War in Heaven by Charles Williams (books to read for self improvement txt) 📕

the books, but his attention was on the gallery. He heard Persimmons go, guessed the other was watching, and leaned still more awkwardly forward. Then suddenly he made a grotesque noise, dragged out his handkerchief, put it to his mouth, and rushed out of the room. Ludding, leaping back from the door as he came, received him with a stare.

“I’m going to be sick,” the Archdeacon gurgled, leaning forward. “Where’s the… Ouch!” He ended with a convulsive choke.

“Here, sir.” Ludding ran and threw open a door. The Archdeacon shot by him, banged it, looked round. In a corner behind the door the Graal lay on its side. He caught it up and considered, looking at the window. For him to carry it off, he recognized, was impossible; he would be knocked on the head again before he got home, if he ever did get home. There were only two possibilities, to leave it where it was or to throw it out of the window. He made a loud, hideous noise for Ludding’s benefit and peered out.

Terrace and lawns below, grounds and plantations beyond, but all the Cully domain. Could he by any chance recover it if he threw it out? But Persimmons would be bound to guess what had happened. He would search too, with the advantages all on his side. The Archdeacon preferred to keep the advantages and leave the Graal. After all, he would know and the other wouldn’t. Certainty and uncertainty—certainty for him.

“Ouch,” he said loudly, laid down the chalice where he had found it, and said in his heart: “Fair sweet Destiny, draw all men to the most happy knowledge of Thee.” He leant against the wall for a minute till he heard a soft whispering outside, then he pulled the chain loudly, opened the door, and came rather staggeringly out. As he did so, Ludding slipped past him into the little room.

“My dear Archdeacon!” Gregory cried sympathetically. “I’m so sorry.” But his eyes went hurrying past the other, after Ludding, and for the moment while the servant was absent he stood between his guest and the stairs. Ludding was out almost immediately, and behind the priest’s back nodded at his master. Gregory, with a little sigh, looked directly at the Archdeacon, who looked as sorry for himself as his inexperience could contrive.

“It’s the screwing myself up,” he said faintly. “It’s nothing; my stomach’s a weak thing, Mr. Persimmons. But I think perhaps I had better be getting home.”

“Bring the car round, Ludding,” Gregory said. “Yes, I insist. Are you sure you won’t stop here a little while?”

“No, really, really,” the Archdeacon said, his reluctance sounding like weakness. “I’ll just get out into the air.”

“Do,” Gregory exclaimed. “Take my arm.” And with murmurs and distressed ejaculations and gentle protests the two dropped to the hall.

It was later in the evening, when dinner was over and the two were alone, that Gregory told Sir Giles of the incident.

“It may have been true,” he said doubtfully, “but I didn’t quite like it. But he hadn’t touched the Cup. I went back to see.”

“He’ll know it’s there,” Sir Giles explained.

“He may know it as much as he likes,” Gregory answered. “I’ll get a whole pedigree for that Cup. Stephen gave it to me, I think. It’s his word against half a dozen I can arrange for, if he makes a fuss. And a clergyman accusing his Good Samaritan of theft because he’s got a chalice which the clergyman, after a knock on the head, thinks he recognizes. Oh, no, Tumulty, it wouldn’t do.”

“What should you have done if he’d taken it?” Sir Giles asked.

“Taken it back. I saw that when I was coming upstairs after that beastly baby had been taken away from the telephone,” Gregory said spitefully. “Violence—real violence—wouldn’t have been necessary. Taken it back and written to the Chief Constable.”

“Who’d have wanted it traced, probably,” said Sir Giles. “And would have found out about that damned book. Who was the accursed imbecile who let him see it?”

“Some fool at my son’s,” Gregory said. “But I’ll have the pedigree all right. Don’t worry, Tumulty.”

“Don’t worry!” Sir Giles cried. “Who the hell are you talking to, Persimmons? Don’t worry! Me worry over your bastard murders, indeed. The thing that’ll keep you safe is that no-one with more brains than a gutter-bred snipe like that Archdeacon would think your collection of middleclass platitudes worth adding to. Chinese masks—you might be a Jew financier. And, anyhow, what do you want to do with the thing?”

“Ah, now that’s important,” Gregory said. “I didn’t quite know at first, but I do now. I’m going to talk to the child.”

“Ungh?” Sir Giles asked.

“Say it’s what we think it is, it’s been as near the other centre as anything in this world can get,” Gregory went on. “And it’s been kept pretty deep down in that world all the time. It’s close to the place where all things meet and all souls—anyhow, their souls. And I can get at that baby there—the real baby—and make the thing easy up here. Not at first altogether perhaps, but I shall do it. I shall make the offering there when he agrees—till we go to the Sabbath together.”

“You do talk pretty? Persimmons,” Sir Giles said. “You believe that this damn Graal is more use than that coffee cup?”

“I think it is the great chalice of their initiation,” Gregory answered. “And I think we can use it—I and my people. I can meet Adrian there and separate and draw and convert him. It’s got power in it; it’s a gate. But anyone can use the power, and a gate is for coming out as well as going in.”

