Aphrodite by Pierre Louÿs (readera ebook reader .txt) 📕

They were not born at Alexandria, those eyes. Thou art a Jewess, I hear it in thy voice which is softer than ours.”

“No, I am not a Jewess. I am a Galilaean.”

“How dost thou call thyself—Miriam or Noemi?”

“My Syrian name… thou shalt not know it. It is a royal name which no one bears here. My friends call me Chrysis, which is a compliment thou mightest have paid me.”

He put his hand on her arm.

“Oh! no, no,” she said mockingly, “it is much too late for those pleasantries. Let me return quickly. It is almost three hours since I arose; I am dying of fatigue.”

Leaning over she took her foot in her hand.

“See how my little thongs hurt me. They were pulled much too tight. If I do not loosen them in an instant I will have a mark on my foot and that will be pretty indeed when someone embraces me! Let me go quickly. Ah! what a nuisance! If I had known, I would not have stopped. My yellow veil is all crumpled at the waist—look!”

Demetrios passed his hand over his forehead; then with the disengaged tone of a man who condescends to make his choice, he murmured, “Show me the way.”

“I will certainly not!” cried Chrysis with an astonished air.

“Thou dost not even ask if it is my pleasure. ‘Show me the way!’.

How he says that! Dost thou take me for a girl of the porneion? Dost thou know if I am free? Hast thou followed me in the streets? Hast thou noticed the doors where I am welcome? Hast thou counted the men who believe themselves loved of Chrysis? ‘Show me the way!’ I will not show it to thee, so please thee! Remain here or go, but elsewhere than with me!”

“Thou dost not know who I am….”

“Thou? Come, come! Thou art Demetrios of Sais; thou hast made the statue of my goddess; thou art the lover of my queen and the master of my city. But for me thou art but a handsome slave because thou hast seen me and because thou lovest me.”

She drew nearer and pursued with a coaxing voice, “Yes—thou lovest me. Oh! do not speak—I know what thou wilt tell me; thou lovest no one, thou art loved. Thou art the Well-Beloved, the Cherished, the Idol. Thou hast refused Glykera who had refused Antiochos. Demonassa who had sworn to die virgin would have entrapped thee if thy two Lybian slaves had not thrust her from the door. Callistion the well-named, despairing of approaching thee, bought the house which is opposite thine and in the morning shows herself in the opening of the window. Thou thinkest I do not know all that? But everything is told, among women. The night of thine arrival at Alexandria they spoke to me of thee; and since then not a single day has passed on which thy name has not been pronounced before me. I know even the things thou hast forgotten. Poor little Phyllis hanged herself day before yesterday at the bar of thy door, did she not? Well—it is a fashion which spreads. Lydia has done like Phyllis; I saw leer this evening as I passed; she was quite blue but tears on her cheeks were not yet dry. Thou dost not know who Lydia is?… A child of fifteen years whom her mother had sold last month to a ship captain of Samos who passed the night at Alexandria before going up the river to Thebes. She carne to me. I gave her advice; she knew absolutely nothing, not even how to play at dice. I often took her in my bed, because she had no place to sleep. And she loved thee! If thou couldst have heard her call thy name!… She wished to write to thee. Dost thou understand? I told her it was not worth the trouble…”

Demetrios watched her without hearing.

“Yes, it is all the same to thee, is it not?” continued Chrysis. “Thou didst not love her. It is I whom thou lovest. Thou hast not even heard what I have just told thee. I am sure thou couldst not repeat a word of it. Thou art well occupied wondering how my eyelids are made, how good my mouth must be, how soft my hair. Ah! how many others know that! All, all have desired my beauty: men, young men, old men, children, women, young girls. Last year I danced before twenty thousand persons and I know thou wert not one of them. Dost thou believe that I hide myself? Ah! why that! All women have seen me at the bath.

All men have seen me. Thou alone thou shalt never again see me. I refuse thee—I refuse thee! Of what I am, of what I feel, of my beauty, of my love, thou shalt know nothing, ever—ever! Thou art an abominable man, a coxcomb, cruel, insensitive and cowardly! I do not know why one of us has not had hate enough to kill you both, one with the other, thou the first and thy queen next.”

Demetrios calmly seized her by the arms without a word of reply.

She had a moment of anguish; but suddenly straightened her back and said in a low voice, “Ah! I do not fear that, Demetrios! Let me rise, thou art hurting my arms.”

They were silent for a few moments; then Demetrios continued, “This must stop, Chrysis. Thou knowest well I will not injure thee. But let me follow thee. So proud as thou art, it is a glory which will cost thee dear—to refuse Demetrios.”

Chrysis remained silent.

He continued more gently, “What dost thou fear?”

“Thou art accustomed to the love of others. Dost thou know what one should give to a woman who does not love?” He grew impatient.

