Secretly Mine by Me =/ (top rated ebook readers TXT) 📕

~Jackson~

Amy and Brooke came over and they were in her room all night. Alex came to talk to me after they fell asleep but went back to her room, much to my dismay. Anyways, that was three weeks ago. Yesterday Brooke asked Amy to be her girlfriend and she said yes. Today is mine and Alex's eighteenth birthday. I wake up and look down at the soon to be woman next to me. After today, this might not happen again. She might find her mate, I might find mine. I study her features before I have to wake her up. Her rosy cheeks, her perfect lips, her cute button nose. 

"Alex." I whisper and watch as her beautiful grey eyes come to view.

"Hey." She smiles at me sleepily. "Happy birthday."

"You too." I respond. She props herself up on her shoulder and sighs.

"A few more hours and I have to be the alpha." She says more to herself than me.

"Hey, look at it this way. You have an awesome beta!" I flip my imaginary long hair over my shoulder and she giggles.

"You dork." She shakes her head and moves from my bed. "I'm gunna go get ready. Meet you downstairs." She leaves the room and I smile. Not because she left, but because she was here. I get ready and go down stairs to find them talking.

"So, you excited to potentially find your mate?" Blair asks.

"No. No boys aloud." Dylan states.

"Oh hush." Blair smacks him on the back of his head.

"Ouch!" He rubs the back of his head.

"I'm nervous. What about J-" Her mom clears her throat before she can finish.

"Sorry, I had something in my thoat. Oh, hi Jackson." She says finally realizing I'm here. "What about you? Are you excited?" 

"Eh." My dad gives me a look and I blush a bit. "We should get going, right?" I look at Alex and she nods. We head out and make it to school a bit early. "So, right after lunch and you'll potentially find your mate, huh." I say breaking the silence no matter how sad it made me. 

"Yeah... You too..." She sighs at the end which makes me curious. 'Probably nothing.' I tell myself.

Stop being sad. You'll have someone better soon. 

'Shut up.' I tell my wolf before blocking him out. We just decide to get out and go to first hour early. As soon as we are out of the car Brooke and Amy are in front of us basically pushing Alex and I together on the trunk of her car.

"Hi... Whats up with you two?" She asks.

"Hey wolfies." Amy smiles.

"Aww you know!" Alex throws her arms around her friends. "Thank you." She whispers.

"For what?" She giggles.

"Accepting us." Brooke and Alex so in sync. They pull away and Alex starts backing up but trips, falling back into me. Her cheeks turn dark red as he straightens up with my help.

"Sorry..." I laugh and tell her it fine before we head to class. Our first three classes and lunch fly by and before we know it, we're talking at her locker.

"One minute until you're an adult. How does it feel?" I hold up an imaginary microphone which she pushes away. "Ouch."

"Five minutes until your an adult. How does it feel?" She mimics me. I roll my eyes and start to say something when her hand flies to her nose. "I- I gotta go!" She runs down the hall way, not caring if she runs into other students here and there. What happened?

 ~Alex~

We joke around for a while until a scent hits me. A familiar scent. Jackson's scent. My hand flies to my nose trying to block it out.

"I- I gotta go!" I run into the bathroom, knocking into multiple students on the way. Holy shit. I just found my mate. My mate is Jackson. I block my scent so that he won't know, since I'm freaking out. I go home, and text Jackson that I'm sick so he'll have to find a ride. I avoid him for the next three days but it's hard. I don't go to school, claiming I am sick but my parents know better. "Mom, can I talk to you?" I ask walking I to the kitchen.

"Sure." We walk to my room and on the way I see Jackson. I gulp and he looks at me hurt... Ugh.

"How did you stay away from dad for so long??" I ask as soon as my door is shut.

"Uhh a lot of self control I guess. Where did that come from?" She laughs.

"Mom I'm going crazy and its been three days." I breakdown.

"Baby, what's going on?" She wraps her arms around me as we sit on my bed.

