
But I want to be able to just have you.
But I know that can’t happen and we’ll have obstacles in our way.

I know you won’t ever truly love me.
But just the way you kiss and hold me, will always keep me around.
It’s going to be hard, but I’ll stick around for as long as I can. 


To feel your touch

To see the look on your face as I pass by,
Or to see your smile grow bigger.
To feel your fingers through my hair,
And your touch go down my spine.

I love the way you say “I love you.”
Cause it makes me all tingly inside.
You’ve opened my eyes to all the possibilities
And I can see that one day you could possibly be mine.


Im done
Im done with you and your teasing.
Its not my feelings, "just saying."
My body is sick and my heart aches.
i have no more tears in store.

I hate you, and its no mistake.
I know you won't like my idea.
But you alone, made me feel this way.

Your eyes so blue, your
smile so bright.
I cant help but think of you at night.
To remember the things we use to do.
Helps the