Heartbreak? Love? Or Neither? by Alexandra Rader (free ebooks romance novels txt) 📕

I'LL DO ANYTHING TO KEEP YOU BY MY SIDE

Following every word that you say

I find it hard to break away

You had my heart from the moment you said, "Hello."

I don't ever want to let you go

You're everything to me

I don't want to set you free

You're perfect to me

You're everything I need

And when you stare into my eyes

I'm scared you'll say Goodbye

I'll do anything to keep you by my side

I'M BEGGING YOU

You hurt me

You said that you loved me

But I know it's all a lie

Wishing you were here

I want you to hold me tight and whisper, "I love you" in my ar

And make it sincere

So I know your heart is true

I hate the fights

I hate the words

So please come back and take away all this fear

And I'm begging you

Please put my heart back together

And never break it again

I love you

I'M GOING TO LET YOU

I'm going to let you make me feel good, take every look, wink, smile, warm embrace, tender touch, and loving moment.

I'm going to let you show me that I am special and I'm going to learn to accept it as it is.

I'm going to show you the way I feel by letting you in.

I'm going to let you make me feel of worth and believe in it.

Because I don't want to wake up and realize it's too late.

I'M HANGING ON BY JUST A THREAD

I'm hanging on by just a thread

I don't know how long I'll last

Before I break

My whole life's at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I'm hanging on by just a thread

 

Isn't it funny how nobody knows

Or even cares

Until you're long gone?

A whisper in the wind

It seems like only memories are

Cherished and loved

I wish I were a memory

And that you were the only key

To loving me

And caring

For all of eternity

 

I'm hanging on by just a thread

I don't know how long I'll last

Before I break

My whole life's at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I'm hanging on by just a thread

 

Stress and anxiety are all that I know

It's all too much

For just a teenage girl

Nobody understands

Nobody cares

I've gotten to the point

That I find no meaning

At all to my entire being

I'm frightened and alone

Got no place to call home

Feeling as small as can be

I barely get a glance

Let alone a second chance

 

I'm hanging on by just a thread

I don't know how long I'll last

Before I break

My whole life's at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I'm hanging on by just a thread

 

I've got problems with my parents

Who don't even care

My feelings are thoughts

I can't even share

Depression sneaks up on me

Like an old, forgotten friend

I've got no choice

But to let it in

School's another issue

Got people holding grudges

I can't walk down the halls

Without getting ridiculed

Only got a few true friends

All the others have to pretend

 

I'm hanging on by just a thread

I don't know how long I'll last

Before I break

My whole life's at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I'm hanging on by just a thread

 

My thoughts are hard to think

My heart is feeling heavy

I get sick to my stomach

With a nice fever to go along

Almost everyday

My head is always hurting

I'm exhausted all the time

I've got no one to talk to

No one to lean on

Life holds no more meaning

Not a single little spark

I've got no end in sight

Other than a lonely life

I sit here like a loner

Cause torture fills my eyes

Nobody understands

Cause they don't want to know the reason why

 

I'm hanging on by just a thread

I don't know how long I'll last

Before I break

My whole life's at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I'm hanging on by just a thread

 

I'm crying all the time

When I don't even know why

I'm looking for explanations

But coming up empty handed

Running into dead ends

I'm walking aimlessly about

Not knowing where to go

I'm trying to go unnoticed

Trying to hang real low

I just want some understanding

And a little support, too

 

I'm hanging on by just a thread

I don't know how long I'll last

Before I break

My whole life's at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I'm hanging on by just a thread

 

I'm beginning to give up

Got nothing left to give

Everyone ignores me

And gives me dirty looks

Nobody cares what happens to me

I don't know where I want to be

I'm heading downhill

I haven't a clue where I'm gonna land

I'm treading on thin ice

I don't know if I'm even gonna make it

I have a heavy heart

But it's filled with so much love

I'm afraid

But not of loving

I'm afraid of not being loved

No one seems to understand this

They don't think of me as a person

But as a pest, an abomination

They don't understand

So they shouldn't be making judgements

Unless they have walked through my shoes

 

I'm hanging on by just a thread

I don't know how long I'll last

Before I break

My whole life's at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I'm hanging on by just a thread

 

I'm so very lonely

But I hate to admit it

I feel like a huge mistake

And that I can't do anything right

I just don't know what to do

Or who to turn to

I wish that people would understand me

But they don't

And I don't know if they ever will

Writing is all that I have

But people don't bother to read it

Then you walked into my life

And shed me some light

I'm confused

And I don't understand

Why you would have chosen me

To share with

But now that you're gone

I understand so much more

Now that you're gone

I've been set free

You didn't want me

For me

Did you?

You just wanted what you wanted

But now that you're gone

I can finally relax

I can finally stop fighting

Everyone around me

I'm so very sorry for the way

I treated everyone I love

Because of you

I thought it was you who I wanted

Needed

But now I see that I was wrong

Now that you're gone

I can finally think

And smile

And laugh

And talk freely with the ones I love

And all that I needed

Was you to be gone

Now that you're gone

I can actually be happy

You were the one

Who was keeping me from life

Youstole my heart

So now I'm gonna steal it back

Because you don't deserve

What my heart holds in it

I thought you were the greatest thing in the world

But I was sadly mistaken

 

I'm hanging on by just a thread

I don't know how long I'll last

Before I break

My whole life's at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I'm hanging on by just a thread

 

You never said you'd wait for me

Or that you would always be there

But you said enough

To make me think you cared

Now you've screwed me over

And I see with clearer eyes

All you wanted was a girl

To stand by your side

And do what you knew we shouldn't

I just want to thank you

For opening up my eyes

Now I can see your betrayal

And all your stupid lies

Now that you're gone

I enjoy life

I thought you really cared

But now I see you were really fake

Well, guess what?

I'm over you and your lies

You led me into your trap

With false words

And teasing eyes

I'm letting you go now

And I never want to see you again

There will always be a place for you in my heart

But it won't be big

You did the unforgivable

But yet I still forgive you

I just wanted you to know that you hurt me

And that I'm over all your lies

 

I was hanging on by just a thread

I didn't know how long I'd last

Before I broke

My whole life was at stake

I fell in love with you

I thought you were so true

But now I see I'm just a fool

I was hanging on by just a thread

But now I have my life back

I'M HERE TO STAY

I know that you're scared to let someone in

And that terrifies me to no end

I just wish that you'd realize I'm here to stay

And I'll love you forever and a day

I know words don't matter, but actions do

If only you knew how locked my heart is, too

I'M SO VERY SORRY