SAD AND DEPRESSED by TINA GARCIA (ebook smartphone .txt) 📕

I WAS WALKING DOWN A STREET WHEN IT ALL STARTED... BUT FIRST WE NEED TO START IN THE BEGING. SO MY NAME IS KANE AND I AM A GIRL BUT MY FATHER REALLY WANTED A BOY SO HE NAMED ME WITHOUT MY MOM'S PERMISSION. I'M FINE AND IT'S A PRETTY COOL NAME BUT IT OF CORUSE DID GET MR BULLIED GROWING UP. MY FATHER WOULD MAKE THEIR SONS GET INTO FOOTBALL AND WELL HE GOT ME INTO MMA AND BOXING THE BEST COACHES. MY MMA COAH FELT BAD FOR ME. FOR THE WAY MY FATHER TREATED ME. HE TRIED TO STICK UP FOR ME ONCE BUT I GOT A BEATING AFTER THAT. IN FRONT OF HIM WHILE EVERYONE SAW WHAT HE WAS DOING TO ME. HE GOT ME IN THE RING AND MY FATHER YELLED AT ME TO GO HAREST THAT I COULD GO BUT I WAS A KID AROUND SEVEN. I WAS JUST STARTING AND COME ON I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO HIT MY FATER. SO HE SAID WHILE GOING AROUND ME IN CIRCLES BUT HE WOULD PUSH ME. THEN HE WOULD PUNCH ME FULL FORCE IN THE GUT WHILE I YELLED IN PAIN ON THE FLOOR. HE YELLED AT ME NOT TO YELL AND TO GET MY ASS UP. I DID AS I WAS TOLD BUT I LOOKED AT MY MOTHER AND SHE WAS IN THE OTHERSIDE OF THE GYM CHECKING OUT THE OTHER GUYS "WORK OUT" BUT THEY WERE LOOKING AT MY DAD BEATING ME THEN THEY LOOKED AT MY MOM. THEY SAID ARE YOU GOING TO DO SOMETHING CAUSE THAT MAN IS BEATING YOUR CHILD. SHE SMIRKED AND SAID YEAH THATS HER DAD AND WHO CARES. I THEN LOOKED BACK AT MY FATHER GETTING READY TO PUNCH MY FACE. I JUST FELT MY JAW CRACK BUT I TOOK THE PAIN AND GOT UP. I THEN RECIVED ANOTHER PUNCH IN THE GUT THEN A BUNCH OF KICKS TO MY TUMMY AND BACK. MY FATHER GOT ANGRY THAT I WASN'T FIGHTING BACK THAT HE GOT OUT OF THE RING AND LEFT WHILE MY MOTHER FOLLOWED AND SAID I HAD TO WALK ALL THE WAY HOME TONIGHT. MY COACH GAVE ME A GLANCE AND I REALIZED EVERYONE IN THE GYM WAS LOOKING AT ME. I GOT UP AND LIMPED ALL THE WAY TO THE LOCKER ROOMS. I LOOKED IN THE MIRRIOR AND SAW I HAD MY LIP BUSTED AND BRUSED CHEEK WITH A BLACK EYE. I LOOKED AT MY BRUSED BODY. I WISH DAD WOULD LET ME WEAR MAKE UP TO HIDE ALL OF THIS. I HEADED TO THE SHOWERS AND I KNOW WHAT YOUR THINKING I'M PROBABLY MAKING THIS UP BUT I CAN'T MADE THIS UP. ANYWAYS I HEADED TO THE SHOWERS AND TURNED ON THE ICE COLD WATER AND I HANGED IN SOMETHING MORE COMFORTABLE. I GOT OUT OF THE LOCKER ROOM AND SAW THERE WERE SIRENS OUTSIDE AND I LOWERED MY HEAD AND TRIED TO WALK OUT OF THE BUILDING. I WAS HALFWAY HOME WHEN I FOUND THAT MY PARENTS WERE BOTH ALSEEP. I WALKED IN AND WENT TO SLEEP AND HAD TO GOT TO SCHOOL THE NEXT MORNING. MY FATHER WAS A FOOTBALL MAN SO HE MAKES ME PLAY FOOTBALL WITH THE BOYS. I HAVE TO OBEY HIM EVEN IF I DON'T WANT TO. 

SEVEN YEARS LATER....

