Secretly Mine by Me =/ (top rated ebook readers TXT) 📕

 ~Alex~

"Alex! Alex wake up!" I'm shaken awake and when I look at the clock I see that its 5:23.

"Yeah?" I turn to Jackson who's looking at me with excitement coating his features.

"Do you smell that?! My mate is near!" I give him a weak smile and turn away so that he can't see the tears rimming my eyes.

"That's great..." I tell him before blocking my scent again.

"It's.... Gone..." My heart breaks at the little whimper at the end of the statement.

"I'm sorry... Why don't we just start the day? There's only about 20 minutes before my alarm goes off." I gulp getting out of my bed and going to my clothes to get clothes quickly. I can tell he's looking at me and upset but I had to get away and I can't show him my face or he'd see I was crying. I go into my bathroom without another word and turn on the shower so he can't hear me crying. He was so excited... What about once he finds out its me? He'll be crushed and hate me forever. That's the basically the only reason I'm not telling him... I'm scared of rejection. 

Striping my clothes, I get into the hot water. My tears mix with the water and before I know it Jackson is asking where I am. Shit! I rush out of the shower and get ready hurrily.

"Shit shit shit." I repeat quietly rushing around my room to get ready for school. I run out the door and into my car where Jackson is already waiting. I groan pulling out of the driveway. "Sorry." I murmur.

"Its fine." He says. 

"Don't turn your emotions off just because you couldn't find her." I say, just in a bad mood.

"You dont know what its like." He shoots back.

'The hell I dont.' I think rolling my eyes. We get to school and I rush to class leaving him behind.

 ~Alex~

Fifth hour came and Jackson sat next to me. Ugh. Looking down at my work I try to figure out the answer but can't. I groan in frustration and bite my lip, like thats going to help me think. A low growl breaks the silence of the room but only wolves would be able to hear it. My eyes widen as I snap my head in the direction it came from. Jackson? His eyes are slightly yellow as he quickly looks down at his paper from my side of the room.

"What the hell was that??" I whisper.

"Nothing." He growls. I roll my eyes and go back to my work.

~Jackson~

I couldnt help the little growl that escaped me when she groaned and bit her lip. I shift in my seat, trying to fix my issue. I'm thankful when the bell rings because I rush out of class and deside to sit away from Alex in out next one. She seems relieved which darkens my mood greatly. Ugh! When that class is done I storm out to her car to wait for her. My mind drifts to the scent from this morning. A lot of it smelt like Alex but it couldn't have been her since it had other scents mixed in. Alex comes out of the school talking to a guy from the football team. I growl at the sight but stay where I am. She leans against a wall laughing when he leans down to her. She backs up a bit, but he moves forward grabbing her hips. She doesn't hesitate to kick him and move away. He calls out something but I can't tell what. Slamming the door shut she speeds away.

"I'm going out with a few friends tonight." I tell her.

"And I care why?"

"Damn. What's got you in such a bitchy mood?" I huff.

"Why should I care when you're just going to get a good fuck." She turns abruptly making my head hit the window.

"Where the hell did you hear that??"

"You're little friend out there." Is all she says before we end up in her drive way. She storms out of the car with me hot on her trail.

"That's not it! He's an ass! Why do you care anyways??" She turns around in the doorway.

"Just stay the fuck away from me. Here." She throws me her keys before slamming the door. Angry, I go back to her car and speed away. As soon as I'm at the bar they want me at, I know I have to go back. Texting them that something came up, I turn back to the house. As soon as I'm out of the car her scent hits me like a ton of rocks. Holy shit.

 ~Alex~

I watch him speed away and a few minutes later I deside to shower again. Hes going to be gone for a few hours so I can unblock my scent for the time being. Thank God. It felt like a huge weight was lifted off of my shoulders. Quickly showering, I realize I forgot clothes. I wrap my towel tightly around my body and leave the bathroom. I freeze in my tracks as a pair of glowing yellow eyes stare at me from my bed.

"Jacks-" Before I can finish he growls and the next thing I know, hes on top of me laying on my bed while my towel is on the floor. "Jackson..." I choke out.

"You knew." He growls. "You knew and didn't tell me. You let me suffer. You could have made this so much easier." His wolf takes complete control as he flips me onto my stomach. He plants a slap on my bare cheek and I whimper. 

"Jackson..." I say into the pillow. I have the strength to push him off but I dont really want too... He does it again and I accidently moan his name. He flips me back over and lays over me, planting a hungry kiss on my lips. He starts the trail kisses down my throat and I moan again, once he gets to the crook of it. "Jack... Parents..."

"Their gone." He growls, although now its him and not his wolf. I gaze at his hazel eyes as he moves down my body. He looks up at me once he's right where I want him but instead he skips it and continues down my thighs. I groan and his eyes turn a chocolatey brown. He moves back up to my neck and I feel his canines coming out. Its a mix of pain and pleasure and he sinks them into, marking me as his. Going back down, he plants soft kisses on my most sensitive parts before diving into me. I moan as his does so much with his tounge. I feel myself going higher and higher until he suddenly stops. "Not yet." He smiles. I flip us over and kneel on the floor in front of him. Pulling his shirt off I kiss the crook of his next, before marking him as mine. I begin kissing down his chest until I come to his pants which are soon off with his boxers. He moans as I take him in my mouth. Right before he explodes I pull away and lick my lips.

"Mmmm." I groan. He growls in return and pulls me into the bed. We continue on all through the night and all of it was amazing. "Please tell me they werent coming home at all?" I ask him catching my breath.

"No. Which is good. I'm surprised you can still speak after all of the screaming." He winks at me and my cheeks turn bright red. I snuggle closer to him, laying my head between his arm and chest.

"I love you." I whisper.

"I love you too."

 ~Jackson~

She falls asleep in my arms and I soon follow. A few hours later I wake up and the bed is empty. I shoot up but can still smell her scent. Mixed with mine. God, that's the most amazing scent. I look at the door, getting an idea. I lean over the side of her bed and slowly open the drawer. My eyebrows burrow in confusion as I see the orange bottle. I pick it up and read the label... For depression? I deside to ask her when she comes back up. I put the bottle back in the drawer and go to close the drawer but a shimmer catches my eye. I open the drawer again and dig around until my hand hits it. Pulling it out, I see that its a blade. The scent of her blood fills my senses.

'Alex, I need to talk to you.' I tell her knowing her parents are here now. 

'I'll be up in a minute.' She sends back. She soon comes back up, just wearing an over sized hoodie. She closes the door and turns to me but stops when she sees the drawer. Her eyes linger there for a moment before slowly moving them to me.

"J-Jackson... I c-can explain." She says looking at me with fear in her eyes similar to last night.

"There's no explaining needed." I growl back. I jump up and her hoodie is soon on the floor. I grab her arms and hold them out to mine. Scars fill both of her