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However, Stanhope was, in the politest language, declining to have anything of the sort. "Call it the Chorus," he said, "or if you like I'll try and find a name for the leader, and the rest can just dance and sing. But I'm afraid 'Leaf-Spirits' would be misleading."
"What about'Chorus of Nature-Powers'?" asked Miss Fox, but Stanhope only said, smiling, "You will try and make the trees friendly," which no one quite understood, and shook his head again.
Prescott asked: "Incidentally, I suppose they will be women?"
Mrs. Parry had said, "O, of course, Mr. Prescott," before the question reached her brain. When it did, she added, "At least...I naturally took it for granted.... They are feminine, aren't they?"
Still hankering after mass, Adela said, "It sounds
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for a long time while he walked, and presently found he was not
thinking of that but of something else; he was slipping his
fingers along a wrist, and up an armonly a little way, for he
still wished to be led on the way, though everything was so quiet
he could hardly think there was any need. He liked going on,
away, away, away, from somewhere behind, or indeed outside,
outside the wood, outside the body, outside the door. The door
wouldn’t open for anyone; it was his door, and though he hadn’t
fastened it, it wouldn’t open, because it knew his wish, and his
wish was to leave the two who had worried him outside the door.
It was fun to think they were playing games on him when he wasn’t
there; running round under his windows, and he was quite away, and
they would never know, even if he saw them again, where and how
and why he had been. It was good for him to be here, and great
fun; one day he would laugh, but laughter would be tiring here,
under trees and leaves, leaves-leaves and eaves-eaves and eves; a
word with two meanings, and again a word with two meanings, eves
and Eves. Many Eves to many Adams; one Eve to one Adam; one Eve
to each, one Eve to all. Eve….
They stopped. In the faint green light, light of a forest, faint
mist in a forest, a river-mist creeping among the trees, moon in
the mist, he could just see the shape of the woman beside him. He
might be back again in Eden, and she be Eve, the only man with all
that belonged to the only man. Others, those whose names he need
not then remember, because they were the waking animals of the
world-others were inconsiderable to the grand life that walked now
in this glade. They hardly belonged to it at all; they belonged
outside, they were outside, outside the sealed garden, no less
sealed for being so huge through a secret gate of which he had
entered, getting back to himself He was inside and at peace. He
said aloud: “I won’t go back.”
His companion answered: “You needn’t go back really or you can
take it with you if you do. Wouldn’t you like to?”
It took a while for this to reach him. He said, at last: “This?
all this, d’you mean?” He was a little disturbed by the idea that
he might have to go back among the shapes that ran about, harsh
and menacing, outside the glade or the garden or the forest,
outside the mist. They betrayed and attacked him. One had made
fun of him and exposed him to her paramour. That was outside;
inside, he knew the truth, and the truth was that she was quite
subordinate to him. He breathed on her hand, and it was turned
into stone, so that she couldn’t carry it, but it sank to the
ground, slowly, in that misty air, and she was held there, crying
and sobbing, by the weight of her petrified hand. He would go
away for a year or two, and perhaps when he came back he would
decide to set her free by blowing on the stone hand. The whole
air of this place was his breath; if he took a very deep breath,
there would be no air left, outside himself. He could stand in a
vacuum, and nothing outside himself could breathe at all, until he
chose to breathe again; which perhaps he wouldn’t do, so that he
could infinitely prevent anything at all from existing merely by
infinitely holding his breath. He held his breath for a century
or so, and all the beasts and shapes of the wilderness, a tall
young satyr and a plump young nymph among them, who were dancing
to the music of their own chuckles, fell slowly down and died.
The woman now beside him didn’t die, but that was because she
could live without air, of which he was glad, for he wanted her to
go on living, and if she had needed air she would have died. He
would have destroyed her without meaning to.
She was saying, eagerly: “Yes, yes, yes: better than Eve, dearer
than Eve, closer than Eve. It’s good for man to be alone. Come
along, come along: farther in, farther in down under, down
under.”
Down under what? down under where? down under the air that was or
wasn’t? but he was there under the air, on the point of breathing
out everything that would be just right. Why had he been so long
content to have things wrong? it all came out of that silly name
of Eve, which had prevented him realizing that he was what
counted. Eve had never told him he had made her, and so he
wouldn’t make her again, she should be left all a twisted rag of
skin in the vacuum, and he would have a world in which no one
went to the City, because there was no city unless he—but no, he
wouldn’t have a City. Adela….
