Lest I should Die by Arianna Erickson (best motivational books of all time TXT) 📕

This is the first book I have completed, and indeed, my masterpiece. No I have not uploaded the entire thing though. :( I will eventually! :D

The memmories Allianna has in this book are mine, and the people in them are close friends of mine. Enjoy :)

Who could have thought, the one I love, could make me hurt so much?
I would never have guessed that he could leave me so broken, so empty inside…
But, you know, love never lasts…
If you know what it is like to, truly, fall in love, then have your heart broken, then this story is for you…
Because, I, Allianna, know what it is like.
I know what it is like, to fall in love, to feel as if it would never die.
To want to hold that person in your arms, and never want to let them out of you sight, for the fear of losing them.
To feel so alone, broken, lost, and empty, whenever they are not around.
To feel deep inside your heart, in your soul, that you want to be with that person forever,
Roland…
My lover, my heart, my soul, my beginning, and most importantly,
my end.

He softly pushed me against the wall and kissed me passionately on the lips. I began to breathe heavy, feeling myself relax, as he wrapped me in his arms.
Careful…I reminded myself, or I may just melt.
He breathed softly in my ear, “I love you, Cutie.”
I nuzzled his neck, “And I love you.”
I sighed, “Please, stay with me forever, my love.”

Hurt filled his eyes as he whispered, “You know I wish I could, but…” he looked away, “I can’t…”

“I know…” I whispered, nearly in tears.

He noticed.
“Awh, sweetheart, please, Baby girl, don’t cry,” he said kissing my forehead delicately.

“I-I’m trying not to…” I said.

“Shh, I know. It’s alright, don’t worry. For now I’m here,” he whispered softly, running his fingers through my shoulder length brown hair.

“Please tell me you love me,” I asked.

“I love you,” he said.

“Thank you...” I said as I laid my head against his chest and closed my eyes.

He lifted my chin up and gently kissed my lips. He kissed me deeply, as I enjoyed letting our tongues dance.

“Cutie, I have to go know,” he said as we pulled apart.

He saw the sadness lurking in my hazel colored eyes, and quickly added, “But I’ll try to come back next Sunday, I promise.”
He gave me one last kiss and hug as I said softly, “I’ll miss you…”
“Missing you already. And I love you.”

“I love you too, Roland.” I said back.

He smiled. He turned and walked away, as I took in his appearance.

About shoulder - length black hair, that is styled so it covers his dark brown eyes, mostly his right eye.

His figure was slightly plump, but that just made him nicer to hug and snuggle. Close to 5’9” in height, and wears all black.

Yeah he has his flaws, but in my eyes, he’s…
Perfect…

I slumped down as he disappeared from view, and rested against the wall.
“I miss you so much already, Roland.”
I sighed wishing for about the millionth time that we could be together forever.
“‘You know this will never last, Baby girl…’”
His words echoed in my mind. Tears stung my eyes as I finally gave in and let them fall.

“But…” I hiccupped,” I need this to last forever…I-I love you!” I said to myself as I began to cry.

I curled up into a ball with my knees up to my chest, my arms wrapped around my knees, and my face resting on them. I cried more.

I thought I heard someone sit down across from me against the opposite wall. I looked up and wiped my eyes with my hand.

“Are you ok?” the stranger asked me.

“Y-Yea…” I whispered.

The stranger sighed and ran his fingers through his dirty blonde hair.
“Well, you don’t look ok. In fact, you look rather sad, and hurt.”
“Yeah, sort of…” I whispered.
“I would like to try and help you, and Allianna, I’m kind of shocked you don’t remember me.” He said.

I took a closer look at him. He looked so familiar…then suddenly, I knew who he was…
Ashe.

“A-Ashe? Is that really you?” I whispered.

He smirked at me.
“Took you long enough, sis,” he said.

I took in his features. Long thin arms, extremely thin figure, dirty blonde hair, blue eyes, a slight pale tan, and about 5’8” – 5’9”.

“Dang bro, are you still only, like, 110 pounds?!” I asked.

“Yea, really nice for being only 20, huh?” Ashe said smiling.

“Yup, and I bet you’re still as much of a boney pillow as ever,” I said smirking.

“Heh, wanna try?” he asked
“Sure,” I said as I sat next to him, and attempted at using his shoulder for a pillow.
“Dang you Ashe. Will you always stay this skinny? It’s so not fair,” I said teasingly.

“Yeah? Well, you’re one to talk sis. You are like me after all. You eat, eat and eat, and never gain a pound, yet somehow you are still fatter than me,” Ashe said chuckling.
“Hey!” I exclaimed punching him playfully on the arm,” you’re mean!”

Ashe laughed.
“Hey, it never said in my job description as a brother that I had to be nice. Plus, someone has to be, it’s my job after all little sis.”

“Oh, whatever, Ashe.”
“It’s true!” he said tousling my hair and grinning.
“So, bro, when did you get back from Oklahoma?” I asked.

“Uhh, never? Just kidding, sis. Um, yesterday actually, and I thought I’d pay you a surprise visit. So, surprised?”

“Uh, definitely! I missed you so much! 3 years is way too long for you to be gone.” I said hugging him tightly.

Uh, sis, you know you’re going to have to let go of me sometime, right?” he asked sheepishly.

“Nope. Never, ever, ever!” I grinned.
“Sis…” Ashe said warningly.
“Bro!” I pretended to gasp, “how could you even ask that of me?!” I said in mock horror. “I still have to make up for, what, 3 years worth of hugs you weren’t here for!” I exclaimed, snuggling up next to him.

“Maybe…” was his solemn reply.
“What do you mean maybe?” I asked incredulous.
“Sis,” he said his expression turning playful, “I was just kidding.”

“Mkays. So, Ashe, how was college?”
“It was okay, I guess. Oh, hey, in my dorm one day, I found a tarantula on my bed,” he told me.
“Oh-mi-gosh! That’s horrible!” I exclaimed.

“Yeah, I know. I totally flipped out.”

“Well, what did you do?” I asked.

“Heh,” he chuckled evilly, “I torched the damn thing. I took one of those long lighters and set it on fire. It was so cool!”

“Wow,” I said in Awe.

“Yup, however it burned my favorite sheets,” he frowned. “Anyways, guess what?!” he asked enthusiastically.

“Uh-oh. For whatever it is to make you this excited means it must be illegal.” I said seriously.

He burst out laughing. “No no, it’s nothing like that.”

My face brightened up.
“Oh, I know. You have a cat!” I guessed happily.

“How’d you know?” he blinked.

“ I can read your mind, remember? That and your stomachs been purring the whole time,” with that I laughed, “Kind of hard to explain away as being hungry, don’t you think?” I laughed again.

“Crap. Well, meet Andrea,” he said pulling out a dark purple, long haired, fluffy, kitten with blue eyes.

“Awh! She is so cute and fluffy! She’s absolutely adorable!” I squealed. “But, why is she dark purple?”
My eyes narrowed dangerously at him, “ Ashe… what did you do to poor, little, Andrea?”

He threw his hands up in protest, “I didn’t so it I swear! She uh, just happened to somehow fall into a bucket of dark purple dye…”

“Ashe!!” I exclaimed horrified,” Oh Andrea, you poor, poor, kitty.”

“Hey?! What about me?” Ashe exclaimed facading jealously.

I hugged him tightly.
“Awh, you poor thing,” I said in a mockingly sarcastic voice.

“Thank you,” Ashe said feeling accomplished.

I laughed, “Whatever.”