All Alone by Glazor K (best non fiction books of all time TXT) 📕

me. She grabbed his shirt and pulled him closer but we were so close there was barely any distance between us. "Uhh...Guys.." i had to control myself as my best friend was around. I tried regaining power over my own body. Eventually my inner wolf gave in. I looked at Alex and saw lust in his eyes. Great. Perfect. "Alex...i need you to..step back abit. You're making Jamie feel abit uncomfortable" But he didnt listen to me. He just pressed harder into me and kissed my neck several times. Making me feel weak to it all. I tried not to moan or lose myself infront of him. "Alex Stop" My inner wolf got so angry at me for resisting him. 'What are you doing?' 'Shut up' 'Exuse me?' 'Can you please not. my Best friend doesnt want to see this' 'is she gay' 'you dont have to be gay to not feel uncomfortable and shes straight trust me she has a boyfriend' 'Oooo Is he cute?' 'Really i thought you only had eyes for Alex' 'i was joking gees' "Am i interrupting your conversation with your inner wolf"  he looked pissed off.   He had stepped back to.   I went over to my best friend. "I'm Sorry you had to witness that" 'It's all good" "I cant help how i feel around him.." i whispered to her. I forgot wolves have very good hearing. "How does he make you feel?" she whispered. "like hes a drug to me...i cant get enough and he has this overpowering scent" i whispered. "you know i can hear you ladies"  I blushed.  But i wasnt really in the best mood. I mean sure i was happy to have him by my side but i had problems. I had these thoughts i couldnt contain and somehow i managed to put up a mental wall from Alex hearing them. My eyes watered and i ran off. Alex tried going after me but i just kept running untill i ran to my old neighbour. I saw a park that i use to hangout in and sometimes i come here when i need air.  I placed my hand on the playground equipment and i felt some memories coming back to me. In primary i had one friend and his name was Archer. We use to play here all the time. Well before he died. I felt like it was all my fault. --------FlashBack Moment---------

Ill tell you what happened. I was 7 and me and him where playing around and just having fun like kids do. We were playing tiggy and we ran after around for ages we couldnt stop having so much fun. it was one place i could come to and feel happy. But on this particular day it was raining heavily and well that didnt stop us from playing. I was it and he was running away and well we ran off onto the road and sometimes we do and nothing usually bad happens.  He turned around while he was playing with me to see how far i was and at that moment and car spun out of control and hit him. He was instantly killed right infront of me. I couldnt stop crying. I knew what happened and i blamed it on me. the driver didnt even bother to stop he just kept driving. I started screaming and screaming for help. Eventually the police arrrived. But there was nothing they could do nothing. His parents blamed me and kept saying "ITS ALL YOUR FAULT YOU STUPID BITCH. YOU KILLED OUR SON" 

--------Flashback over --------

Remembering this made me break down into tears. i wiped them away and contrinued to the big tree house that was at this park. I climbed up to the top of it and hide in there. i pulled out my iPod and put on some Fall Out Boy and listened to the tunes. I Loved Fall Out Boy. Patrick Stump was my idol his music was amazing. 

