The Small House at Allington by Anthony Trollope (the kiss of deception read online txt) 📕

was such a man. He could hardly endure his life unless there were some page in it on which he could look with gratified eyes. He had always liked his work, and he now determined that he would like it better than ever. But in order that he might do so it was necessary that he should have much of his own way. According to the theory of his office, it was incumbent on him as Secretary simply to take the orders of the Commissioners, and see that they were executed; and to such work as this his predecessor had strictly confined himself. But he had already done more than this, and had conceived the ambition of holding the Board almost under his thumb. He flattered himself that he knew his own work and theirs better than they knew either, and that by a little management he might be their master. It is not impossible that such might have been the case had there been no fracas at the Paddington station; but, as we all know, the dominant cock of the farmyard must be ever dominant. When he shall once have had his wings so smeared with mud as to give him even the appearance of adversity, no other cock will ever respect him again. Mr. Optimist and Mr. Butterwell knew very well that their secretary had been cudgelled, and they could not submit themselves to a secretary who had been so treated.

“Oh, by the by, Crosbie,” said Butterwell, coming into his room, soon after his arrival at his office on that day of his solitary breakfast, “I want to say just a few words to you.” And Butterwell turned round and closed the door, the lock of which had not previously been fastened. Crosbie, without much thinking, immediately foretold himself the nature of the coming conversation.

“Do you know⁠—” said Butterwell, beginning.

“Sit down, won’t you?” said Crosbie, seating himself as he spoke. If there was to be a contest, he would make the best fight he could. He would show a better spirit here than he had done on the railway platform. Butterwell did sit down, and felt as he did so, that the very motion of sitting took away some of his power. He ought to have sent for Crosbie into his own room. A man, when he wishes to reprimand another, should always have the benefit of his own atmosphere.

“I don’t want to find any fault,” Butterwell began.

“I hope you have not any cause,” said Crosbie.

“No, no; I don’t say that I have. But we think at the Board⁠—”

“Stop, stop, Butterwell. If anything unpleasant is coming, it had better come from the Board. I should take it in better spirit; I should, indeed.”

“What takes place at the Board must be official.”

“I shall not mind that in the least. I should rather like it than otherwise.”

“It simply amounts to this⁠—that we think you are taking a little too much on yourself. No doubt, it’s a fault on the right side, and arises from your wishing to have the work well done.”

“And if I don’t do it, who will?” asked Crosbie.

“The Board is very well able to get through all that appertains to it. Come, Crosbie, you and I have known each other a great many years, and it would be a pity that we should have any words. I have come to you in this way because it would be disagreeable to you to have any question raised officially. Optimist isn’t given to being very angry, but he was downright angry yesterday. You had better take what I say in good part, and go along a little quieter.”

But Crosbie was not in a humour to take anything quietly. He was sore all over, and prone to hit out at everybody that he met. “I have done my duty to the best of my ability, Mr. Butterwell,” he said, “and I believe I have done it well. I believe I know my duty here as well as anyone can teach me. If I have done more than my share of work, it is because other people have done less than theirs.” As he spoke, there was a black cloud upon his brow, and the Commissioner could perceive that the Secretary was very wrathful.

“Oh! very well,” said Butterwell, rising from his chair. “I can only, under such circumstances, speak to the Chairman, and he will tell you what he thinks at the Board. I think you’re foolish; I do, indeed. As for myself, I have only meant to act kindly by you.” After that, Mr. Butterwell took himself off.

On the same afternoon, Crosbie was summoned into the Boardroom in the usual way, between two and three. This was a daily occurrence, as he always sat for about an hour with two out of the three Commissioners, after they had fortified themselves with a biscuit and a glass of sherry. On the present occasion, the usual amount of business was transacted, but it was done in a manner which made Crosbie feel that they did not all stand together on their usual footing. The three Commissioners were all there. The Chairman gave his directions in a solemn, pompous voice, which was by no means usual to him when he was in good humour. The Major said little or nothing; but there was a gleam of satisfied sarcasm in his eye. Things were going wrong at the Board, and he was pleased. Mr. Butterwell was exceedingly civil in his demeanour, and rather more than ordinarily brisk. As soon as the regular work of the day was over, Mr. Optimist shuffled about on his chair, rising from his seat, and then sitting down again. He looked through a lot of papers close to his hand, peering at them over his spectacles. Then he selected one, took off his spectacles, leaned back in his chair, and began his little speech.

“Mr. Crosbie,” he said, “we are all very much gratified⁠—very much gratified, indeed⁠—by your zeal and energy in the service.”

“Thank you, sir,” said