helpless gurl by ayla (top 10 best books of all time txt) 📕

Chapter 1
As I walk in the door my mom says to me “ I was cleaning your room today and I went to take your trash out when I found this” she pulls out the note and uncrumbles it. It said: I hate how everyone has been such a total jerk to me lately im done with this! One day I will pack my bags and get out of here! “Mom what the heck you know I hate when you go through my shit!” I said loudly. “ DOES IT LOOK LIKE I CARE?” She screams!As I walk up to my room I grab my brothers pocket knife from his dresser. I say softly to myself “ maybe one day this will be over but all she does is scream at me I cant get a long with her anymore!”As I slowly cut my wrist the blood drips down my arm slowly I start to cry because how bad the pain is now I have 3 cuts on my wrist. As I walk slowly back downstairs all I hear is my mom on the phone yelling at my dad “ COME ON TAKE YOUR KIDS FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS!!” “I slowly ask whats going on”, she says to me “don't worry about it get upstairs and do your homework now!!”.I run up stairs and finish up my homework. When I walk down stairs I see my mom has left. I go to the Cabinet to see what I should eat “hmm nothing I want oh well ill eat something later”.

Chapter 2
I walk into school the next morning and see everyone look at me. I wonder why everyone is staring at me for. I walk up stair were my locker was and found a picture on my locker that said “ Your ugly go die no one likes you” the picture was a house on fire with me stuck in it. I slam my locker door and take down the signs and throw them away. As I walk into my 1st class people were staring at me. I ignored everyone and stayed quiet with my hood up over my head. How can people be so fucking cruel! All my life I been bullied! Maybe people don't like me I can care less! As I walk to the lunch room I walk over to the table I always sit at. “hey I heard what was on your locker im so sorry” lexis said. “ doesn't matter”i exclaimed. Most people don't understand what is going on in my life maybe I should just die! As I walk inside my house my mom asked me “How many times do I have to tell you stop slamming the door” “OK OK OK geez”i said. As I run up stairs I get on my email 4 new messages !
1 said : I heard you cut yourself your such and emo freak!
2 said: your a freak!!
all the other ones said the same thing as I log off my e mail I start to cry and wonder how I am a freak. I go on my bed and lay down in it with the knife I have. My mom walks in on me cutting my self again and again. “ Feeling that bad huh?” she said “yes school sucks ass and me having to come home with you freaking yelling doesn't help”!

Chapter 3
As we talk I get mad at her and tells her to leave me a lone. When I told her to leave me a lone she slapped me. I cut myself one more time and looks at the blood dripping off my arm and on to the floor I say to myself “ maybe if I bleed to much I can die” so I sit on the floor watching the blood come out of the cut. I wake up in the hospital! “were am I”? I scream. What am I doing here whats going on? As the doctor comes in and tells me “ you collapsed from loosing blood”. “Your brother found you on the floor with the knife in your hand and the blood coming out he told me you must of cut the same spot 2-5 times” As I told the doctor whats going on he told me I could get help for it. I stay out of school for a couple of months until I can get on my feet again.

Publication Date: 10-04-2011

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