Just Leave Me Alone

 So i was listening to my music and sort of zoning out from my surroundings when i heard a noise. I looked over and saw Alex. Alex was just looking at me and he looked, well pissed. "Why the fuck did you run off like that" he yelled in my face. i hated this. Good guy and the Bad boy role he played it was getting to me.  my eyes watered once more and the tears flowed evenly. I was sitting up with legs just out. He aproached me and tried to sit near me. "Leave me alone" i said. "Dont you dare talk to your mate like that" he said."Stop it okay" i said and i cried more. Thats when he had an evil grin on his face. i had no idea what he was up to. "You speak to me like and there are consequences"  I looked scared.  "I know how much you love my scent" he said. CRAP HIS SCENT I FORGOT ABOUT THAT. "I bet you forgot about that" he said. He stood up and pulled me up and then slammed me against the wall. his scent. Oh.My.God. I couldnt contain my inner wolf. She went crazy. he pushed himself harder into me and began grinding on me. my Wolf was loving this. i was trying really hard not to moan and my legs got weaker. Then it happened. I moaned so loud. "Thats what i want to hear" he said. my eyes watered. "Stop." i said. But he didnt listen. "I want you to moan my name" "Stop it...Please Stop it" "I'm not stopping till you moan my name" he said. He continued to grind on me harder. My inner wolf loved it but it was making me upset because he was treating me with zero respect. i eventually moaned his name... heaps... "Thats a good girl" he patted me on the head and stopped what he was doing. I stepped back and i ran off crying. Oh wait... he lives with me. I ran home. My mum looked at me and smiled. "hey Darling" but i didnt want to talk. I continued to run into the bathroom. Not my room the bathroom. i was so upset on the inside i was so messed up. I locked the door and tried pulling out a razer blade. Frantically pulling it out and began to scrap it againt my skin. I screamed in pain but i liked it. It sounds weird but i actually liked it. it was better than the pain ive felt all my life. my mum was knocking on the door. "Sweety whats wrong?" she sounded worried. "Dont talk to me right now" i said while crying. She became really worried. i kept cutting myself with the razer blade. i know what you're thinking. Stop. You're going to hurt them. I was in so much pain on the inside i couldnt contain how i felt. Then guess what happened next... my anxiety kicked in. i started having a panic attack and i felt i couldnt breathe. my mum managed to get the door open with a key. She saw my marks and my state and got very worried. "Sweety stop doing that to yourself!" she ran over to me and threw the razer blade out of my hand.  I eventually maintained my breathing and my mum hugged me so tight. i tried getting away from her grasp. i was fighting with myself on the inside. I eventually met defeat and let her hug me. I cried my heart out. 

You Need To Get Some Help

 After i had my massive breakdown infront of my mum. I was in my room and i was thinking when my mum entered the room. "Sweety I need to talk to you"  she said slightly worried. "yes mum i think i know why you need to talk to me.."  i said. "i dont think you are okay on the inside and well i think you need to see someone about that... But i want to ask you one thing" "Whats that?" "has Alex hurt you?" "What do you mean mummy?" "Has he abused physically or verbally" i just looked to the floor. "Alexia?" she asked once more. "...Yes...." i mumbled. "What was that?"  She said. "...Yes he did.." i said abit louder. "Oh..Well your father is going to have a long interesting chat with him" she said. then i said "please go easy on him" my eyes watered. "i know you like him quite abit as he is your mate" My father then entered the room with Alex. "are you okay!?"  he said. My mum gave my dad a serious look. She must of been talking to my dad through their minds because she left the room and he knew exactly what was going on. He looked very angry now. He walked over to Alex. "How dare you treated my daughter like this" he slapped him across the face. "She isnt some toy you can play with him" he yelled in his face. my eyes watered. i didnt like seeing him get hurt even if he did hurt me. "Please dont hurt him" My dad calmed down and looked at me. "i cant have him hurting my little girl" he said "Please...leave us to alone...i want to talk to him.." i said. My dad nodded and left the room with the door shut. I turned to Alex and my heart started beating fast. His scent made me feel amazing. It was so addicting. i felt weak while looking at him. "I'm Sorry"  He looked at my arm and my new marks. "Oh..."  my checks went red. He just looked at me and then he kissed me passionately.  it felt so...so amazing. I wasnt sure if i needed help as a i had him because he said something to me. "I promise i will stop being so rough with you...my inner wolf goes crazy when he sees you and he loses control" he said and i just looked at him. He pulled me closer gently and i kissed him passionately. 
-------------5 weeks later----------------

I went to get counselling help for my problems... i was difficult at first. Alex was being abit more gentle with me and treating me properly.Okay i lied he wasnt being as gentle only sometimes but in a way Alex made it abit easier for me to feel better. His hugs breathed life into me and made me feel so amazing. I stared at