"Everything. I'm wrong. Wolves shouldn't have depression and OCD and anxiety. Yes I have anxiety too. He'll never want me!" I sob.

"Who won't want you?"

"Jackson..." I admit quietly. "Mom Jackson won't want me when he finds out."

"Baby, he already wants you. You're his best friend. Find out what?"

"Jackson is my mate." 

"Oh honey..." She continues holding me as I almost fall asleep after two nights of no sleep. "It'll be okay..." We stay there for a bit longer before she leaves. I stay in bed until his scent fills the house. When it does, I finally go down stairs, to see if I can handle it.

"Hey." I enter the kitchen and my dad turns to me with a knowing look. Thanks mom.

"Hey sicko. How ya feeling?" He spins an apple in his hands looking at me like nothing is wrong. I guess he doesn't know so...

"Good." I answer, trying my best not to pounce on him right now. Luckily we get through an entire conversation without incident. I continue pressing my boundaries with him for about three months.

"Ugh. I feel like I'm never going to find my mate." He complains. We're in my room sitting on my bed. Well I'm sitting, he's sprawled out on it now for dramatic effect.

"You'll find them some day..." I comfort. God I suck at this. I sigh at myself but he doesn't notice. 

"Anyways, when is the alpha ceremony?" He asks sitting up again and leaning against my footboard as I lean against my headboard. I yawn, exhausted from lack of sleep and masking my scent 24/7. It's a lot of work.

"Sorry. Uhh I'm not quite sure but I think some time in winter or spring." I answer.

"Nice. Ugh. We have school tomorrow." I laugh and nod my head.

"That we do. We should probably head to bed..." I sigh again knowing I won't get much sleep. School has been horrible lately. I can't ever focus, either because of Jackson, sleepiness, or both.

 "Yeah... Hey uh... Would you mind if I slept here tonight? It's okay if you dont want me to I just-"

"Jackson it's fine... Just let me talk to my mom quick." I sigh for the third time in less five minutes. He smiles and nods at me before I leave. "Mom?" I peak my head in my parents bedroom. She looks up at me and then closes her book.

"Hi honey, what's up?" She asks. I go over and sit down on their bed between their legs, so that I'm in the middle.

"Is there a way that I can, mask my scent with another scent? Just for a night?" I asks, looking down at my hands that are awkwardly messing with each other. I look up at my dad and he looks deep in thought.

"I suppose if we drenched you in another smell he wouldnt be able to recognize you. This is about Jackson right?" He asks. When I nod, he asks, "Why are you still hiding it from him?" 

"I'm scared... Plus mom hid it from you for longer than I did." I raise an eyebrow at him and he nods.

"Point taken. Let's go mess up your scent." He says jumping out of bed. My mom and I laugh at him before following him. 

~Jackson~

As I wait for her to come back, I must have sighed 20 times. I'm never going to find my mate. I smell hint of something at weird hours of the night but never enough to identify it. Ugh! I bet Alex found her mate the first day and just isn't telling me out of pity. She comes back in the room and I look over at her.

"You've found your mate, havent you? You just arent telling me because you feel bad that I can't find mine." I spit out before I can stop myself 

"W-what are you t-talking about?" She asks me with fear in her eyes.

"Lex, if you found him just tell me. It's fine. I haven't found mine but that shouldn't have to be without him. Now, who is he?"

"Jackson, I would tell you if I found my mate. No one would replace you. I wouldn't not tell you out of pity." She says walking over to the bed. I sigh out of relief. I won't lose her... No matter how much it kills me to see her with someone else. "Let's head to sleep." She suggests. I nod and move over to one side of the bed. She lays down next to me and I end up draping my arm over her stomach. She relaxes instantly which is a bit confusing but I suppose its just because her... Protector..? I guess that's the best way to put it... Is here.

"Good night." I tell her.

"Good night." The last thing I remember before falling asleep is her snuggling closer to me.