He found he had been holding his breath; he released it. He found
he was lying down, and that the woman was not there. He had
exhaled, with a deep permission to Adela to exist. Now he was
sleeping after that decision and act. He was awake in his sleep,
and the moon was pouring itself over him. He wasn’t on a rope
now. The moon was pouring down, quite out of the sky; presently
there wouldn’t be any moon, only a hole in the sky: down, down! He
felt hands moving over him, the moonlight changing to hands as it
reached him, moonhands, cool and thrilling. The hands were
delighting in him; these were what he would take back to his own
world, if he went. The moon would always be his, though all the
moonlight had poured down now, and there was a hole, a dark hole,
because the moon had emptied itself of its glory, and was not
there any more; he was at first in the smallest degree troubled,
for if odd things could disappear like this, could he be certain
that his own Adela would live? yes, because he was a god, and
sometime he would make another moon. He forgot it now; he was
quite given up to the hands that caressed him. He sank into
oblivion; he died to things other than himself; he woke to
himself.
He lay quiet; beyond heart and lungs he had come, in the depth of
the Hill, to the bottom of the body. He saw before him, in the
disappearing moonlight, a place of cisterns and broad tanks, on
the watery surface of which the moon still shone and from which a
faint mist still arose. Between them, covering acres of ground,
an enormous shape lay, something like a man’s; it lay on its face,
its shoulders and buttocks rose in mounds and the head beyond; he
could not see the legs lower than the thighs, for that was where
he himself lay, and they could not be seen, for they were his own.
He and the Adam sprang from one source. high over him he felt his
heart beat and his lungs draw breath. His machinery operated far
away. He had decided that. He lay and waited
for the complete creation that was his own.
The Adam slept; the mist rose from the ground. The son of Adam
waited. He felt, coming over that vast form, that Hill of the
dead and of the living, but to him only the mass of matter from
which his perfect satisfaction was to approach, a road, a road up
which a shape, no longer vast, was now coming; a shape he
distrusted before he discerned it. It was coming slowly, over the
mass of the Adam, a man, a poor ragged sick man. The dead man,
walking in his own quiet world, knew nothing of the eyes to which
his death-day walk was shown, nor of the anger with which he was
seen. Wentworth saw him, and grew demented; was he to miss and be
mocked again? what shape was this, and there? He sprang forward
and up, to drive it away, to curse it lest it interpolated its
horrid need between himself and his perfection. He would not have
it: no canvassers, no hawkers, no tramps. He shouted angrily,
making gestures; it offended him; it belonged to the City, and he
would not have a City-no City, no circulars no beggars. No; no;
no. No people but his, no loves but his.
It still came on, slowly, ploddingly, wearily, but it came: on
down the road that was the Adam in the bottom of Eden determinedly
plodding as on the evening when it had trudged towards its death,
inexorably advancing as the glory of truth that broke out of the
very air itself upon the agonized Florentine in the Paradise of
Eden: “ben sem, ben sem, Beatrice” the other, the thing seen, the
thing known in every fibre to be not the self, woman or beggar,
the thing in the streets of the City. No, no; no canvassers, no
beggars, no lovers; and away, away from the City into the wood and
the mist, by the path that runs between past and present, between
present and present, that slides through each moment of all
experience, twisting and twining, plunging from the City and earth
and Eve and all otherness, into the green mist that rises among
the trees; by the path up which she was coming, the she of his
longing, the she that was he, and all he in the she-patter-patter,
the she that went hurrying about the Hill and the world, of whom
it was said that they whom she overtook were found drained and
strangled in the morning, and a single hair tight about the neck,
so faint, so sure, so deathly, the clinging and twisting path of
the strangling hair. She whose origin is with man’s, kindred to
him as he to his beasts, alien from him as he from his beasts; to
whom a name was given in a myth, Lilith or a name and Eden for a
myth, and she a stirring more certain than name or myth, who in
one of her shapes went hurrying about the refuge of that Hill of
skulls, and pattered and chattered on the Hill, hurrying,
hurrying, for fear of time growing together, and squeezing her
out, out of the interstices, of time where she lived, locust in
the rock; time growing together into one, and squeezing her
out, squeezing her down, out of the pressure of the universal
present, down into depth, down into the opposite of that end, down
into the ever and ever of the void.
He was running down the path, the path that coiled round the edge
of Eden, and the mist swooped to meet him. He had got right away
from the road which was the shape of the Adam outstretched in the
sleep precedent to the creation of fact, the separation of Eve,
the making of things other than the self. He ran away into the
comforting mist, partly because he liked it better, partly because
there was nowhere else. He ran from sight; he found sensation.
Arms met and embraced, a mouth kissed him, a@ sigh of content was
loosed to him and from him. He was held, consoled, nourished,
satisfied. Adela; he; sleep.
The door swung after him. He was standing on Battle Hill, not far
from his house, but higher, towards the cemetery, towards the
height. There, waiting for him, was a girl. She exactly
resembled Adela. She came towards
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