“Pretty, pretty,” Sir Giles murmured, his head on one side. “And when does your blessed child bleat out through the gate of the fold? Don’t forget I want to see.”

“You won’t see anything; you’ll be horribly bored,” Gregory sneered.

“I shall see you,” Sir Giles said, with a sweet mildness. “And I shan’t be bored. I saw something like it in Brazil. But there they killed a slave. Are you going to kill Ludding, by any chance?”

“Don’t be a fool,” Gregory said. “Well, come, if you like. I don’t mind, all this cleverness of yours is such universes away that it won’t interfere. Only I warn you, absolutely nothing’ll happen.”

“Don’t die, that’s all I ask,” Sir Giles said. “In Brazil one of them did, and it might be more difficult to bribe the police here.”

They went from the dining-room to a small room next to Gregory’s bedroom, which he unlocked with a key he carried on his own chain. There appeared in it only a cabinet in one corner, two or three cushions dropped beside it, and a low pedestal of wood in the centre on which lay an oblong slab of stone. On this slab stood two candlesticks, around the pedestal, at a good distance, had been drawn a white circle, in which at one point was a small gap. Before he entered the room Gregory had fetched the Graal from its corner; he passed through the gap, set it upright on the slab between the candlesticks, and turned to Sir Giles.

“You’d better sit down at once,” he said, “and I should recommend you to keep within the circle. There are curious forces released sometimes on these occasions.”

“I know all about that,” Sir Giles said, as he brought two of the cushions into the circle, also taking care to pass through the gap. “I saw a man once in Ispahan who looked as if he’d been unable to breathe once he got outside. Atmospheric disturbances, but why? Why does your purely subjective industry disturb the air? Well, never mind. I won’t say a word more.” He settled himself comfortably on his cushions over against one of the shorter sides of the pedestal. Gregory went over to the cabinet, and there first changed from the clothes he was wearing into a white cassock, marked with esoteric signs. He then brought from it an antique vessel, from which he poured what was apparently wine into the Graal till it all but brimmed. He brought also a short rod and laid it on the slab in front of the Graal; he arranged and lit at what appeared to be the back of the altar a chafing-dish containing herbs and powders, scattered other powders upon it, and came back to the front of the altar. Lastly, with great care, he brought to it from the cabinet a parchment inscribed with names and writings, and a small paper from which he let fall on to the wine in the Graal what appeared to Sir Giles to be a few short hairs.

He considered the arrangements, went back and closed the cabinet, re-entered the circle, took the rod from the altar, and, bending down, with a strong concentration of countenance, closed the gap, drawing the rod slowly as if with an effort against the path of the sun. He came to the front of the altar, and immersed himself in a profound silence.

Sir Giles, curled upon the cushions, watched him intently, noting every change in his face and the growing remoteness of his eyes. Almost an hour had passed before those eyes, seeming to stir of their own volition, lowered themselves from the darkness of the room to the Graal standing in the steady light of the two candles. Very slowly he stretched his hands over the chalice and began to speak. Sir Giles, straining his ears, caught only an occasional phrase. “Pater Noster, qui fuisti in caelis… per te omnipotentem in saecula saeculorum… hoc est calix, hoc est sanguis tuus infernorum… in te regnum mortis, in te delectatio corruptionis, in te via et vita scientiae maleficae… qui non es in initio, qui eris in sempiternum. Amen.” He took up the rod from the altar, still moving with extreme slowness and, resting it on the edge of the chalice, allowed it to touch the surface of the wine; his eyes followed its length and rested also there. “De corpore, de mente… mitte animum in simulacro… per potestatem tuam in omnibus… animum Adriani cujus nomen scripsi in sanguine meo dimitte in sanguine tuo… Adrianum oblationem pro me et pro seipsum… nomen tuum.” The rod moved in magical symbols upon the wine. “De Cujus corpore haec sunt… O Pastor, O Pater, O Nox et Lux infernorum et domus rejectionis.”

The vibrating voice ceased, and it seemed to Sir Giles that the faintest of mists hung for a moment over the chalice and was dissolved; then, more urgently and in a lower tone the voice began again, but the phrases the listener caught were now far between. “… Adrianum filium tuum, ovem tuam… et omnia opera mea et sua… tu cujus sum et cujus erit… dimitte… dimitte.” It paused again, and then in a murmur through which the whole force of the celebrant seemed to pass, it came again. “Adrian, Adrian, Adrian… “

Faint, but certain, the mist rose again from the wine; and Sir Giles, absorbedly drinking in the spectacle, saw Gregory’s eyes light up with recognition. He seemed without moving to draw near the altar and the chalice and the mist, his face was bent toward it; he spoke, carefully, quietly, and in English. “Adrian, it is I who speak, image to image, through this shadow of thee to thee. Adrian, well met. Know me again, O soul, and know me thy friend and master. In the world of flesh know me, in the world of shadows, and in the world of our lord. Many times I shall shape thine image thus, O child, my sacrifice and my oblation, and thou shalt come, more swiftly and more truly thou, when I desire thee. Image of Adrian,