Beautifully Torn by Charity Parkerson (books for men to read .txt) 📕

Hudson stroked his stomach. “Please don’t take your friendship away now. You’re the only person who doesn’t use me.”

Jinx finally relaxed. He linked fingers with Hudson’s and held on. “Please stop thinking about my stupidity. I already feel like a big enough idiot.” He blew out a breath.

“You’re not an idiot.” Rocky sounded stern. It made butterflies stir in Jinx’s stomach. “It’s been a rough year. Why do you think I haven’t kissed you before tonight? I wanted you to know that you can trust me. You obviously don’t know it yet.”

Jinx’s eyes fell closed. “That’s not true. I trust you completely. We should try again.” Resolve settled over Jinx as he made the demand. “Kiss me again. Both of you.”

Neither man moved.

“Then kiss each other and let me watch,” Jinx suggested, hoping to get things moving.

For a moment, Rocky and Hudson eyed each other. Finally, Hudson came up onto his elbow and leaned over Jinx. Rocky did the same. He didn’t grab Hudson and pull him into a fiery kiss the way he had Jinx, but he also didn’t back down when Hudson reached for him. Jinx’s breaths came a little faster as he watched Hudson’s and Rocky’s lips meet. His cock stirred when the kiss deepened. He never expected the lack of jealousy, much less to be turned on by the sight of Hudson and Rocky together. The bigger his desire got, the smaller his fears became. When their kiss turned heated, Jinx drew the pair down until he had Rocky’s mouth and Hudson kissed his neck. He lost himself in the sensation of stroking tongues as Hudson joined their kiss and their mouths moved from one spot to another. Jinx no longer knew whose hands touched him or whose tongue was in his mouth. All he knew was lust as someone’s hand found its way inside his shorts. Jinx moved against the palm that stroked him while stealing all the kisses they could give. His hands made their way beneath the covers. Lust made him bold. He rubbed the erections on either side of him until each man freed their cocks for Jinx to touch.

Jinx couldn’t think straight. They were so different yet the same. While each man felt soft yet hard, that was where the similarities ended. Hudson had a dick Jinx could ride all night. He was the perfect length and width so Jinx wouldn’t get hurt. Rocky’s dick matched the man. It was thick and long, ensuring Jinx would stretch and gag. Jinx was so goddamn horny, he thought he might scream. He stroked and tugged while moving restlessly, seeking more. Rocky sat up and ripped Jinx’s shorts off before settling down again. He roughly pulled Jinx’s leg over his hip, spreading Jinx’s thighs. Jinx lost himself in the sensation of Hudson sucking his nipple. Rocky sucked two fingers, wetting them before Jinx found them in his ass. His eyes rolled back in his head. Rocky pumped his fingers, massaging the perfect spot while Hudson tugged on Jinx’s dick. Jinx blindly stroked, taking whatever kisses he could from whoever gave them. His hips rolled as he tried reaching for release. Everything felt too good. He wanted more, yet he needed this to end. Pressure climbed his shaft. Jinx strained toward it. As a loud gasp ripped from his throat, an orgasm nearly blinded him. Neither Rocky nor Hudson stopped. They kept tormenting Jinx until he had nothing left to give. Then both men shot to their knees and openly jacked off while Jinx fought for air. Grunts and moans filled the air. Hot cum coated Jinx’s torso as they came all over him. In all his life, Jinx had never felt more complete. It was as if everything snapped into place. Jinx wanted them both. He might not get to keep them, but in this moment, they were his. Jinx couldn’t ask for more.

Three

There was a weird pressure in Rocky’s chest after watching Jinx and Hudson sleep for half the night. There was also a huge weight sitting on his shoulders. Despite a bit of sexual gratification, everyone was miserable, and he didn’t know how to fix it. It took Rocky a moment to realize Hudson’s eyes were open. Light spilling from the cracked bathroom door was enough for Rocky to see him clearly. For a long moment, they silently stared at each other across Jinx’s sleeping form.

Finally, Rocky broke. “Why did you try jumping from the balcony?”

Hudson looked away and stared at Jinx. “You wouldn’t understand.”

Rocky fought an eye roll. “Being unhappy isn’t a problem owned only by the rich and famous.”

Rocky didn’t think Hudson would answer. Since their whispering would likely wake Jinx soon, he considered letting go. “I thought being an adult would be different,” Hudson admitted finally, surprising Rocky. “Like I thought I would wake up one day and magically have my shit together.” Hudson’s gaze moved back Rocky’s way. “He kisses me all the time and doesn’t freak out.”

Rocky knew this answer without having to think about it. “That’s because he trusts you. He doesn’t trust me.” It hurt to admit that, but it was the truth.

Hudson shook his head. “It’s because he’s not scared to lose me. I’m nobody to him. He’s terrified of losing you. It’s like I’m not a real person to anyone. Maybe not even to me.”

“I feel sick at the thought of losing either of you,” Jinx whispered, proving he had been awake for at least part of their conversation.

Rocky winced. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to wake you.”

Jinx opened one eye. “You’re holding a conversation across my face. I’m a deep sleeper but not that deep.”

The moment felt intimate, disclosing secrets in the dark. Rocky had confessions he needed to make too. “I don’t know what I want from this.”

“I don’t expect anything,” Hudson said immediately, sounding hurt and obviously misunderstanding.

Rocky couldn’t let that go on. “I don’t think I’m very good at expressing