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BEYOND NO SELF

 

by Nirmala

 

Copyright ยฉ2008 by Daniel Erway (Nirmala)

 

Endless Satsang Press

 

[email protected]

 

www.endless-satsang.com

 

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BEYOND NO SELF

 

The spiritual journey is a movement away from over-identification

with the body and mind to the rediscovery of our true identity as infinite

Being, and this can be two different movements. The first is dis-identification with the body and mind. Since identification is simply a

movement of thought, dis-identification is simply a movement away from

thought. The ego identification that we experience most of the time is the

result of repeated thoughts about โ€œIโ€, โ€œme,โ€ and โ€œmine.โ€ That is all there is

to it, but while we are thinking these thoughts the sense of self is contained

in them. And since most of our self-referencing thoughts are about our body,

our thoughts, our feelings, and our desires, the sense of self is usually

contained in the body and mind.

 

Dis-identification from the thought form of the ego can occur

whenever there is a deep questioning of the assumption in most of our

thoughts that we are this body and this mind. Inquiry using the question,

Who am I? can naturally weaken the assumption that I am the body and the

mind. In fact, any deep questioning of our thoughts and assumptions can

loosen our over-identification with thought, since so many of them are not

very true. Experiences of no thought can also weaken the identification

because in the absence of thought, there is an absence of identification. We

all experience this when we get so caught up in what we are doing that we

completely โ€œforget ourselves.โ€

 

Alternatively, directly sensing the presence that is aware of the

thoughts can also dis-entangle the tendency to identify with the thoughts.

The second movement of the spiritual journey is this recognition, or

realization, of your true nature as presence or limitless empty awareness. It

is a wonderful surprise to discover that everything that really matters in life,

including peace, joy, and love, is found in this empty awareness. This

emptiness is incredibly full and rich. It has intelligence and strength and

compassion. Whenever we experience a deeper quality of Being such as

clarity, peace, insight, value, happiness or love, it is coming from this

spacious presence.

 

The surprising thing is that while these two movements can occur

simultaneously, they can also happen apart from each other. When this

happens, the movement from ego identification to our essential nature is not

complete. For example, you can question deeply your own thoughts until the

false assumptions in them are seen through. The over-identification that

results from constantly thinking about me and mine and my body and my

problems canโ€™t survive closer examination. It can be a shock to see how

completely we assume that I am this body and I am this mind, and an even

bigger shock and relief to discover that it is just a thought, and it is not true.

The identification is really just a thought. There is no actual equivalence

between you and your body or your mind. You are that which experiences

the body and the mind, but you are not contained in them.

 

Even though this is a profound insight and a huge relief (after all if I

am not my body, then these are not my aches and pains; and if I am not my

mind, then these are not my problems), by itself this insight only reveals the

false assumptions. It does not reveal the underlying truth. And since the

underlying truth of your nature is more of a heart-centered experience, it is

possible to dissolve the ego without touching your true nature. In a sense,

you can wake up in your mind, but not in your heart.

 

When this happens, there is both the sense of relief from all of the

grief caused by the over-identification with the body and mind, and often a

deep sense of meaninglessness. If โ€œIโ€ donโ€™t exist, then what is the point? It

doesnโ€™t matter anymore what the fictional โ€œIโ€ does or what happens to it. In

fact, nothing matters at all because it is so clearly all an illusion.

 

When seekers are led or just find their own way to a deep experience

of no-self, they can then form a new more subtle belief that this absence of

self is all there is. โ€œI am not my body, I am not my mind, I do not existโ€ are

seen as the final conclusions. From a purely logical perspective, what more

is there to say, since there is no one here to say it or hear it! And while these

conclusions are true, they are not the whole truth.

 

Underlying all of the activity of the mind is the non-conceptual reality

of Being, or our true nature. Underlying the concept of apple, one can

experience the reality of a sweet, red piece of fruit. However it is more

subtle when it comes to our true nature, because the reality underlying our

false identification with the ego is not physical. It is a pure empty aware

space that is full of the subtle substance of presence in all of its essential

forms: peace, joy, love, clarity, strength, value, and much more.

 

How can that beย—empty space that is full of everything that matters?

The mind cannot grasp it fully, as presence exists beyond concepts and even

beyond its own forms; and yet, that is what you are. You can experience it

with more subtle senses than the physical senses and the mind. Ultimately,

you โ€œsenseโ€ it by being it. You just are this full empty presence.