I'M FOURTEEN NOW AND WELL AS YOU KNOW I'M STILL IN MMA AND BOXING WHILE I'M STILL IN FOOTBALL TOO. MY FATHER MAKES ME PLAY FOR THE SCHOOL NOW. WE ARE THE BEST IN THE STATE BUT IF WE LOSE JUST ONE GAME OR IF I MAKE A MISTAKE OR IF SOMEONE ELSE MAKES A MISTAKE I TAKE A BLOW. WE ARE PLAYING OUR SISTER SCHOOL AND IF I LIVED A STREET AWAY I WOULD GOT TO THAT SCHOOL. HE COMES TO EVERY SINGLE FOOTBALL GAME AND IF I LOSE A MATCH I HAVE A WHOLE NEW AND WORSE BEATING AT HOME JUST WAITING FOR ME. SO IT STARTED WHEN A GUY FROM THE OPPOSITE TEAM TOOK ME DOWN AND HELPED ME UP. I SAID THANKS AND I SMILED THEN I SEE. HIM. MY FATHER GOT SO MAD THAT ONCE THE GAME WAS OVER. HE RAN TO THE FIELD AND TOOK ME DOWN AND PUNCHED AND KICKED ME WITHOUT WARNING. I LAYED THERE WHILE HE KICKED ME AND TOLD ME I WAS WALKING HOME. HE STORMED OUT LEAVING ME ON THE GROUND. THE SAME GUY THAT TOOK ME DOWN CAME OVER AND HELPED ME TO MY LOCKER. HE CLOSED HIS EYES BUT I TOLD HIM THAT IT WAS FINE. THEN HE OPENED HIS EYES AND ASKED IF I WAS SURE ABLE IT. I NODDED AT HIM AND SMILED. I TOOK OFF MY JERSY AND SHOULDER PADS AND I TOLD HIM HE CAN CHANGE HERE TOO. HE DID AND I CHANGED ASWELL. HE LOOKED AT MY INJURYS AND MAKE A SAD FACE. HE SAID THAT HE HAD ASKED HIS PARENTS TO DROP ME OFF AND THEY SAID YESS. THEN I SAW HIS MOM CAME IN AND SAW ME AND SHE SAID THAT SHE WAS TAKING ME HOME AND WAS GOING TO HAVE A TALK WITH MY PARENTS. I PUT ON A WORRIED FACE AND TOLD HER WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF SHE EVEN TRIED TO KNOCK ON THERE DOOR WHILE SAYING IT WAS A VERY VERY BAD IDEA. SO HIS MOM SAT ME DOWN AND SAID WHAT DO THEY DO TO YOU. I LOOKED TOWARDS THE FLOOR AND STARTED TO EXPLAIN MY SITUATION. I TOLD HER AGAIN WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF SHE EVEN KNOCK ON THE DOOR. HER SON ASKED IF I CAN SLEEP OVER. SHE LET ME BUT THAT I WOULD HAVE TO SLEEP WITH ISAAC. I WAS FINE WITH IT BECAUSE IT WAS BETTER THEN GOING HOME TO MY FATHER GETTING READY TO BEAT ME. ONCE I ENTERED THE HOUSE, ISAAC TOOK ME STRIGHT TO HIS ROOM AND TOLD ME TO SHOWER FIRST. I DID AND THEN HE TOOK A SHOWER. HIS DAD CAME IN AND SAID THAT DINNER WAS READY AND WE WHEN DOWN STAIRS AND HEADED TO THE KITCHEN. ONCE WE WERE DONE I TOOK THE DISHES TO THE SINK AND WAS ABOUT TO WASH THEM BUT HIS MOM STOPPED ME. SHE SMILED AND TOLD ME TO GO OFF AND GET READY TO GO TO BED. ISAAC AND I HEADED TO HIS ROOM. I  WAS IN FRONT AND HE WAS BEHIND ME.HE ASKED WHERE I LIVED AND I SAID LIKE A STREET DOWN THAT WAY POINTING NORTH. HE MADE A FACE AND SAID SO WERE THAT YALL THAT HAD THE AMBULACE ALL NIGHT THIS JULY. I NODDED AND PICKED UP MY SHIRT. I TOLD HIM THAT MY DAD HAD SLASHED ME AND MY MOM WAS JUST LETTING ME BLEED OUT. SO I GOT UP AND TRIED TO RUN TO NEXT DOOR AND WELL I PASTED OUT IN THE FRONT AND THE MAILMAN SAW ME AND CALLED THE POLICE. WE FINILLY GOT TO ISAAC'S ROOM AND WE TOOK SHOWERS AND I WAS ALREADY IN BED WHEN HE CAME OUT. HE SMILED AND SAID THAT HE WAS TAKING THE FLOOR. I LOOKED AT THE BED AND IT WAS A CALI QUEEN SIZE SO IT WAS BIG AND I TRIED TO SLEEP. I LOOKED DOWN AT ISAAC AND HE LOOKED INTO MY EYES AND SAID, "YOU CAN'T SLEEP?" I NODDED AND ASKED HIM IF HE WOULD SLEEP WITH ME. ONCE I FELT HIS WARM BODY WITHOUT NO SHIRT. I FELT HIS ARM WRAP AROUND MY WAIST. I FELL INTO A DEEP SLEEP.

TO BE CONTINUED....

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Publication Date: 07-30-2017

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