when did it become so hard to be normal? by lauren k (books recommended by bts .TXT) 📕

... no glaring is an understatement .. i cant even put it into words .. just hatred comes to mind they were hating me and angry that i was there i was unwelcomed. that word "unwelcome" i was so familiar with that word , maybe to familiar . but what i did see more felt as i looked at those beasts was a beautiful man. my eyes instantly was drown to him he had pitch black hair as if it was made of crow feathers. and his body it was sooo ... perfect ! his muscles they were tearing threw his bark colored v-neck. but most importantly his eyes! they were gorgeous! no that too is an understatement they were breath taking ! they were a dark dark blue ,sapphire to be exact, they looked as tho they could see right threw you and i was probably right. He scared me tho , his beautiful looks were able to take away oxygen from your body and silently kill you but his aura was even worse! you diddnt even have to be a wolf to tell that he was alpha, it was pouring out of him , making shivers down my back every second that i looked. his wolf was old well he was older than me and he was more vicious as well. i hadnt realized i stopped moving but i couldn't stop looking into to those eyes, they were so cold yet soo inviting it was as if they were inviting me over .. no more like compelling me over to him but my wolf was not going to allow it she knew if i went over there or so much i got a little closer to them ,we would be goners. i am also alone wolf so i was by myself while they had a whole pack of dangerous beasts! As i forced myself to keep walking the bell had already rung and all the students started piling into the already way to small school to get on with there day. they were unaware of all the danger around them and they diddnt care while Stacia was in the middle or more like the cause of this danger. oh how she wished she could be like all the others and not feel or be in the danger but she couldn't . she is what she is and nothing can change that . that is one thing that Stacia had learned in all those centuries in the bitterness of the dark.. she couldn't change what had already happened and that she would just had to cope with it. but all she knew was that she had survived the first meeting.
the school life

As Stacia walked into the school , well more like ran into it soo that she would be surrounded by humans so the wolves couldnt get her. but it wasn't like they mad much of a difference , if the wolves really wanted her they would have stopped her the second she drove into the parking lot. that right there raised a red flag. why diddnt they stop her? why did they just stare at her? where they expecting her? All these question swirled around her brain , just taunting her and the more she tried to come up with an answer the more confused she would get.then she started to feel overwhelmed as she headed toward the school the more people would fill into the hallways making her feel so claustrophobic as if the walls were caving in on her. she found the front office and quickly went in to it. the office was just like what i expected cold white walls, the same ones you would probably find in an insane asylum , but i diddnt mind it made me feel a little safer. as i walked up to a lady with a red and white dress on and red lipstick that just jumped out at you i asked her if i could get my schedule . and of course she gave me an eye roll showing me that she did not want to do this . When she had finally gave me my schedule i took a quick look at it it was all honors classes and the braised my self to go back in those crowded halls. but again i really diddnt mind them that much i guess . it made me feel a little less alone. after all the years of loneliness i got used to the numbness the coldness of only relying on yourself that i just became part of my normal life . walking out of the office i noticed a group of humans where coming strait for me . As they surrounded me blocking anyway for me to escape back into the sea of people. a girl with long blonde hair with green eyes she looked like a cat . i new already i was not going to like her , she opened her mouth and talked with the most annoying voice and said " well hello there ! my name is misty and these are some of my friends . welcome to are school! what is your name?" i couldn't decided if i should just walk away , answer her question , or just punch that smirk off her smug face. since i was already looking over my shoulder with all these wolves around i decided to put the fakes t smile that i could do and answered her question "hi my name is Stacia and im so glad to be welcomed to ur school it means so much to me !" finishing off with a smile just as smug as hers. we were staring at each other for some time , i could easily kill her with i single move,i thought but she reached down and grabed my arm putting it with hers and said"great! so tell me everything about yourself and how about i give you a tour of our wonderful school. i answered with a "sure why not" and things went on from there. she talked about all the clicks and teachers and where my classes were and how she was the captain of the cheer-leading,dance and my different clubs. i could tell what she was doing she was trying to intimidate me wanting me to bow down to her making her top dog or should i say top cat , its what wolfs do when they meet other wolves as well, but i defiantly did not do as she said but just smiled . Right as the little group of people that started to surround us , probably trying to find out as much information as possible about this mysterious girl coming out of no where, and of course i had given them some information haha and of course none of it was true but i had to give them something so they wouldnt be that suspicious of me . so i told them i was from Tampa, Florida and my parents died when i was little and my very very humble grandmother had taken poor little old me into her home. but she recently died and wanting a new environment to live in i decided to move to North Carolina. Of course everyone stared with pity in there eyes for all the lose that i had gone threw hahaha i cant believe how week humans are, so easy to manipulate , it was as if i was there puppet master pulling the strings as they danced. i could already tell it wasnt going to be hard to make myself comfortable in this school. Right as i thought that the pack of wolves that were outside just walked right inside. it was as if a a cloud of tension and fear washed over everyone . all the humans shivered as they walked past them. they would run out of there path , not wanting to be in there line of site, tilting there heads down not wanting to make eye contact with any of them. I was astonished at the reaction they had gotten thinking how afraid they were of them , as i looked over even misty the girl i thought was top female the queen of the school shivered in fear at there presence. Now that right there scared me. As i shifted my gaze away from misty and all the other girls i looked up at the group of wolves. you could tell they were all strong ,senseless people, no Mercy for anyone .But what my wolf caught before me was that they werent even looking in my direction as if they forgot i was still in their territory , i thought to my wolf *maybe they dont care about use. maybe they dont mind use being here?* *I dont think so but either way be cautious dont let your guard down they might just be waiting for use to let are guard down then attack* i agreed to what she had said and decided that it was time to got to class..
Going threw my classes i noticed there was a couple of wolves in each of my classes but none of them had the mysterious raven haired boy in them. Surprisingly to me that kinda disappointed me a part of me wanted to see that boy every second as if he was the only thing i could think about all day i couldnt stop thinking about him ,but the other part of me was glad he wasnt. he was powerful and strong and that scared me so much!! he was soooo dangerous it makes her want to stay as fair away from his as possible but on the other hand his dangerousness is what attracted her the most. they feel that he wasnt safe is what he liked about him . Stacia new she would have so much fun with him running threw the woods with him playing with him seemed like a fantasy to her a dream that she knew could never come true.
going into lunch was which my second to last period then physics then home. Finally just two more classes then i could go hide under my covers and process what happened today. looking around like always my eyes instantly found my mystery man or the alpha i could say sitting with his pack mates and again they diddnt even look over at me to my surprise again i was disappointed i wanted to see those dark emerald eyes boring into me compelling me to come to him. but they diddnt they stayed on his pack mates chatting up with his family.
"family" that is such a foreign word to me i never had a family i was always alone in life even when i was human , centuries ago i had a mother and father and many siblings. it might just be me or something but i dont think we had condoms back then. because my mother was popping out child like rain drops. So of course my family was