Conversation by Tricia Cicatrix (the top 100 crime novels of all time TXT) 📕

Conversation

She knows and she talks, she quotes and assumes
She recaps, reassures, interrupts, underlines
And you’re silent
You are silent

You came here to talk, but the words just won’t come
You’re trapped in reserve and reason
You squint into the blank morning sun
As the pain in your head keeps increasing
You had your chance to talk
And now your chance has gone
Now she’s made up her mind
Now the words will never come
Nothing left to say - just another day

The message gets lost in a nice conversation
You’re being clear-headed, you’re being polite
No anger, nice phrases, sharp observations
You want to get everything right
You try to be loved and be good
So you don’t say what you feel
She won’t listen anyway
Don’t say what is real
Stifle all your screams, stifle all your dreams

Smile, you are on camera
Just smile, and they'll think you're OK
Smile so they will like you
Smile, it's the easiest way
Smile so they'll think you're happy
Just smile when you want to cry
Smile so they won't ask you questions
Smile, it's the kindest lie

You can’t weep or shout, and you cannot tell her
She knows better anyway, and you’re no-one at all
You can’t swear or scream, and you cannot tell her
You shrug and stare at the wall
The thoughts fuck up your brain
The words refuse to come
The rage leaves you in pain
The tears refuse to come
And she will never know
You wait, and you're nice, and you go

Publication Date: 12-26-2010

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