 

It is this second movement of realization of essence, presence, and

fullness of Being that counteracts the belief that since I (as ego) do not exist,

therefore nothing exists and all is illusion. It gives a heartfelt sense of

meaning and purpose back to this relative life of the body and mind, not as a

means of gratification to your idea of yourself, but as a pure expression of

the wonder and beauty of this deeper reality. Instead of living a life in

service to the egoโ€™s wants and needs, you can find yourself fulfilling the

deepest purposes of a human life: to serve and express freedom, joy, beauty,

peace and love. By itself the realization of no-self can end up dry and

lifeless, but when the heart opens wide to the bigger truth of the true Self,

life is anything but dry and lifeless.

 

It is also worth mentioning that the opposite can occur: At any time,

your awareness can move directly into pure presence and be filled with a

sense of the essential limitless goodness of your true nature. And while any

experience of true nature does to some extent loosen the identification with

the limited idea of yourself we call the ego, since it doesnโ€™t compute to think

of yourself as a limited body and mind when you are experiencing the bigger

underlying reality, an experience of true nature by itself doesnโ€™t always

dissolve the ego completely. Having a direct experience of deeper truth

doesnโ€™t take away your inherent capacity to identify. It doesnโ€™t render you

incapable of thought, so you can still return to thinking of yourself as a

limited self, even if it is now a limited self that has tasted your true nature.

 

So if the habit of identification with the body and mind does continue,

it can still be necessary to deconstruct the mistaken beliefs related to ego

identification. There is a place for questioning and inquiring into the false

beliefs and assumptions of our identification with the body and mind, and a

place for questioning and inquiring into the underlying reality. The

difference is that the inquiry into true nature is not a purely mental activity.

Because of the subtle nature of presence, the inquiry itself has to be subtle

and whole hearted. To discover what is really here in the truest sense

requires subtlety, patience, persistence, courage, tenderness, compassion,

curiosity, and ultimately everything youโ€™ve got! The momentum of our usual

identification with physical reality and with our purely mental thought forms

shapes our perception to such a great degree, that it is a challenge to break

through to the more subtle dimensions of perception.

 

It helps to pursue the inquiry into true nature both with the heart and

also with the body. The mindโ€™s view is so easily distorted by belief and

conditioning that the experience beneath the shoulders is often a more direct

and open doorway into presence. What are you experiencing right now in

your shoulders? In your heart? In your belly? What is the space around your

arms and legs like right now? Is there energy flowing in your body right

now? Questions like these can direct you to a more fruitful exploration,

especially if you ask them with your whole heart and not just with your

mind.

 

It is a saving grace that this deeper reality is always present.

Sometimes it just touches us in an unguarded moment of deep loss or

profound beauty. In the end, there is no escaping from the truth. Illusions

come and go, beliefs come and go, and yet the underlying presence remains.

 

In words it can seem overly simple. Just stop believing in your

thoughts and sense your being. It really is that simple, although it is not

always easy. One of the things that make it a challenge is the sense of

identity we naturally have. Inherent in our existence as true nature is a sense

that we exist or that โ€œI am.โ€ We do exist as true nature, and so of course, we

sense that existence. While many might be confused about who or what they

are, not very many doubt their own existence. In fact, existence and identity

are aspects of our true nature.

 

So, even when we are caught in the mental world of thoughts, there is

still this underlying sense of identity. We still feel like we exist. And since

we are so strongly imprinted onto our physical bodies and our thoughts and

therefore our attention is on them most of the time, our sense of identity

often moves into our body and our thoughts, feelings, and desires. We start

to say โ€œI am sadโ€ instead of โ€œI feel sad.โ€ We speak of our experience as if it

is our identity.

 

Anytime we add something to the statement โ€œI am,โ€ as in โ€œI am

scaredโ€ or โ€œI am a bird watcher,โ€ our identity moves into that thought. This

is what it means to identify with thought. A thought by itself has little power

or significance. It may be relevant and useful, but it doesnโ€™t have much

lasting impact. Most thoughts pass very quickly, so much so that often we

canโ€™t remember what was said in a conversation just a moment ago.

 

However, a thought that begins with โ€œIโ€ or โ€œI amโ€ or a thought that is

about me or my possessions or my experience evokes a bit of this sense of

identity. It is as if our true nature or true identity moves into or tries on the

shape and feel of the thought. Dissolving or deconstructing the thoughts that

we identify with can free our essential identity from an assumption that it is

somehow contained in our body or our mind. Seeing the falseness of those

ideas opens the

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