Deep Secrets by Selena (ebook reader online txt) 📕

Ever since the day with my family, Melissa have been more distant. She have been staying away from me during the last few weeks. I just got bored, so I went outside and sat down on the grass, reading a magazine. After an hour, Melissa came out the woods and sat next to me.
"Did you find them?" I asked
"No." she said. I look at her and she look so upset, but of course it went away. "What are you reading?"
"Sports magazine." I closed it
"When will we eat again?
"You still hungry. You just finished eating a few hours ago."She shrugged. Holding a finger to my chin in thought, I snapped my fingers and said "Since lunch is a few more hours way, and you're so eager.." I took Melissa hand, led her back in the cabin, and to the fridge. Opening the door, I began taking out several containers, jars, and bowls, then placed them on the table. Going to the cupboard over the counter, I took out a few more bottles and jars.
"Have a seat." I stood beside the table, deciding which I should have her try first. Opening the lid of one bowl, I spooned out some of the food, and asked Melissa to open her mouth. Without the slightest hesitation, she did so. I fed her, watching as she chewed and swallowed.
"What is it?" she asked
"Lime Jell-O. How'd you like it?"
"It was quite different from the Chinese food and pizza."

I nodded, offering her a taste of something different this time. After a few more experimental tastes of various foods, all without any type of response from her, a wicked idea struck me. I offered Melissa a spoonful of liquid. "Try this." She eagerly accepted it, swallowing, then broke out into a scowl. She squeezed her eyes closed and shook her head. A few coughs sputtered out.

"What the hell is this?" Ii let loose a few laughs.
"Lemon juice."
"That was not enjoyable." She stated, wiping her mouth with the back of her hand.
"I won't do that again." I promised, still chuckling. "Now lean your head back and open your mouth.."
Melissa looked at me suspiciously, but did as asked. I held the bear shaped plastic bottle over her mouth and squeezed out a bit of the golden liquid. "I like this." she said, running her tongue over her lips. I sucked in a sharp breath. It took every ounce of me to not to lean forward and kiss her. We played like this for a while longer, until Melissa couldn't take another bite. I put everything away. While I was doing this,Melissa watching my every move. She stood in the back of me, arms folded over her chest. Her eyes never wavering as she watched me go from counter to fridge and back again. It was driving me nuts!

"Let's take a walk outside." I suggested late in the afternoon. All day, Melissa had been watching TV. I knew she had been feeling pretty upset; I just wished she's show it. "Turn off the TV." I pressed when she didn't look up from the TV. "You've been watching TV all day. I don't even watch it that much." I flashed her a smile. When she didn't budge, I took the remote and turned off the TV. I laid the remote on the table, then took her hands in mines and pulled her to her feet. "Let's just get some fresh air."
Melissa got to her feet. "The air is perfectly good in here. I prefer to stay indoors and watch more TV."
"Oh. Come on. Let's go outside and have some fun." I tugged on her hand's leading her to the door.
"Fine." she gave in. We walked over the threshold, leaving the coziness of the cabin for the pine-scented, wide- open mountain that was covered with warm blanket of sunshine.
"Let's go over here. There's a tree full of squirrels just a little far away. I don't know why they chose that particular tree; maybe because it has the most pine cones." We walked together, over the leaf- strewn ground. We stopped as she investigated the bark of one of the trees. She seemed interested by the tree. I released her hand and sat down on the leafy ground with my back against a nearby tree trunk. "Don't hurry on my account." I said, taking interest in watching her. She was now crouching down examining the different type of pine needles. I took up a few, squinting, trying to see them for the first time as Melissa would be, Could something as simple as pine needles really be all that interesting? Yes if one was raised in a cluster and had spent the majority of her life being a wolf and protecting her pack. No wonder the simplest things would bring her so much pleasure. Simple things that I and nearly everyone else took for granted. When she had finished, she came and sat beside me, shoulders touching. A thrill passed through me. I was certain she had no idea that she was causing my pulse to skyrocket.

"Find anything interesting?" I asked as I closely examined the pine cone.
"Everywhere I look." was her reply
"I guess you're right." I said, looking around me with new anticipation. Sunlight strained through the heavy branches above our our heads, showing everything around us with light and shadow. I watched as a small lizard darted up the side of the tree. I smiled "It's easy to take things for granted, especially the small things."
"How can that be ?" She turned her head to look at me with something in astonishment on her face. "There is never ending array of objects and right before your eyes there are many more to be discovered."
I gave a little snort as I looked over the pine cone Melissa had handed me. "I never looked at life that way."
"Perhaps that is your problem. You look, but do not truly see." I thought that over for a moment. How could one person, living the majority of her life following rules, be so wise? She could take one little innocent statement from me, turn it around, and show me exactly why my life was so lacking. It was unsettling the way she could analyze me. I tossed the pine cone to the side. Instead of tossing it away, she set the pine cone aside as if it were a precious jewel, then tuned to face me. "Perhaps knowing too much is a curse more than a blessing." Her voice seemed sad, her eyes faraway. I wanted to bring Melissa happiness, to share laughter with me. Laughter my life had lacked for far too long. I wanted to see a smile light up her beautiful face. I had an idea and led her to the small, flowing stream nearby.

Soon, at his command, we both had our shoes off and had our feet in the cool water. I couldn't find the logic in the practice, but Kyle assured me that it was something fun to do. He had informed me that I needed to enjoy life more. Though I still doubted that wetting my feet and ankles in well below body temperature liquid was fun, I was enjoying myself.

"I'll have to take you to California some time," Kyle said as he picked up a smooth stone, then tossed it back in the flowing water. "It's nothing like Arkansas. Tall buildings, many people, bumper-to-bumper traffic in the circles. An hour or so away in one direction is the ocean; travel north and there are mountains similar to this. Go east and you find the deserts. Las Vegas would probably leave you speechless." He bent over once again to search through a few more stones. Just as I was about to do something completely out of impulse, Kyle surprised me by flinging a handful of icy water right in my face. Kyle laughed. I look at Kyle confused. Why had he done that? Was it one of his ways of having fun? I thought about punching him in the face, get out the water, go back to the cabin and dry off, but there was a look in his eyes that get me to remain here. Without a thought, I reached down into the water with both palms and splashed him back. Kyle stopped and scrubbed the water from his face. I stood there a moment wondering if I had done something wrong, but suddenly, he burst out laughing. He splashed me once more and I splashed him right back. Soon we lost track of who was splashing who as water flew through the air, landing on already soaked clothes and equally drenched hair. We were both laughing and though it was odd to me, it was fun.

"Finally. You are smiling. Nice dimples."
"I hat my dimples."
"Why?"
"It makes me look like my mother. They always compare me to Mom. Everyone want me to be her."
"When I look at you, I only see you. Nobody else. You're special, Melissa. You're filled by so many if the things that haunt us here. Your soul is pure. It's easy to fall prey to the wrong influences, also the wrong people.
"You speak from experience."
"Yes, too much experience." I felt tears pressing against my eyelids and hated myself for it. Kyle stood towering over me, running his thumbs under my eyes ti catch the drop. "You are crying." His voice was low and rich. I smiled