Heartbreak? Love? Or Neither? by Alexandra Rader (fiction books to read .TXT) 📕

swear to you this isn't a lie

It tore a hole in my heart
To watch you leave me in the dark

I don't know what to do or say
I just want you to be here to stay

I need you for a sisters hug
So I can annoy you like a bug

I want you to comfort me when I cry
I never want to hear you say goodbye

I want to share everything with you
Just like we used to

I miss our fun sleepovers
I wish we were as tight as a two-leafed clover

I wish we could talk just like best friends
I just want to know you're here til the end

I need you in my life I swear
I need to know that you really care
Our Broken Friendship

"Friends forever," you promised
But now we're drifting away
I need your comforting words now
Because I'm having a bad day

But you're not here to listen
I find myself in the dark
I wish you'd give me a hug
But instead you break my heart

I really need your friendship
So I can be set free
But I find myself locked up
Without your caring key

"Please come back!" you hear me say
You hear me beg and plead
But you walk away with a sneer on your face
As you leave me here to bleed

I Love the Way You...

I love the way you smile
And the way you look at me
But there's just one thing I wonder
What is it that you see?

I love the way you hold me close
And look deep into my eyes
I love the way you laugh
And the way you gently sigh

I love the way you make me feel
When we sit and talk together
I love the way you love me
And never say forever

I love the way you take some risks
And give me that sideways glance
I love the way you kiss my lips
And offer me my chance

I love the way you whisper my name
Like it's sacred to your lips
I love the way you walk
And the way you bump me with your hips

I love the way you talk
And the way you roll your eyes
I love you facial expression
As I catch you by surprise

I love the way you give me hope
By giving me some light
I love the way you say I'm wrong
But that we are always right

I love the way you share with me
Every secret and lie
I love the way you save me
From every tear I cry

I love the way you stroke my cheeks
And the way you stole my heart
I love the way you keep the past away
And give me a fresh new start

I love how you're a mystery
With every different piece
I love the way you treat me
Like we're Beauty and the Beast

I love the way you hold my hands
And whisper softly in my ear
I love everything about you
And the fact that you're always near

I love the way you make me laugh
When I'm about to cry
I even love your name
And how you never say goodbye

Maybe I'm stupid or naive
But I think you really care
Cause every time I've needed you
You were always there
I don't know what to do or say
But for now I know I'm scared

Your Touch

Every time you look at me
You make my heart beat fast
You bring a blush into my cheeks
And feelings that will forever last

When you hold me like you do
As no other man has tried
I pour into you my soul
And my feelings can no longer hide

Inside

You play with my feelings
You play with my heart
I don't know what to say
I don't know where to start

You bring back memories of him
That I'd rather keep away
But I think of you at night
And every minute of the day

You make me feel things
I've never felt before
You make my heart ache
As you open your own door

You make me feel self-conscious
And my heart beat like a drum
You make me feel happy
And a song of love I hum

My feelings and emotions
I try desperately to hide
For I am very fearful
Of you knowing what's inside

Why Can't You See?

I don't know what to say
I just need some time away

I feel like you don't care
And that you're not there

I just need some time
Why can't you see that I'm not fine?

Every time I want to talk
You tell me to get up and walk

Why can't you see
That this isn't me?

There's more than meets the eye
My whole life's a lie

Why can't you see the pain on my face?
I really don't belong in this place

Everyday is a day of pain
No matter what, it's always the same

I feel like I can't do anything right
The only peace I get is at night

Why can't you see what I'm going through?
Why can't you see when I need you?

I break down and cry where you can't see
Cause I don't want you to know the truth about me

I'm going through way too much
I really need a comforting touch

I'm really missing "HIM"
But the memories make my eyes swim

I'm having trouble with my act at school
I don't know how to play it cool

Sometimes I wish for a great escape
All I really want is someone to relate

Sometimes I have it really tough
And then I finally have enough

Why can't you see I'm losing it?
Sometimes I feel like I've been hit

This is all too much to take
Why can't you see I need a break?

I barely have any friends
No one's gonna be there in the end

My heart is shattering in my chest
Why can't you see my life's a test?

It's all to see how long I'll last
Before I break into a blast

Why can't you hear my screams?
Pieces are what's left of my dreams

I plead and beg to no avail
I feel like I'm in the depths of hell

Why can't you hear past my fake laugh
Sometimes I feel like I'm missing half

My eyes are no longer as bright a blue
Because no one hears my screaming flu

Why can't you see what I need?
Why does my heart have to bleed?

I'm to afraid to face my fears
Why isn't anybody near?

Tears are starting to flow with ease
And all I feel is a Winter breeze

Why can't you see that I'm not alright?
I've lost my guiding sight

My outlook on life has become lame
Because all I see is scarring pain

Only You

Your eyes hold many secrets
And your voice a teasing tone
I wish to tell you everything
But