“I will give thee the gold of the world. I have it here in Egypt.”

“I have it in my hair. I am tired of gold. I do not want gold. I wish for but three things. Wilt thou give them to nee?”

Demetrios felt that she was going to demand the impossible. He looked at her anxiously. But she began to smile and said in a slow voice, “I wish for a silver mirror to reflect my eyes in my eyes.

“Thou shalt have it. What more wishest thou? Say quickly.”

“I wish a comb of carved ivory to plunge into my hair like a net into the sunlit water.”

“Then?”

“Thou wilt give me my comb?”

“Surely. Finish.”

“I wish a pearl necklace to spread over my breast when I shall dance for thee the nuptial dances of my country.”

He raised his eyebrows.

“That is all?”

“Thou wilt give me my necklace?”

“The one which shall please thee.”

Her voice became very tender. “The one which shall please me? Ah! that is exactly what I wished to ask thee. Wilt thou let me choose my presents?”

“Of course.”

“Thou swearest it?”

“I swear it.”

“What oath dost thou make?”

“Name it.”

“By the Aphrodite which thou hast sculptured.”

“I swear by the Aphrodite. But why this precaution?”

“Well… I was not quite sure. Now I am.”

She raised her head. “I have chosen my gifts.”

Demetrios became restless once more and asked, “So soon?”

“Yes… Dost thou think that I would accept any silver mirror bought from a merchant of Smyrna or from some unknown courtesan? I wish that of my friend Bacchis who cheated me last week and who derided me evilly at a little party which she had with Tryphera, Mousarion and some other young fools who brought the whole thing to me. It is a mirror of which she is very fond because it once belonged to Rhodopis—she who was a slave with Aesop and was brought back by the brother of Sappho. Thou knowest that she is a very celebrated courtesan. Her mirror is magnificent. They say that Sappho has gazed in it and because of that Bacchis keeps it jealously. She has nothing more precious in the world; but I know where thou wilt find it. She told me one night when she was drunk. It is under the third stone of the altar. It is there she puts it every evening when she goes out at sunset. Go tomorrow to her house at that hour and fear nothing; her slaves go out with her.”

“It is madness!” cries Demetrios. “Dost thou wish me to steal?”

“Dost thou not love me? I thought that thou didst love me. And then, hast thou not sworn? I thought that thou hadst sworn. If I am mistaken, let us speak no more of it.”

He understood that she would ruin him but let himself be drawn away without a struggle, almost voluntarily. “I will do what thou sayest,” he replied.

“Oh! I know very well thou wilt do it. But thou didst hesitate at first. I can understand that. It is not an ordinary gift; I would not demand it from a philosopher. I demand it from thee. I know well thou wilt give it to me.”

She played an instant with the peacock plumes of her round fan, then, suddenly:

“Ah!… Neither do I wish a comb of common ivory bought from a vender of the town. Thou didst tell me I might choose, didst thou not? Very well, I wish I wish the comb of carved ivory which is in the hair of the High Priest’s wife. It is much more precious still than the mirror of Rhodopis. It comes from a queen of Egypt who lived a long, long time ago and whose name is so difficult I cannot pronounce it. So the ivory is very old and yellow as though it were gilded. They have graved upon it a young girl who passes through a marsh of lotos taller than she, where she walks upon the tips of her toes to avoid getting wet

[paragraph continues]… It is truly a beautiful comb… I will be content when thou givest it to me… I have also a little grudge against the one who possesses it. Last month I offered a blue veil to the Aphrodite; I saw it the next day upon the head of this woman. It was a little hasty and I was angry at her. Her comb will repay me for my veil.”

“And how will I get it?” demanded Demetrios.

“Ah; that will be a little more difficult. She is an Egyptian, thou knowest, and she dresses her two hundred plaits but once a year like the other women of her race. But I wish my comb tomorrow and thou wilt kill her to get it. Thou hast sworn an oath.”

She made a little grimace at Demetrios, who was looking at the ground. Then she finished thus, very quickly, “I have chosen my necklace also. I wish the seven row necklace of pearls which is about the neck of the Aphrodite.”

Demetrios started. “Ah! this time, it is too much! Thou shalt not laugh at me to the end! Nothing, dost thou hear—nothing! neither the mirror nor the comb nor the necklace shalt thou have…”

But she closed his mouth with her hand and resumed her coaxing tone: “Do not say that. Thou knowest well thou wilt give me this also. I am very certain of it. I shall have the three gifts. Thou wilt come to me tomorrow evening and the day after tomorrow if thou wishest and every evening. At thine hour I will be there, in the costume thou preferrest, tinted as thy taste pleases, my hair dressed to thy fancy, ready for thy caprices. If thou wishest but tenderness, I will cherish thee as a child. If thou wishest silence I will be silent… When thou wouldst have me sing—Ah! thou wilt see, Well-Beloved! I know