My Frozen Soul by skysky.bluestar W. (most read books .TXT) 📕

My name is Cera. When I was a pup I was caught by hume (humans). Now I live as a prisoner in this small village. They feed us but treat us awfully. I’m 19 now. Just recently they have been killing female wolves. Most of them were pregnant though. There trying to lower the wolf population. I watch as the beat wolves to death and the blood oozes, the tears drip, as the pain spreads. Luckily since I was raised here. I don't have the problem of resilience like the other wolves. How they fight senselessly to their death. How they shorten their own lives, How they bring their own pain. I'm usually in hume form covered in bruises and rags. Blood stains color my rags. As I said I don't retaliate, but they beat us any way. We are nothing but dirt to them probably even lower. I shall never understand them. Food comes twice a day dawn, and dusk. What they do for water..., the spray until your soaked on winter nights and watch the younger ones freeze, Summers they give only enough for one swallow a day. Most wolves either die of heat, starvation or bleed to death. Only one way out..... death. I manage to survive, because as I grew, I became immune to the beatings, the thirst, starvation, and pain. When I was younger I would hope that Kiba would come for me. Before I was caught I made a friend his name was Kiba, he promised he would always protect me, but it was not to be true. He is probably dead by now. The graceful white wolf was probably slain...

Morning...
I wake up at dawn before the humes come and beat me awake. They come and shackle me; my wounds on my wrist re-open. I get up and let them take me to the pen. The pen is a spot to hold wolves during the day. They un-shackle me and throw me in the pen many wolves are in there today. I run to my corner I hide in every day I’m in here. I lick my wounds clean. Hoping I won't get any infection. More wolves get thrown in. I hear the squealing of a young wolf being beaten to death. His tears like rain fall from my eyes I wish I can escape. Because I know soon that will be me. They throw the youths body inside. He is dead already. His eyes are blank. Humes disappear. Then a loud crashing noise every wolf shake the bars of the cage. Soon a white wolf came running; he rips the cage door open and releases them all. I look into his blue eyes."Kiba" I whisper. He looks at me his blue eyes pierce my soul. "Cera" he says and rips of the door climbing inside to help me out of the cage. "C'mon" I turn wolf my ragged gray pelt is stained with blood and I have a scar across my right amber eye. He helps me get out of the prison. We passed the broken bloody bodies of all of the humes. As we exit the prison the sun blinds me. We walk to the edge of the forest and rest. He helps me go farther until I collapse. We rest for a while. He catches a rabbit for me. It’s been ages since I have had good meat. The warm fresh meat melts in my mouth. I chew on the bones as well. Then we walk farther. We reach Kiba's territory. He turned hume form "I saved your territory for you." he says and turns, I change back to hume form. "Let’s get rid of these rags" he says. He vanishes into a cave and brings out a small scarlet skirt and white shirt with a small matching bow. "Go get dressed I'm going hunting" he smiled and touched my cheek."Oh wait I forgot.." he says and handed me the clothes. He runs back in the cave to grab something else. I change into the new clothes. The skirt comes to my mid thigh, the sleeves come a little ways past my wrists this goes well with my pale skin. I try to put the bow in my hair. He sneaks behind me and raps a silver scarf around my neck. "Here it was my mothers, she passed away of a sickness not to long ago, have it"
"No I couldn't"
"Its fine...” his blue eyes are soft. He fixes my bow. "Come here." he says and grabs my hand. He brings me to a small creek. "You can wash up here" he says and smiles. "Now I am going hunting" he takes off. I roll up my sleeves and dip my hands into the water it is cool and refreshing. I clean my face and wet my neck. I pul the bow out of my hair and stick my whole face in. I pull back at the chilling water and shake my head. I ring out my hair and pull it back. I use my reflection to fix my bow. As I am fixing me bow I notice a bruise covering my right cheek. It is light and I never noticed it. I hear footsteps behind me. I snap and jump and see Kiba. I breathe a quick sigh. He was in wolf form dragging a doe. I switch to wolf form. My fur is at least clean. He drops the doe and begins to chew on the front leg. I ripped a piece from the back it is fatty and warm I can't stop until I realize I have eaten almost the through the spine and half the back. He has only eaten one leg. "You can have the rest." I mummer.
"Cera it doesn’t matter you need it more than me" He comes over and sits with me. I yawn. "Tired..." he asks
"ya..."
"C'mon" he leads me into the cave two beds of skin lay next to each other. I lay down on the one closer to the wall and cover my muzzle. I'm exhausted. "Sleep" he whispered. My eyelids grow heavy and drift to sleep.

