Roses by A.J Beth (motivational books for women .TXT) 📕

house the way you precisely knew where to land, if anyone else tried they would have fell and got hurt .and your nightmares, they‘re more like premonitions” He explained to me.

I was kinda confused, but also not. I laughed and we pulled into the drive way and went into my room. I ended up falling asleep, I didn’t have a nightmare but I saw Bryce getting drunk and falling into the river. It looked dark in my dream so I immediately got up and went to the car.

I drove to the river and waited there too make sure Bryce wasn’t coming. When it was around 2 am I heard something coming my way, just incase it wasn’t Bryce I pulled my knife out, but it was and he was drunk. He headed for the river and then I got in front of him and put my hands on his shoulders, “Bryce what are you doing?” He looked at me in a haze and took another sip of his beer.
“Your gone… your going to leave me here alone.” He said, I didn’t know what he was talking about and I sat him down on the grass.
“What do you mean?” I asked him, he just looked at me and his eyes were watery.
“Your going to leave me here! You don’t care about me! After you go back at the end of the summer your just going to forget about me.” He explained to me and a tear feel from his eye, and I gave him a hug.
“Darling, I would never ever forget about you! And I’ve cared about you even when you hated me. I would do anything for you just to see your smile.” I said holding my hand to his cheek. He just looked at me as I smiled at him, he put his head on my shoulder and cried.
“I don’t want you to go.. I don’t want you to be with Andrew.” He cried, I was starting to feel bad and I didn’t know what to say.
“Stop that! Stop feeling bad for me. I don’t need your sympathy!” He yelled out. I looked at him confused.
“Bryce I never said that.” I tell him, he looked at me.
“Yeah well stop thinking it to.” He said crossing his arms… I looked at him.
“It’s obvious your drunk… come on Bryce, I’m taking you back home.” I tell him trying to lift him up, but he shrugged telling me to get my hand off him.
“Come on Bryce! Stop acting like your 5! Your fricken 17!” I demanded.
“No! Why don’t you just leave and go back to Andy!” He yelled. “I bet he misses you.” He snarled his lip, I sighed.
“I know you care and I love you for that, but please come on.” I asked nicely, he looked up at me.
“I want to go swimming.” He said, I rolled my eyes and laughed.
“No your just drunk.” I acknowledged. He looked up at me and got up.
“No I want to go swimming. Come with me.” He said taking my hand. I didn’t even attempt to stop him there was no point. We went into the water that was up to our ankles and he sat down in it. I laughed at him being so childish, it was nice to see him like that though.
“Sit down, it’s super ass fun!” He said tugging on my hand, I tried hard not to laugh and then he tugged me hard enough and I feel down and laughed even more. “I’m all wet I hope your happy.” I said splashing water onto his face. We were just sitting in the water and we started to hear thunder. We looked up and it starts pouring rain we got up out of the water and ran around on the road, we looked like idiots, but neither of us cared.

After awhile of playing in the rain like children I drove Bryce home, I walked him inside and tucked him in like he was my child. When I was just about to leave he grabbed my hand, “Do you have to go?” He asked me, I sat down next to him.
“Yeah, if you remember I have a boyfriend who is in town.” I said, he frowned.
“But you know we would be better together…” He said as I got up, I was thinking of it, but only vaguely. I sighed and looked back a little, “Bye Bryce.” I drove home and went into my room.

I fell back asleep for another hour until someone called me.
“Hello.” I say waking up.
“A.J. I was so depressed last night… I cut for the first time in awhile.” Alice told me.
“Alice! Why were you depressed?!?!” I asked her worried.
“Steven got a girlfriend, and it wasn’t me! After we made out!!” She told me.
“I’m sorry, but I need to go.” I tell her before hanging up the phone. I didn’t need to go I just didn’t care for that. It had happened to me 3 times before and I got no support from her.

I didn’t even try to go back to sleep, I got up and walked outside. I began to have a day dream, but it wasn’t bad, I was with Bryce and we were just hanging out then we’re talking and I snap out of it when I feel someone’s hands around my waist. “Mourning sun shine.” Andy said. I smiled and looked at him, “Mourning sweetie.”

