Pieces of Me by Pua Ramona (small books to read txt) 📕

grab my chest and feel the back of my eyes stinging. She goes to an empty table and she just sits. Five minutes later she relaxes back into her seat, closes her eyes and I see her chest move with slow, deep inhales. It's like she just took her first real breath of fresh air and I die some more watching her at peace. I know I’m being extra creepy, but I just want to watch her, she pulls out her phone and smiles. That's my smile, the one she gives me when I'm not being a dick. Who the hell is she texting? I feel my chest burn with so much jealousy, I’m fucking pissed, I don’t want her to give my smile to anyone else because it belongs to me.

I step back into the office and I want to start punching holes in the walls. Is this what she felt like when Becca’s name slipped out of my mouth? Is this how she felt when all she asked for was her sunrise but I treated her like shit? Because right now I feel like my heart is going to beat out of my damn chest. I’m hurting and I have no one to blame but myself. I take a deep breath and grab my wallet. I walk back out and Lei stops talking, her eyes following where mine are already and zeroing in on Sina and fucking Marino who’s now sitting at her table.

Lei looks back at me with a smug face and says “Hmm well look at that they must be on a coffee date.”

I looked at her and say, “That’s not fucking funny Lei. I thought you said she wasn't doing good?”

“Maybe she’s decided to deal with her issues and is now moving on.”

I don’t like how I feel when she says “moving on”. What the fuck does that even mean? I didn’t expect to see her here at all. I would rather her still be at home crying. I know I’m a selfish motherfucker but I’m not okay with Sina moving on, especially if she’s moving on without me.

I watch the way he looks at her and I know he sees her the way we all do because he gazes at her the same way I wished she would look at me. In total awe. Fuck, when they said karma’s a bitch, they weren’t lying because this shit is fucking killing me. Her cheeks flush as she gives him a shy smile and he leans in and kisses her forehead.

I feel my hands shaking. No one kisses her forehead but me, I don’t give a fuck how bad I fucked up she’s mine. I know technically speaking, she’s not, but every fiber of my being wants her to be my everything. I stand there feeling my heart crack as I watch her fall for him a little. She may not know it, but I do because I’ve seen her look at me the same way. The way she did when I saw her for the first time again after being gone for eight years. I can't take it anymore and start walking to the front of the store.

“Eli, do not start shit”, Lei growls.

I give her my best innocent smile and tell her “I know I fucked up Lei, but she’s mine.”

She rolls her eyes and says “Just let her be Eli, she needs a new normal.”

I don’t stop because I’m going to be her fucking new normal, even if it means I have to beg her for another chance. I see Leila heading over to Reese and I'm pretty sure she’s going to tell on me, but whatever. I need to fucking talk to my girl who’s noticed me walking over and is looking at me like I don’t phase her. Is she serious right now? The Asshole sees me coming and starts fucking pouting, what a fucking dick. I give him a slight head nod and stand right in front of her.

“Can I speak with you?” I ask her as Asshole starts frowning at me. “Privately.” I grind out because I am not having this conversation with that dick listening in.

She gets up from her seat and says “Give me a minute Marino.” Fucking Marino, stupid ass name.

I look at him and say, “You don’t have to wait”

He gives me a smug look and says “I’ll meet you at the gym, gorgeous.” And this asshole fucking kisses her forehead.Again.

Did she just fucking blush over another guy while I’m standing right here? Are you fucking serious? Fuck that!

Before she can say bye to the douche canoe I grab her by the hand and say “You just pissed me the fuck off Babe.”

She pulls her arm out of my grip and says, “I’m not your damn Babe and I’ll do whatever the hell I want.”

What the fuck? Reese sees us and Sina says “I’ll be fine. Could you keep an eye on Emma please?” and they both nod yes in response.

Leila looks at me and says “Use my office. And you better be nice Eli.”

Before I can answer Sina says “Thanks Leila, but I’ll be fine.” The look she has on her face is just blank and I can’t read her. I don’t know what she’s thinking and it stresses me the fuck out. She walks ahead of me and of course my eyes land on her tight ass. Fuck me. I walk around her, giving her some space, and I want to make sure that she knows she can feel safe with me., leaving it up to her if the door is closed or not. When I turn to look at her she’s locking the door and closing the blinds. What the hell is she doing? She gives me the sexiest fucking smile and starts walking toward me. I am fucked, this girl owns me.

Chapter Seventeen

Sina

I knew it was a bad