Betrayed by Flowerz. (books to read in your 20s female txt) 📕

hmm my life....my life is like a leaf, yes a leaf, a leaf blowing in the wind in the cold windy Autumns day. Then suddenly it gets trampled on by running children, that's what I feel my life is like now. No one ever thinks of a leaf like a living ting because they fall off the tree all the time right? Well I have come to conclusion that they are living things, just like me or you. Where am I going with this...I am trying to say that of course I'm not a leaf blowing in the wind, the thing I'm trying to say is that people never imagine their life to go horribly bad when your a kid, you just think that you're going to become a millionaire or a princess or....well you get what I mean so what came to my conclusion was if we think that then leafs might think that to right? Okay I may seem nuts but I am trying to get somewhere with this, I'm talking about my life and possibly anyone's life. I bet if I go to when your little and ask how you think life will go for you, you would answer the obvious, 'great' I bet if I were to ask you how your life is going now you would say almost the opposite. No one knows how their life will go or turn out, they can only dream or imagine, no one knows what illnesses you will suddenly get or what accidents you will get your self in. You just have to go with your life and see how it turns out, I bet if I asked you if you've lost a family member, friend or relative at least ninety percent of you a hundred will say they have lot someone. My point is no one even thinks about all these sudden accidents and deaths until they happen or it happens to you. You could even get close to any of these tragic things that may or may not happen to us, what I am hoping to get into your mind is that no matter how old you are no matter what people tell you not everything will go the way you planned or hoped, sad isn't it. Well...that's the horrible facts of life for you, if you are listening to this right now and your under the age of fifteen you won't need to worry right now, enjoy all the great times you can get while your a kid because when you get to the teen age sad things are bound to happen to you, friend fall outs, arguments that you can't stand, people talking behind your back, you name it. Please....please don't take this personally though, just because I've said all of this doesn't mean you still have fun, enjoy being alive, go out enjoy the fresh air, hang with friends, do something, anything that you can think of, live, enjoy! I lost my chance to have fun and do all of that stuff, like I was explaining but your not me, have as much fun as you can and don't let this get to you because I didn't say all of this to put you down, I wanted to tell you this to put a positive side and live, do the positive not the negative!


Dear mum and Ruth
I love you so much so
this is so hard
dear
to
Dear Mum and Ruth,
I am sorry in advance for
this,by morning I will be
gone. It's not that I don't
love you because I do!
It's because I can't take
any of this anymore, I
just want a break from
all of this. I hope you
understand all of this
I will miss you all, bye!
Lisa


'Hey sweetheart,need a ride?'
'no thanks I'm fine and I'm not your sweetheart'
'that's no way to speak to your boyfriend'
'ex'
'ahh don't be like that,are you sure you don't need a ride?'
'yes Carter I'm fine now go away and leave me alone!'
'ahh hunny'
'I'm not your hunny Carter go away'
'are you sure because Michael would be fine to give you a ride wouldn't you Michael'
'yep of course'
'well I don't need a ride so go away'
'are you sure because you know we wouldn't mind'
'I SAID I WAS FINE NOW GO AWAY'
'okay, okay'
'GOOD'
BANG


'Ruth is that you?'
'who's asking?'
'Lisa, your sister Lisa'
'oh my goodness Lisa! It's been so long!'
we hugged
'I know....so what have you been up to since you left?'
I sighed 'Lisa it's not like that, I didn't want to leave'
'then....why...did you leave'
I sighed 'it's...complicated'
'well...how complicated?'
'to complicated to tell you'
'oh come on Ruth I'm your sister'
I sighed 'its just to...complicated to explain and you wouldn't understand'
I could tell this was getting her annoyed
'oh come on please'
I sighed 'I was sent over here to do a project' I lied
she looked suspicious
'a project...?'
'yep, a secret one'
'and that's hard to explain....'
'yep very'
'okay then...what did you have to do?'
'I can't tell you'
she rolled her eyes
'okay....anyway you left Ruth'
'well....yeah...I told you I had to do a secret mission'
'whatever, Ruth you upset us all'
this annoyed me 'WELL I'M HERE NOW OKAY! So can't we just get over all of this'
she sighed
'okay, come on then'

