Heartbreak? Love? Or Neither? by Alexandra Rader (free ebooks romance novels txt) 📕

for me to move on

It's time for me to live my way

 

Now my eyes are open

And I'm no longer yours to claim

I belong to myself

I'll never be the same

Thanks for all the heartache

And the tears I never cried

Now it's time to say Goodbye

To you and all your lies

 

Oh, oh, oh

Goodbye, Goodbye...

 

 

GROWING APART

It feels like we are growing apart

And the distance is tearing a hole in my heart

 

I don't know what to say to make things right

My tears cascade in the lonely night

HE'LL NEVER KNOW

I love him

But he'll never know

Because...

I fear him, too

HELD TO THE GROUND

When I look at you

My heart begins to pound

Your eyes find mine

And I'm held to the ground

HELP ME

Help me through these thoughts of mine

Help me find the fine line

Help me when I ask you to

Help me when I'm needing through

Help me with no answers needed

Help me when I've all but bleeded

Help me when you see my pain

Help me like you're not the same

Help me with all you can

Help me with your healing hand

Help me with no blaming words

Help me by understanding how much I hurt

Help me when all hope is gone

Help me without the words, "You're wrong!"

Help me through the suicide

Help me with what's going on inside

Help me like nobody else

Help me find my missing self

Help me through when all is lost

Help me find life's true cost

Help me on my rainy days

Help me with the words, "It'll be okay"

Help me through these trying times

Help me find what's truly mine

Help me with the pain inside

Help me by finding where I hide

Help me fnd my meaning

Help me when you see me bleeding

HIGH SCHOOL

We fight

We talk

We get mad

And we walk

 

Smile today

Cry tomorrow

Keep on living

Don't let into some sorrow

 

We make enemies

We make friends

We find some guys

Who won't be there in the end

 

Don't do homework

You're gonna fail

Do your homework

You've got good mail

 

You find a guy

But he turns his back

Girl, you're alive

Don't have an attack

HIM

All I've ever wanted is to see his face

Recognize him

Cherish the sight of him

To whisper his name softly in surprise

To be filled with fear and sadness and happiness beyond belief

I just want to know that he's still out there

Living his life to the fullest

Yet I still hope that a part of him misses me

As much as I miss him

I want this wound in my heart to heal

But I want him to be happy

I want to feel relief again

Yet I don't want to forget his face

Or any moment I had spent with him

I want to be able to look at another guy again

But somehow I know it will never be the same

HIS SMILE

His smile is the reason

My blood flows

 

HOW AND WHY

How can one be broken into a million?

How can one heart be hurt so much?

Why can't the heart be put to rest?

Why isn't this all enough?

I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE

I can't take this anymore

Someone shut the front door

 

I'm begining to lose my mind

I've got no one being kind

 

I really miss my friends

This horror never ends

 

My thought I can't control

I can't even find my soul

 

I just want to be stress-free

But anxiety is always with me

 

I'm feeling insecure

My life is a never-ending horror

 

My feelings are running wild

And I'm feeling like a new born child

 

I'm mad and hurt beyond belief

All I really want is a little relief

 

My heart is breaking inside

The tears are so hard to hide

 

I can't sleep at night

I don't know what's right

 

My parents don't even understand

I just want to hold a helping hand

 

I'm hiding behind a smile

My life is like a too long mile

 

I can't take it anymore

Someone shut the front door

 

If only you would care

I'd be so willing to share

 

The whole story of my life

This is as sharp as a knife

 

I don't know what to think

My life is missing an important link

I DON'T KNOW

 

You make me break into a smile

With a simple memory

Too bad you're not here to stay

For now and eternity

 

You walk away

Head held low

I almost cry

As I watch you go

 

My heart aches and throbs with longing

And it's quite clear who it's for

I sit back and start the long wait

For who knows when you'll walk back through that door?

 

One sweet kiss

Is all it takes

It just makes me wonder

Was it all a big mistake?

 

I don't want it to be

Don't get me wrong

But I'm still hurt from the last one

And his stupid love song

 

I don't know what will happen

If anything at all

I don't know who we'll meet

But for you my heart screams its call

 

Two sweet kisses is all we shared

But my lips still burn with fire

If only I knew what went on in that head

Who it is you truly desire

 

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