My Life Story by Nicuashio Espenvoll (best color ereader .TXT) 📕

never gave up and I always moved forward. Sometimes I get off to myself and think, how can I succeed? And has this orientation class really helped me up to this point? To be specific, sometimes I feel that it had no effect on me. As I sat and looked at everyone, I saw how depended they were. It was like a strong sensation for like an academic- like atmosphere form them. I starting thinking for a second; you know—they may not be social, but they sure seem like college hardworking students. At some point in my life, I ask myself. Do I really have what it takes? Will I ever succeed in college? Am I really college material? All of these answers are like puzzle pieces to me. On the inside of me I felt the death of failure turning me on the inside out, I tried to resist by doing other things. Consequently, it seems at that point that the situation that I am in now is completely impossible. And after hearing how my mum is going through with her classes, it really gets discouraging from time to time. Even though I worked so hard at Job Corps, it felt like it wasn’t enough. I remember one time, while my teacher Ms. Tammy Jones was talking. She gave us her example side of the story, after we all finished the job search survey. And she was talking about how when she was in college and the fact that after she graduated—the real world was so much different then what she went to school for. Now the thing is, that had a link connection to my unanswered questions; I do know that my time management skills have been a bit sloppy. So I had to enforce myself to Say “NO” and go to bed on time and be to get up on time for class.
At this point, I had no one to talk to at school. Just about problems and other things that I was going through, nevertheless of course you and I know that when it comes to college no one cares at all. After running from counselor to counselor about my issues, during that time—I began to feel that not only am I wasting my time but there’s also. At this point I didn’t know what to do, and I felt as though I am trapped in a tight squeeze in a deaths place of failing. I talk to my new girlfriend her name is Bethany. She is really cool, I love her a lot and every time I talked to her on the messenger on yahoo—she made me smile. Some days she seems as though her words are saying that she does not feel like talking to me. Just now I spoke to her, and well she didn’t seem to care anymore. Or she must be tired or something, at some point since she is 15 years old more than likely she may be seeing someone and not tell me about it. Most people do that, not saying she would do that or nothing, she didn’t seem to wanna talk to me today. At that time, I felt that she was seeing someone—however it was a matter of time. That I would find out about it, and I just didn’t want to come there and get my feelings hurt. My dream is to live there, and go to Japan.
When I checked my messenger she was offline; since she kept getting disconnected so much I guess she had to get ready for bed and stuff or something.
It’s crazy, and I know that there will be times when our emotions in life begin to have a mind of its own. To be blunt about it, sometimes—I feel that maybe it won’t last long. My Exgirlfriend Kayla Lay came back and apologized to me about what she did, she wanted me to be friends with her which I told her that it’s fine. She claims that she has been thinking about me and all and how she loves me still, but it’s kinda strange to me. Plus we don’t talk much since she is busy doing other things so it matters little. Diana wanted me back, and well after for so long of not talking to her and for her not talking to me—I began to send her a messenger mail on the yahoo messenger saying hello basically. All of this happen way before me and Bethany started dating, I asked her to marry me when she get older—consequently I felt at the same time that I was moving too fast. I don’t know, things are collapsing on the inside of me like a deaths signal launch.
The center point about this is out of all of the people that I have dated and told how I have dated this person and so on one person after another—by now, you would think by now the right person would be “mind settled” about things. As I began to date Bethany, and talking to her every chance that I have.
The question that I asked myself was I wonder have she or how many guys has she been with? Although since we dated, I couldn’t bring myself to express questions that I really wanted to ask her. I guess, sometimes it’s best to know when it is the right time to ask. Well, it seems by now at time but at the same time it’s not. Everything always seems to be a down fall at the end for a devastating answer. All my life back when I was a kid I didn’t want to be with anyone because I knew that up to know when I got older that this would happened to me. For so long I have not only hid my heart from Bethany but from all except fewer that I dated my heart. Because of the fact that I did not wanna be hurt, on top of that I have school and a lot of things going for myself.
I had to learn the hard way though, and for so many years after that. My heart has been in pain of rejection and from marks of relationship breakdowns. I began to think back on all of the things I went through and how that what if I listened and moved on it would have been the easy route but it’s not.

Chapter 26
Sorrows end
Here in this chapter I am going to talk to you about some things that you should know. Such as more key point of why relationships are bad, different types of Christians, and different types of social people which involves a fewer adults as well. As I told you, during the previous chapters and during the introductory of my announcements and so on? After you hear about this, you will be surprised.
Well, first I would like to discuss Christians. Some of them as you have or have not noticed, there are different types of Christians lingering in every church home or in any church. Especially, in well-known churches all round the world. Now then most people that you have a good conversation with, seems like a good person. Which is a law as in being a Christian law states that if you are either pin-pals etc with a friend and he or she is not a Christian—then that means you have to cut yourself away from them? Now, don’t get me wrong there are some individuals that have such as hot tempered people and people that are wanna be Christians. Are not really who they say they are, a lot of people assume that just because a particular person has not come to church let’s just say around approximately—in about a week or two. They consider that person satanic, and which it’s not true. Of course since we all including myself at a time never realizes it, people and their attributes in life. If you really want to know how or what they are who they say they are? Then in order to do that it is simple, just watch them. Most people, on a few by far on the others that get into a lot of activities in church, aren’t really Christians at all. So people that are really, into church or not very all nice like—true to that we really surely know by instant that they are not a Christian. But, there are other people and teens that are not like I said before people who always getting into all kinds of church activities, seems to be like a high school-like social about the word of GOD. Or people that are just very hysterically, adequate but not really living the truth. I want you think back on what I have said to you, and it will all become clear I can a sure you that. Some Christians that use insensitive statements about others, especially the ones that scream Hallelujah a lot. Overall, there are some Christians that are serious about what they believe in and live by—but also in what they do openly. But you still have people that are too stuck up /and or social friendly like at the same time. Just think about it? It may surprise you a bit and for those they are affected? Well, you just missed the whole center point already. Ultimately, you still have other Christians not only wanna bee’s but also people the cover up their mess behind being perfect in church and elsewhere.

Now about the contrast social types. Some people are really good to socialize with and others are still one track minded. This is a concept term, which I use from a reading literacy of my own. And yes it is a reading concept, however for just in other readings. The concept is, “Flat & Dynamic” people. Well I guess you already know what the word “Dynamic” means but you want to know what do I prefer to as to what I meant when I said the word “Flat,” along with “Dynamic?’’ Well, allow me to educated you on what I mean, but before I do that allow me to explain on how is this possible in which what I am about to tell you or for fewer of you may already know. All together what I mean by advance or for some, by far. Well, for people that only stick to one thing /and or careless about things around them are certainly are described as “Flat” people. As for dynamic people, are those who not only love what he or she does and meet with but also loves to seek out and do other things. For those are described as Dynamic people, as you know some people are into “going with the flow” sort of thing so it’s kinda lies in between the concept.
Well so now then, have you guys ever been bored (which I am pretty sure you do) from time to time, surfing on different social site. Trying to find other people to talk to? Mostly either they will talk to you, and or would replied and get offline. Some of you may or may not like that or not—but I sure do. It really sucks that you try to fit in and people just take advantage of you and push you away, most people well online aren’t very social, that some people just add you and then never talk to you in about a month or two. Meanwhile in real life, you have people that you see at school that never talks to you or new people that you would like to meet, but judging by their personality they do not seem social especially the ones from time to time rather is it is at a job or at school (college) or high school. They always say hey to you every time they saw