'RUTH,RUTH WAKE UP' 'RUTH WAKE UP'
I groaned 'what'
'you were making noises again'
'sorry'
she sighed
'Ruth are you okay? This is the third day that you have been doing this'
I sighed, she had a point but I was doing it for a good reason 'yeah I'm okay' she then glanced at Lisa's runaway letter, shoot I forgot that I had that out.
She sighed and picked the letter up
'Ruth give it up Lisa's dead, she died two months ago'
okay now I was angry 'SHE'S MY LITTLE SISTER, LILLY, AND SHE'S DEAD, I WILL NEVER GET OVER IT!' she could see my sadness
'yeah your right I'm sorry'
I started crying 'she's dead and it's all my fault'
she looked at me and hugged me to try and cheer me up
'oh hunny its not your fault, she ran away and that cost her her life'
'I know but she had had enough of everything, the letter says that she was annoyed. It's all my fault'
'its not your fault, she was just having troubles, it was not your fault neither was it your family's'
this is why I love my best friend Lilly, she's always there for me, I smiled 'yeah I guess your right' I then remembered her ex Carter 'It's Carter's fault, he annoyed her and broke her heart' I screamed
she sighed 'maybe it is'
'IT IS, SHE CAME HOME CRYING BECAUSE OF THAT JERK'
'maybe so but why would it cause her to run away?'
she had a point 'I wish she would have just told me about Carter, I bet she had had enough of him and she couldn't stand to look at him again, I bet that's why she ran'
'that's just a guess though, it could be any reason'
'she died Lilly'
'I know that but how does this link to her death, okay maybe to her runaway but not her death'
'I never mentioned how I think she died....'
she sighed
how strange, does she have anything to do with it? 'Lilly how do you know, seems to me like you're trying to keep something from me, do you have anything to do with it?'
'no of course not I loved Lisa, I'm not hiding anything from you'
'really then how come you keep bringing up Lisa's death,' I looked at her shocked face 'how come you keep trying to disagree with why I think she ran away' I knew she had nothing to do with it but I had to check 'are you sure because you should know that you can't keep things from me for long, I'll find out, where were you when she died?'
she laughed
'Ooh look at you going all Nancy Drew on me, I was at your house remember.....'
I laughed, oh yeah 'Oh yeah, you have a point'
she laughed
'yep, oh and Ruth don't ever try to be Nancy Drew again because you can't pull it off save it to the detectives' she joked
'oh ha-ha, I think I make a nice Nancy Drew actually' I joked
'oh yeah yeah lets see what the others think of that tomorrow at school shall we' she joked
I laughed 'and I'll win for definite' I joked
'see that cheered you up, I still think that you suck at being a detective though' she joked
I laughed and threw a pillow at her causing feathers to come out
'pillow fight' she screamed
'bring it on' I then started pelting pillows at her and she did the same. This went on for an hour before our beds were literally swimming in pillow feathers. We were out of breath but we were both laughing 'oh,' I said laughing but out of breath 'I've never had so much fun since Lisa died'
'yeah me to,' she laughed, we then looked at our mess that we had created
'oops look at the mess' she laughed
'oh leave it who cares' I laughed 'I WON' I said still laughing, I was laughing so hard that my chest hurt
'you so did not I did' she laughed
'oh this is so on I won'
she then started throwing the feathers at me
'this is on, winner gets to win the pillow fight' I laughed
'this is on'
with that we started throwing feathers, I was still laughing so much that my chest hurt but I didn't care
'Carer,Carter, Carter made me run'

I jumped and stopped throwing feathers
'Ruth whats the matter?'
'Lilly did you just hear that'
'hear what?'
'Lisa just spoke to me'
she sighed
'Ruth that's impossible she's dead, dead people can't talk'
'Lilly trust me I'm not crazy I heard her, she said 'Carter,Carter, Carter made me run'
she sighed
'again with this Carter thing, Ruth we have no prove on that'
oh I was so going to kill Carter tomorrow, I don't care what Lilly says
'come on Ruth I've just got you happy' she then started throwing feathers at me again, I sighed and continued, this went on for an hour
'oh shoot is that the time already,' she sighed 'I have to go mum's home today and she wants me home'
I sighed 'do you have to?'
'yes, the last three days with you has been fun thank you for saving me from having to go to Cornwall with my Aunt' she then started packing
'your welcome'