Sonia Ferguson's Original Songs by Sonia Ferguson (free e books to read online TXT) 📕

Falls and Dies.

 When she's all alone she cuts her wrists.

She asks herself, "How long till I stop feeling like this?"

"When they called me fat, did they wonder why I don't eat?

Look at me now, I can finally see my feet."

She just closes her eyes as she falls to her bed,

and she cries, as she dies inside.

Then she says,

 

"Why is it me? I'm so broken can't they see?

Wht did I do to deserve this?

This is so hopeless.

I can't take this anymore."

And later that day, she falls and dies.

 

When he's all alone he takes pills.

He asks himself, "Why cant they see?" and got chills.

"Wjen they called me gay, did they wonder why I hide?

Look at me now, look at the pain I've applied."

He just closes his eyes as he falls to his bed,

And he cries, as he dies inside.

Then he says,

"Why is it me? I'm so broken, can't they see?

What did I do to deserve this?

This is so hopeless.

I cant take this anymore."

And later that day, he falls and dies.

Oh, whoa, oh, oh...

 

When her parents beat her she cries.

She asks herself, "Why can't I just die?"

"When they beat me do they wonder why I lay so quiet?

Look at me now, I have pain and I won't hide it."

She just closes her eyes as she falls to her bed,

And she cries as she dies inside.

Then she says,

 

"Why is it me? I'm so broken, can't they see?

What did I do to deserve this?

This is so hopeless.

I can't thake this anymore,"

And later that day, she falls and dies.

Oh, oh, whoa, oh,

She falls and dies...

Now She's Gone.

 There once was a girl that I loved so dearly.

My love and care were both shown clearly.

I wish it could be just like that again.

If I could, then I would

Just take her back.

Her life was upside down,

 Then we turned it back around,

Then it came crashing down again.

Because,

 

Now she's gone, lots of tears have been shed.

Now she's gone, didn't even get to say goodbye.

Now she's gone,

Oh can't you give her one more chance,

Take me and give her back to us.

Now she's gone, whoa, oh, oh, oh.

Now she's gone.

 

I find my self thinking about her

Every moment of every night and day.

Then I notice how much my life has changed.

I wish it could be the same for just one more day.

If I could, then I would

Hold her in my arms.

Her life was upside down,

Then we turned it back around,

Then it came crashing down again.

Because,

 

Now she's gone, lots of tears have been shed.

Now she's gone, didn't even get to say goodbye.

Now she's gone,

Oh can't you give her one more chance,

Take me and give her back to us.

Now she's gone, whoa, oh, oh, oh.

Now she's gone.

 

I love her, I miss her, I want to hold her again.

I want her back, I need her, I never wanted her to go.

If I could, then I would

Just take her back without a chance.

And if I could, then I would

Hold her in my arms once again.

Cause,

My life was upside down,

Then she turned it back around,

Now it's crashing down again.

Because,

Her life was upside down,

Then we turned it back around,

Then it came crashing down again.

Because,

Now she's gone, whoa, oh, oh, oh.

Now she's gone,

Yeah.

 

Now she's gone, lots of tears have been shed.

Now she's gone, didn't even get to say goodbye.

Now she's gone,

Oh can't you give her one more chance,

Take me and give her back to us.

Now she's gone, whoa, oh, oh, oh.

Now she's gone.

 

Now she's gone, whoa, oh, oh, oh.

Now she's gone.

Yeah.

Suicide.

She's in the seventh grade, she's called names everyday.

She hates all the pain but doesn't know what to say.

 She says, "They don't need me,

They don't want me, They don't even care if I leave.

So what's the pont of staying here,

If it all just goes down in tears?"

She puts her hands on her throat,

They're there for just a minute.

But she couldn't stand it

And she lets go.

She texts her friend and says goodbye.

She starts again and is stoped by, a text.

And it said...

 

Please, please stop it now. Did you already forget how,

You still have me? Help is on its way.

Throw down your hands, put them down now.

Don't do it, please don't do it.

Don't try, please don't try suicide.

 

 

For one whole week, she's feeling better.

She as happy as could be.

Then she gets a call at school, saying two of her friends are dead,

And she shakes at the words that were said.

She crys as she leaves school.

She runs home and falls to her bed.

She hugs her pillow instead, of hurting herself.

She walks into the kitchen, grabbs the medicine,

She thinks if she does what about her friend?

She doesn't give it one more thought before they're all in her mouth

And she swallows.

Twenty-four hours later she's back, healthy and alive,

How did she survive.

Then she thinks about what her friend said. Oh..

 

Please, please stop it now.Did you already forget how,

You still have me? Help is on its way.

Throw down your hands, put them down now.

Don't do it, please don't do it.

Don't try, please don't try suicide.

 

 

 

 

Suicidal Thoughts.

Suicidal thoughts come from with in,

Then they go deep in your skin.

It's amazing that you lived, oh.

They say that you are fine,

But they can't see in your mind.

Then you, you cut your skin,

Now your with the doctors again.

They say it's just a phase,

That you will soon be okay.

But to you

Soon isn't soon enough

To stop the thoughts that you know youy can't trust.

Saddness is taking you over

And no body else but you has a clue

Of what you are feeling.

Maybe they'll stop

And if you try,

You will be stoped by

The more pain that they give you.

You scream out in pain.

You say help me I'm bleadin'.

Help me I'm needin' a friend.

I need someone to hold me,

'Cause I have nobody.

I am alone.

Thats what you scream,

Then they take you.

They take you into their grasp.

But all it's doing is taking your time

You are slowly loosing your mind.

Can't they see? 

This whole thing is taking you over.

 You wanna cry your heart out

But then they make fun of you.

You never know what world is bringin' you.

You wanna cry,

You wanna die,

You wanna perish from this world.

You wanna fight,

You don't wanna confide,

You wanna hide from them in your dreams.

You know, it's never gonna work

Hiding from the memories

That all of the scars leave.

Your suicidal thoughts printed them

Under you sleave.

Your suicidal thoughts printed them under you sleeves.

But those thoughts are getting smaller,

They are slowly leaving.

Maybe they’ll be gone for good.

So just say goodbye to them. Goodbye.

Oh, goodbye

 

Suicide note.

 To my class, she wrote,

To my mother and my father,

To my family, And to my lover.

I'm sorry for what your reading, or what your being told,

But the things that you were doing,

It was all just getting old.

The lives that you have, I wish we could just trade,

But I'm just a mistake, that my parents made.

I have been so scared sitting in my house all alone.

It may have been where i slept but it sure wasn't a home.

I was crying out for help you didn't notice me. 

Now that I'm gone you finnaly see

There is something wrong with me.

I was a mess. But to my friend in the back corner of the class.

You will feel better tonight if you hug your pilllow tight.

I, I love you, and I'll miss you too.

Live on me.

Sadly the kids in our class, they would never understand,

The painj that you were feeling please hold on if you can.

All of my pain is gone and I hope you can tell,

Everything got better the moment I fell.

I guess it's just to hard to hold on to the world,

But all that i was is a lonely little girl. 

To everyone that i loved