TRAVIS by Marissa Romero (reading diary TXT) 📕

  I thought it was true love, but i was wrong again. it turned out to be a mistake. the biggest mistake i could ever make. this guy never loved me. he was in love with my sister Clarissa and my best friend LEXI. he turned out to be an asshole. he treated me like shit. he did things i didn't want him to do. this is the story about my relationship with Travis.

the first time we kissed. this toke place on April 26,2011.
OK so after school Travis came down so we could hang out. we sat on the bus together. we held hands. Marcus was recording everybody on the bus. when he looked at us and said,''there's Travis and Marissa still together like always.''at that time Travis he'd up our hands. i hide my face on Travis’s shoulder. when we got of the bus he had to wait at the baseball field. it toke me about 30 minutes to go back to the field,because i had to eat and i had to change.
when i finally got to the field i was poking Travis and he said,''if you don't stop poking me then I’m going to hug you.''so i kept poking him. he ended up hugging me. so we decided to go to my NANA OFIES house. when we were on our way to her house she was living. so we just went up there anyway. when we were walking up there i was walking in front of everybody. when my sister said,''wait for Travis.''so i waited for him. when we got there we were listening to three days grace. we were all singing the songs. it was so funny. when we went back to the field i was laying on the bleachers by myself. when Travis came up to me and said,''whats wrong?''i sat up and said,''nothing.''he said,''OK.''i said,''ya.''
so about 4 seconds latter he said,''do you know how many chances I’ve had to kiss you?''i said,''no. how much?''he said,''about 5 chances.''i said,''oh.''about 3 seconds latte he had his arm around me. then we leaned in and kissed three times. it was amazing. like fireworks. so about 4 seconds latter we kissed 3 more times. then i said,''lets go back over here.''so i got up and we started walking towards where my sister and Daniel were at. when we got over there my sister and Daniel said,''did you guys do it?''i said,''ya.''so we decided to go somewhere else. when we got to where we were going i sat on a wall and Travis stood in front on me. he put his arms on the wall next to me and he leand in so we could kiss.when we were kissing,we heard a laughthats when we figured out that my sister and daniel were spying on us.it was funny because my sister said,''daniel.you blow our cover.after that they said,''sorry,''and went back on thee other side of the wall.thats when travis said,''do you wanna go somewhere we can be alone?"i said,''umm where?we can go to spy point.''travis said,''ok.lets go.''so i jumped of the wall and we started walking.we walked through the baseball field.when we were walking he ended up putting his arm around me.when we got to spy point we sat down and he put his arm around my waist.we ended up kissing.thats when we heard my sister and daniel say,''where did they go?''it was funny because the were looking right at us.after me and travis kissed about 4 more times.i yelled,''sis,daniel!''so they came up to spy point.when they got up there they said,''when did you guys come up here?''travis said,''we just came up here.''so they ended up leaving us alone.so when the left me and travis kissed about 2 times.thats when my mom yelled,''girls!!,''from our house.i yelled,''sis!''she said,''what?''i said,''we got to go.''so me and travis got up and started walking.when i was about to leave my sister said,''don't forget the goodbye kiss.''so i sat down on the bleachers and travis kissed me.it felt so good.when i got home i couldnt stop smiling.it was the best day ever.

ok so when travis started dating my sister this is the email i sent him what do i do? i can't stand not being with you. over the weekend i realized that i love you,i want you & I NEED YOU. i swear that I’ll never ever cheat on you again. i just need you to promise me that when we're old enough to get married we'll do it(if we're together by then)k. please give us another chance. i need you more then anything. i love you. so email me back and let me know when you figure out everything k.
hey read these lyrics
the songs called
BACK TO DECEMBER
I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family.
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier than ever,
We small talk, work and the weather,
Your guard is up and I know why.
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind.
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night,"
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven't been sleeping,
Staying up, playing back myself leavin'.
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,
I watched you laughing from the passenger side.
Realized that I loved you in the fall.

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye".

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time.

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile,
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night --
The first time you ever saw me cry.

Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming,
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
So if the chain is on your door I understand.

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December...
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realize what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time.
All the time.
i wish i could go back to December in 2011.the first time we dated. the first time i asked you out. the first time i fell in love with you. i miss you please go back out with me. i cant live without you. you mean so much to me please Travis go back out with me. please please go back out with me.
hey UMM can i talk to you at lunch?email me your answer before 4th hour k. i need to talk to you its important k. email me you answer if i can talk to you k.
he never emailed me back though. he read the email when he started dating my sister.

OK so on October 26,2012 we kissed after i just got out of a break up. we were standing by each other and he had his arm around me. so when my bus came he was AGENST the wall and we kissed for about 4 minutes. it was amazing. i remember who i just broke up with, it was bobby. he had just walled by when we were kissing. he looked pissed. so that's how i figured out that he still loved me.

so the next day we got back together. this toke place on October 27,2011.
Travis kept his arms around my waist the after school. it felt kinda weird because i was standing in front of him. i was leaning on him,so you know what i mean when i say it felt kinda weird. i don't mind though because i LOVE him. i know that i said,''i LOVE Chris,Bobby,and T.J too,but i figured out that i don’t really love them or i don’t really wanna be with them. i know for a fact that its different with Travis he actually LOVES me back. so i know who I’m going to be with and that person is Travis.

OK so i got suspended and tomorrow is my last day. this toke place on November 1,2011.
OK so today i when i was in SAFFORD,at the hospital i finally got to see the greeting card that Travis sent me. its so so cute. its a rose that changes and it say i love you. it plays music in the back ground. so i emailed him saying,''plug you freak-en phone in. I’m going to call you at 6:00.we really really need to talk.''latter when we were on the phone we were talking about whats gonna go-on on Thursday. out of now where he asked,''will you go steady with me?''i gave my sister the phone and she said,''she gave me the phone because she's thinking.''i said,''are you for real or are you just fucking around?'' Travis said,''I’m for real.''i said,''I’m not going to answer because the last time i answered you were a no show. he said,''Thursday.''i said,''Thursday what?''he said,''Thursday, that’s when.''i said,''your confusing me.''he said,'' Thursday. to go steady.''i said,''i don't know.''he said,''why?''i said,''I’m scared.''he said,''what did i do to make you scared?''i said,''nothing. it just reminds me of my second boy friend.''he said,''I’m not the past I’m the present.''i said,''OK. do you remember this summer?when you were at camp,and we were TEXING. you asked me how far I’d let you get.''he said,''ya i remember.''i said,''OK then you know that i won't let you get past second base.''he asked,''whats second base?''i said,''really really.''he said,''I’m going to look it up.''i didn't say anything. he said,''second base is touching.''all in could do was laugh.
he said,''you laughed.'' i said,''yes i did.''then he asked,''do you wanna know what all the bases are?''i said, ''name them.''he said,''first base is making out(already did that),second base is touching,third base is more touching,and fourth base is home run(hooking up).''i said,''that’s awkward.''he said,''i can't wait till Thursday.''i asked,''why?whats suppose to happen?''he said,''I’m gonna get to be alone with you.''then he said,''Thursday I’m not gonna be in the MPR or on the patio. I’m gonna be were we go for lunch. I’m gonna do something that’s probably gonna get me bitch slapped.''i asked,''what are you gonna do?''he said,''I’m not gonna tell you because you won't be surprised. i don't know if I’m going to be able to wait.''

OK Travis picked me up. this toke place on November 2,2011.
oh my god today at lunch Travis picked me up!!when he picked me up he scared the shit out of me. OK this is what happened:OK at lunch i