Heartbreak? Love? Or Neither? by Alexandra Rader (fiction books to read .TXT) 📕

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I thought you were the greatest thing in the world
But I was sadly mistaken

I'm hanging on by just a thread
I don't know how long I'll last
Before I break
My whole life's at stake
I fell in love with you
I thought you were so true
But now I see I'm just a fool
I'm hanging on by just a thread

I loved the way you looked at me
I loved the way you smiled
I loved the way you talked to me
Like I was the only thing that mattered
I loved the way you kissed me
And gently caressed my cheeks
I loved the way you made me feel
When we were together
I loved the way you knew me so well
And knew when I was lying
When you looked and me
And whispered softly, "Liar"
I loved the way you did
What you knew you weren't supposed to
I loved the way you
Walked down the halls
And came straight to me
I loved the way you paid attention to me
How you gave me your undivided attention
I loved the way you whispered my name
Like it was sacred to your lips
I loved how you never looked at another girl
I loved the way you smelled
I loved how you were mysterious
With a smile always tugging at your lips
I loved the way you rolled your eyes
And the way you always talked to me
I loved the way you included me in everything
Even when others disagreed
I loved it when you shared your secrets
And teased me with your smile
I loved the way you held me
Like you'd never let me go
I loved the way you held my hand
And listened to only me
I loved how you were always kind
And never had any worries
I loved the way you made me feel
When you looked deep into my eyes
I loved the way you never left me waiting
Or ever kept me hanging
I loved the way you saved me
From every tear I've cried
I loved the way you never let me down
I loved the way you made me happy
Even on my worst days
I loved the way you spoke to me
Like I was the only one you trusted
I loved the way you treated me
Like I was a princess
I loved the way you made me laugh
When I was about to cry
I loved the way
You never said goodbye
I loved the way you swept me into your arms
And kissed my lips in greeting
I loved the way you tricked me
Into falling into you
And how you promised me
With secret kisses
And words of the sweetest kind
You never said you'd wait for me
Or that you would always be there
But you said enough
To male me think you cared
Now you've screwed me over
And I see with clearer eyes
All you wanted was a girl
To stand by your side
And do what you knew we shouldn't
I just want to thank you
For opening up my eyes
Now I can see your betrayal
And all your stupid lies
Now that you're gone
I can enjoy life
I thought you really cared
But now I see you were really fake
Well, guess what?
I'm over you and your lies
You led me into your trap
With false words
And teasing eyes
I'm letting you go now
And I never wanna see you again
There will always be a place for you in my heart
But it won't be big
You did the unforgivable
But yet I still forgive you
I just wanted you to know that you hurt me
And that I'm over all your lies.

I was hanging on by just a thread
I didn't know how long I'd last
Before I broke
My whole life was at stake
I fell in love with you
I thought you were so true
But now I see I'm just a fool
I was hanging on by just a thread
But now I have my life back
And a real smile on my face
I Can't Take This Anymore

I can't take this anymore
Someone shut the front door

I'm beginning to lose my mind
I've got no one being kind

I really miss my friends
This horror never ends

My thoughts I can't control
I can't even find my soul

I just want to be stress-free
But anxiety is always with me

I'm feeling insecure
My life is a never-ending horror

My feelings are running wild
And I'm feeling like a new born child

I'm mad and hurt beyond belief
All I really want is a little relief

My heart is breaking inside
The tears are so hard to hide

I can't sleep at night
I don't know what's right

My parents don't even understand
I just want to hold a helping hand

I'm hiding behind a smile
My life is like a too long mile

I can't take it anymore
Someone shut the front door

If only you would care
I'd be so willing to share

The whole story of my life
This is as sharp as a knife

I don't know what to think
My life is missing an important link

I Don't Understand It

Why can't I get it right?
Why does everything go wrong?
I don't understand it
What is it that I long?

I thought everything was going great
But then it all rushed down
I don't understand it
Why can't my life be sound?

I just want to be content
And have my life be serene
But every time I turn around
I have someone being mean

I wish I were stress-free
But I can't do anything right
My thoughts haunt me
And keeps me up at night

My life is complicated
And I'm confused all the time
I wish my life was happy
And that everything were fine

Valentine's Day

Little hearts circle your name
To express my crush on you
Innocent feelings and innocent thoughts
Are filling me so true

There's just something about you
That makes my head spin round
You're funny and you're charming
And your voice is my favorite sound

It's Valentine's Day, baby
So notice my love in the air
Take a good look, baby
And let me know if you care

She Can't Get Enough

Girl of 16
With cuts on her arm
She never meant
To cause herself harm

One more slice
One more cut
She can't get enough
She feels like a slut

The pain takes away everything
Like worries amuck
The pain is all she has
Because her life sicks

She's in need of some help
And she knows it too well
But she can't find the words
As she watches it swell

She's afraid of people finding out
Of knowing her secret
She can't get enough
Please, just one more slit

The blade's been there
Like a good friend
Terrible, but good
It's there til the end

The pain isn't enough
She needs something else
But the missing part
Is her herself

I Need To Know You Care

Why can't we be friends?
I promise I'll be there till the end

Please give me one more chance to make it right
I need you in my life because you're my shining light

I really miss your friendship
I feel like I've been hit

I miss our whispered conversations
And our old relations

I'm sorry I let you down
I swear I need you around

I don't know what went wrong
But let me sing you my song

Please let us be friends again
I swear it won't be like then

I need you in my life I swear
I just need to know you care

You were once like a sister to me
And only you can set me free

Our broken friendship makes me cry
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