Suicide Note- part 1 by Paulina Bowman (rooftoppers .txt) 📕

Hey my name is Brittney. And I’ve got a secret that nobody knows! But that’s the way I like it, nobody should know that much about me! It’s important to know a little about someone, but if you know everything, then what’s a relationship for? If everyone knew me then I would have a lot of friends to talk to, but I don’t. I have two good friends, Elizabeth and Jo. They love the real me, I don’t have to pretend with them. They’ve been here through a lot with me. When I was eight, it all started. I came home from school, and He came in my room after me. He hit me, really hard. I hit the floor crying while He just pounded away. I went to school the next day, and my teachers asked me, “Britney, why do you have a busted lip, a swollen eye, and bruises on your face?” I couldn’t tell them, so I just distracted them with something else. But, he beat my mom, too. But when mom got pregnant again with my little brother, it got worst. A lot worst, He didn’t hit my brother. My brother’s name is Aiden, Aiden Jackson. He was so cute, and I was proud to call him my little brother. When I was thirteen, He started touching me, and doing other stuff, too. I didn’t like Him at all, although I never did. But I never told anybody, He told me he would kill mom. I couldn’t let that happen, it would ruin that “happy” image we had. My friends Ellie and Jo always worried about me, but I couldn’t tell them. But, that doesn’t mean I didn’t want a life, so I tried out for cheerleading with Ellie in ninth grade. It was really fun, but when I got home He was waiting for me. He slapped me and told me I couldn’t get involved in “group” things like cheerleading. So I had to leave Ellie and the team. Ellie thought it was her, and she got angry at me, and didn’t talk to me. I didn’t want her angry at me, so I went back to cheering. Ellie was happy. Aiden was the only family member that knew I was a cheerleader. But he knew what He would do if He found out I was back in cheering. A few days after a game Jo spent the night. He came in my room to tell us both good night. I didn’t feel right, so I didn’t sleep at all. I was right, He came in at around two- thirty a.m., then He slipped in bed with Jo. She then understood why I acted so… wrong. She told me not to tell anybody, so I didn’t. But if she wanted me to spend the night, I couldn’t, He wouldn’t let me. She’s really important to me, she’s a real friend. You don’t find too many of those kinds of friends. He’ll get what he deserves, eventually. After school today, Jo’s boyfriend was all over this girl, he saw me, too. He asked me not to tell anyone, especially Jo. But, I felt the need to tell Jo. But, I didn’t, she had a life now, I didn’t want to ruin it. That boy is stupid for cheating on her. The way she talks about him is almost sickening. “He’s so sweet he told me he loved me last night.” She needs to know about him, before she gets hurt. And if he hurts her, then I’m going to kick in his little perfect face.

Text: Paulina Bowman
Editing: Paulina Bowman
Translation: Paulina Bowman
Publication Date: 02-10-2012

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Dedication:
To all the people who hated me in high school!!