I went inside and got dressed for the day, and I didn’t know what Andy and I were going to do today, but I didn’t care. “Whatcha wanna do? I can’t think of anything.” I laughed, he looked at me.
“Hm. I don’t know. I haven’t met your friends yet.” He smiled, I looked at him and we went to the car. I took him to see Alice first.
“Alice! Come here.” I yelled to her. She came out of her house and then smiled.
“Omg! A.J I’m so happy for you hun!!!” She expressed, I laughed and gave her a hug.
“I’m sorry about you and Steven, that wasn’t right.” I said. She shrugged.
“Don’t worry about it. I found someone knew, butt thanks for the sympathy.” Se said. I gave her one last hug and we went to go see Steven.

After driving awhile considering he lives in a different town we made it to his house. “Steven!!” I yelled out as I saw him, I gave him a hug,
“Steven this is Andrew. Andrew this is Steven.” I giggled they shook hands and I got a text. ‘A.J come over to my house.. I’m not feeling good.’ It was from Bryce, “Hey keep each other company I need to go somewhere alone for a sec.” I said rushing to the car.

I went to Bryce’s house and ran inside. “What’s wrong?” I asked, he was on his couch with a knife next to him.
“..Bryce what did you do??” I asked worried. He takes his hands out from under the blanket and I saw huge slits in his wrists. I sat next to him with my eyes wide, then I looked up at him.
“Why did you do this?” I continued talking. He took a breath.
“Because, my life sucks and you were the only highlight of it and your gone. I feel like I don’t even know you anymore.” He explained. I actually started to cry a little bit, I loved Bryce and he ‘didn’t know me anymore’ I was pretty damn sad.

I hugged him, “Bryce I love you! You should know that. I’ve always loved you and I haven’t changed.” I told him. He looked at me as I got up and got some paper towels. I cleaned up his arms and bandaged them up.
“ You have changed, you may not have noticed, but ask everyone. Your a lot different then you use to be.” He said. I was getting pretty aggravated, all the shit that just happened to me and I’ve changed.
“Well I’m fucking sorry if getting kidnapped, almost getting raped Twice, and my father dying changes a person!” I pointed out with my arms going in every direction. “Now come with me.” I commanded taking his hand. I led him outside,
“Why would you want to leave this behind. There are a lot of people who care about you, I know at least 5 girls that would want to go out with you, and even if that isn’t enough you will always have me. No matter how much you want to deny it. Stop dwelling on the bad, remember when I did that. I cut so much I had to go to the hospital to get blood at the age of 13!” I explained to him.
“….I may not know exactly what’s going on in your life, but I don’t want to see you like how I was. If you ever need to talk or just hang out tell me.” I continued on. He smiled at me and then I gave him a hug good bye, I went and got Andrew then we headed home.

I paced around my room think on whether not to leave or stay at the end of the summer.
“Now why so much pacing hun.” Andrew asked. I looked at him and shrugged.
“I think I might want to stay here when the end of summer comes…” I told him.
“Why?” He asked me a little snobby. I looked at him I hated it when anyone was snobby.
“Because all my friends are here and they really need me.” I explained to him.
“There’s nothing you can do. Your friends are all depressed freaks that won’t listen to reason.” He said, I looked at him and snarled my lip.
“If you didn’t know I an the leader of my ‘depressed freaks’ I was just like them once!” I barked and he just looked at me.
“Yeah well you grew up! Just leave them behind you have me now.” He said all high and mighty.
“I can’t just leave them behind they’re my life! No matter I’m here or with you in Bangor!” I almost yelled.
“Okay, I’m leaving today so either your coming with me or your not! Make your decision soon because I’m leaving at noon.” He said, I turned my back and crossed my arms.
“You can leave today, I’m going to stay but I’ll be down later this summer. I need to do some stuff before I leave.” I told him, he got up and walked out of the house and got into the Jeep. He left without a goodbye or a hug. I was a little sad, but I had to go find Bryce.

He was at his house just watching T.V. “Bryce.” I smiled and sat next to him. He looked at me with a blank look, and I kissed him. He smiled and then kissed me again.
“What was that for?” He asked, I looked at him with a huge smile.
“Because I love you and only you.” I told him, he gave me a hug and then kissed me again. I walked out of the house while he put him shoes on, then we went to go get Alice and Steven. We went to get Alicr first and when we walked into the house holding hands she looked at me with a bad look.
“A.J! Cheating is not good!!” She yelled at me like my mother. Bryce and I looked at each other and laughed.
“Me and Andrew are threw. I’m not cheating.” I smiled she smiled back at me and we went to the car. Alice leaned up to the front.
“So.. Since