The Crush by Ward Penelope (best book recommendations txt) 📕

A couple of minutes later, she opened and placed her index finger over her mouth.

My heart pounded as Farrah led the way.

Once inside her room, I noticed she was fidgeting. Taking her hand, I prompted her to sit down next to me on the bed.

“What’s up, beautiful? I would’ve thought this was a booty call, but you look way too nervous for that.”

“I am nervous...”

“Don’t be nervous. Talk to me.”

“When you left, it was torture because all I wanted was to be near you tonight. It scares me a little.”

“Don’t be afraid to tell me what you want, Farrah. Because it’s most definitely the same thing I want.”

“I didn’t call you over here to talk. But I feel weird saying it…asking for it.”

My dick rose to attention.

“Let me try to decipher what you want to convey, then—so you don’t have to say a thing. May I?”

“Yes.” She smiled. “I’d like that.”

“Okay, so…here’s what’s happening.” I took a deep breath. “You want me. But you don’t want to give me the wrong idea...because understandably, I haven’t earned your trust back yet. You’re still not sure letting me in is the right thing. But when you’re around me, your body remembers. It remembers that it belongs to me. You want me inside of you, even if your mind is telling you otherwise. You can feel how much I want you, too. And that only makes it worse. Am I right?”

Farrah licked her lips and nodded. “Yes.”

“And you called me here tonight because you want me to fuck you like I used to, without drawing any conclusions about what it all means. You want pure, unbridled, raw fucking with no words. You just want to get lost in me without worrying for once.”

She closed her eyes and breathed, “Yes.”

“I can do that, Farrah. I can so do that for as long as you need me to. I just want to make you feel good. Screw putting a label on it. We never have to label it if you don’t want to.”

Her chest heaved. “We have to be quiet. Not that I’m hiding from Nathan, but I’d prefer he not wake up and find you here.”

“I mean, as of late, we’re known more for our screaming.” I winked. “But I can do quiet if you can?”

She stood no chance of answering that question because before she could say anything, my mouth was on hers. The warmth of her breath and her familiar taste were my own personal heaven.

I spoke over her lips. “Forget about all the reasons this is a bad idea. Just be with me. Relax your body and let me do the work.”

She fell back onto the bed, and I hovered over her, spreading her knees apart.

“Oh my God,” she muttered as I lowered my mouth and buried my face in her pussy.

She winced in pleasure, pulling on my hair. “Yes,” she breathed. “You’re mouth feels so good. I’d forgotten how amazing it is.”

“You don’t know anything yet,” I said as I flicked my tongue along her clit.

Moving back, I circled my thumb through her arousal before slipping my fingers inside of her. She let out a sound that bordered on too loud. I groaned before taking her delicious mound into my mouth again, savoring every bit of her flavor.

“I missed this so much,” I whispered over her tender flesh.

She threaded her fingers through my hair and pulled to guide my movements.

I stuck my tongue deeper inside of her, pushing in and out while she moved under me.

“Tell me what you want, baby.”

Farrah bucked her hips. “I want you inside of me.”

Kissing my way to her mouth, I was dying to feel her wet pussy wrapped around my cock.

We kissed frantically as I unzipped my pants and kicked them off. I nudged her legs apart before sinking into her, marveling at how tight she was.

“Damn, I forgot how good this felt, too,” she panted.

I’d told myself I was going to go slow, make love to her, but apparently that was impossible. Slow and easy didn’t last very long. I couldn’t take it anymore, speeding up my thrusts. I tried to regulate my breathing to keep from coming, needing to prolong this. That was no easy feat because it had been so damn long, and she was so wet. I fucked her harder as she dug her nails into my ass, the friction of her tight pussy nearly undoing me with every thrust.

Earlier, I’d thought maybe she wasn’t ready for this, but the way she gripped my body, urging me to go faster, harder, deeper, took away any doubts.

Shutting my eyes, I silently thanked God for allowing me the opportunity to be inside the woman I loved again. I’d never take this for granted, would never hurt her again. The only hard part was going to be convincing her of that.

At one point, she let out a loud gasp, prompting me to cover her mouth so she wouldn’t wake Nathan. Her muscles spasmed around me, and I let go, too, emptying my cum inside of her.

We lay together in sated bliss as I softly kissed her face.

“I lied,” I whispered.

“About what?”

“About this not meaning anything. It means everything to me, Farrah. And so do you. I love you so fucking much, and I never stopped.” She was quiet as I continued. “When you first told me you loved me three years ago, you told me not to say it in return. You didn’t want me to feel obligated. I loved you so much then, and I love you even more today. But you don’t owe me those three words or any validation right now. The only thing I want is for you to let me show you every day through my actions how much I love you. Let me make up for the time we lost.”

She didn’t say anything in response, but her eyes filled with tears. And that was good enough for me.

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