Morning, the sun shines on me warming up my face. I look around Kiba isn't next to me. "Kiba, Kiba" I call and get up. "Over here..." Kiba calls back. I walk over to him. "Are you still hungry after last night" he has a slight tone of laughter in his voice."
"A little yes..."
"Well how about you wash up and I'll get us a quick meal and maybe hunting practice."
"Sure..." I murmur. I walk to the river as he walks out to the forest. ‘I hope I stay with Kiba forever and ever.

5 years later...

I wait for Kiba. He is off hunting again and his pups are hungry. He has two pups and a few on the way. His two already are one male one female, the male is pure white like Kiba except he has amber eyes like me. "How are you" he asks and drops the rabbits. "Fine" I say. Kiba leaves again. He has been leaving often. I decided to follow him. I turn wolf and carry prim and Tulis by the scruffs of their necks. I follow his scent into a dense part of the woods out of his territory in fact. I smell another she-wolf nearby. I spot Kiba's white pelt. I almost jump out and ask him 'What the hell are you doing here' but before I could a silver she wolf appeared. With gazing blue eyes, and her belly swollen. She’s pregnant.

He.. He’s been... with another one this whole time. Tears stream down my cheeks I run away from him. From his territory. When he comes back he won't find me here. He can go with that good for nothing she-wolf. I go across the stream so he can't track me. I run miles and miles from his territory till I can't move my legs. I find a small uninhabited cave. This is not a wolfs territory so I will claim it.

3 months later...

Tulis and Prim grow stronger by the day. My second litter has one more month. Tulis has finally said his first words, he has said mum, and prim. Prim is not as fast learning as her brother, but she can say mum. Unfortunately they will never truly know there father, just like me. My father was alive when I was a pup but when I was about a year old, He was killed in a fight against another wolf. Night falls, Tulis and prim are asleep. My Eyelids begin to grow heavy. I finally drift into sleep. I awake to the sound of growling. I'm still in wolf from so are prim and Tulis. I look outside, a vampire. Prim runs out too fight it. I try to stop her but she already out of my reach I can' go outside or the vampire will kill me them Tulis will be alone. I push Tulis back into the cave were he can't see. I turn away, and listen to the screams of my daughter. The vampire leaves my daughters broken body and leaves. I run to her, her eyes are blank. A memory crosses my mind of when the young boy wolf in the prison when he was beaten to death. I remember how his eyes were blank and lifeless. I shake away the dark memory. Tulis howls in sadness for his sister. I burry her body. Afternoon, I still lay by Prims grave. Tulis is sulking in the cave. I hope he can make it without her, he was never really was brave. Whenever something scared him she would protect him. Soon he shall have more sisters and brothers, but nothing can fill prim's place.

1 week later...

The pups came earlier than expected. Two boys and one girl. The boys are twins, pure dark gray pelts. The girl is like prim. I name the bigger boy Tatu and the smaller one Tuta, the girl I name Silver. Tulis seems to grow more protective over silver and his brothers. Probably because Prim always protected him. I like his way of returning the favor. Its late afternoon, I try to teach Tulis some words like, food, love, sis, broth. He learns pretty fast he has already learned sis and broth. After an hour I let him run around and play. Ever since prim died he has been less active. He will chase bugs and attack rocks but nothing else really. Night falls I tell him to watch the pups while I hunt. Lately I haven't been able to hunt. Now that I have that extra weight off I’m much more agile. A small doe and her fawn rest under a tree I crouch low and slowly crawl forward. I jump and kill the doe with a swipe of my paw. I let the fawn go. I drag he doe back to the cave. I turn hume form and start to tear up the doe so Tulis can eat the small chunks. I skin the doe and lay the skin out to dry. I can lay the newborns down on there so they don't have to lay on the stone floor I get rid of the organs and bones, I hide the meat in a small hole under a rock. I pull some out and gave it to tulis. I curl around my new pups in wolf from. Tulis curls by my legs; I cover him with my tail, and drift into an uneasy sleep. Morning, Tulis is up and pouncing