Tears by Reylinn Sutcliff (spiritual books to read TXT) 📕

(A/N: Hehehe..... I had fun writing this. I hope you guys enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it. OH and I have an idea for the ending of this fanfiction that you guys are gonna love. Anyhow, keep reading, and PLEAAAAAASE write reviews!!! They keep me writing!!)

 The next morning, Len wakes up and runs to the bathroom. Quickly lifting the lid on the toilet, Len kneels onto the floor and vomits repeatedly. Once he is finished, he flushes, then sits down, his back to the wall. He puts his face in his hands.

"Idiot...." He mutters to himself. He sighs heavily, and then stands up, exiting the bathroom. He walks downstairs and into the kitchen, opening the fridge and grabbing a can of ginger ale. He pops it open and takes a sip, walking over to the table and sitting down. Staring blankly in front of him, he shakes his head.

"What the Hell.... Len, what have you gotten yourself into?" He says aloud to himself, referring to the things he admitted last night. He remembers everything clearly. Getting drunk with Kaito. Kaito leaving. Going upstairs. Breaking down. Len sighs and closes his eyes.

"Oh Rin.... I wish you were here...." He whispers.

A moment later, he hears his phone ringing in the other room. Leaving his ginger ale on the table, he gets up and shuffles to the living room. He moves a couple of pillows and finds his phone, screen glowing. He picks it up and answers it.

"Hello?" Len says, running his free hand through his hair.

"Len? Len is that you?" Luka's clear, beautiful voice rings out on the other end, a light tremor in it. Len cocks his head to one side.

"Yeah, it's me. What's wrong?" He asks, his eyebrows knitting together in curiousity and confusion.

"It's Kaito, Len..... He....." Her voice gets really soft, and she speaks in a whisper. "He committed suicide." A shiver goes through Len's body, and he feels goosebumps popping up all over his arms.

"What?" Len asks in disbelief. "How?" He bites his lip and shakes his head.

"He put a gun in his mouth and.... he.... he left a suicide note...." Luka started reading it out loud to Len.

Dear Friends and Family,
I am very sorry. I took the cowards way out.

But I cannot stand to live on this planet anymore.

I can't be without Miku.

It was this, or drink myself to the grave.

I figured this would be quicker. I love all of you.

Stay strong.

I'll see you on the other side.

Len mouths the word "No" to himself.

"I have to go.... his burial will be on the same day as Miku's.... I just figured that I should tell you." Luka says. Her voice is thick and full of tears. She hangs up, and Len drops his phone. Tears fill his eyes, and he wipes them away.

"Why the hell does everyone keep dying?! Why a I losing everyone I love?!" Len screams to the Heavens, his hands balled in fists and his teeth clenched. He turns and punches a wall. He punches once, twice, three times with both fists. Both of his fists are now ripped up and bleeding, but he continues punching. If he stops, he might just lose his sanity.

He scream with pain, rage, and sorrow.

"Rin better not die too! Or I might just end up like Kaito!"

(A/N:
Ehehe.... sorry for the feels XD Don't worry, though. The end is coming soon, (in about two or three chapters), and I plan to have an amazing ending. So no need to fret.... maybe. Leave reviews, download, and fave ^-^ Keep reading and being awesome!)

 Len woke up screaming. Tearing at the bed sheets, he jumped out of bed. He looked around and gained control of himself. Running his fingers through his hand, he took a deep breath and remembered everything that happened yesterday. Right after Luka had called, he took his old paint can bag out of the closet and went down town.

Then, he made art.

Illegally.

He used to do this frequently. Then, Rin found out about his bad boy side, and she freaked out. Len gave everything up- the drugs, the fighting, and the graffiti. But yesterday, something inside of him snapped. So he had to go and find a way to relax.

Len looks down at his hands and sighs. They have ink all over them. Walking to the bathroom, he pulls his shirt off and throws it on the floor.

"It's a wonder I didn't get caught...." He mutters, looking at himself in the mirror. There are ink smudges on his face and neck, as well. Len gets a wash cloth and puts it under the water, letting it become wet. Then he cleans himself up. He walks back to his bedroom and pulls on a clean white t-shirt and a pair of black jeans. Then, he grabs a hair tie and pulls his hair up into it's usual messy pony tail. He glances at the clock and nods.

"It's time to visit Rinny."

Len jogs downstairs, grabs a cold piece of pizza out of the fridge, slips on his sneakers, and walks out the door. He eats the pizza as he walks down the street.

Passing the park, he glances over at a bench. A young couple sits on it, holding hands and teasing each other. Len feels his eyes becoming damp, and quickly looks away. Every couple or pair of siblings he sees reminds him of Rin. Her high pitched giggle. Her light touch. He bright smile. Her stupid jokes. Her violent side.

Len starts running to the hospital, eager to get to his sister. After about five minutes of running at full speed, Len makes it to the front doors of the hospital. His legs burning, he goes inside and walks to the counter.

"Rin.... R-rin Kagamine?" He asks, trying desperately to breath. The lady behind the desk finishes whatever she is typing, then looks up at him and sighs, as though his question is asking too much and she doesn't have time for him.

"She isn't able to have visitors right now. Please come back later." Her voice is nasally, and it irritates Len. He feels himself becoming angry.

"I will see her. Now." Len says. Worry for Rin bubbles up inside of him, and he finds it is becoming increasingly difficult to swallow. The tall, dark haired doctor that Len talked to just the other day appears from behind the woman.

"Yes, let the boy go." He says. He gives Len a sympathetic look, and Len's heart nearly leaps out of his chest. The doctor leads Len back to Rins room, and as soon as Len walks in, he senses that something is wrong. Rin's skin looks pastier than before, and Len can hear her ragged breathing. Len looks up at the doctor.

"Her vitals are falling. We are going to take her off of the breather tomorrow and if she can't breath on her own..." The man's words trail off. Len's heartbeat speeds up.

"No.... no.... You can't do that!" Goosebumps break out all over Len's skin, and he shivers. Tears gather in his eyes, but he doesn't even notice his vision becoming blurry. The doctor sighs.

"We have no choice." He says in a soft voice meant for dealing with children. Len growls.

"Get. Out." The doctor steps out of the doorway and Len closes the door. Then, he walks over to Rin and grabs her hand. It's freezing.

Her chest moves up and down mechanically, and Len bites his lip.

"I love you, Rin..."

I'm losing you, Rin.

(A/N:
Two more chapters, guys. Are you ready for this? Cx I'm not. Keep reading, fave, and leave reviews!!)

Len has been in the hospital room all day. Nurses and doctors come in and out to check on Rin and offer Len a kind word or two every hour. Len mumbles responses, barely aware of anything but the heavy feeling in his chest.

He is losing Rin and there is nothing he can do about it.

He can't save her.

He can't make her better.

And it is tearing him apart.

Len paces back and forth at the foot of Rin's bed. Every so often, he glances at Rin. She doesn't change. She has dark circles around her eyes. Her skin is pale, almost a yellowish color. Her lips are chapped and thin. Her hair lies pasted to her skull, looking limp and lifeless- just like Rin herself.

"Hey, Rin. Hang in there, okay? It'll all be okay." Len says, assuring himself more than his comatose twin. He takes a deep breath and goes back to pacing.

"Do you want a banana for breakfast? Or.... how about a banana?"

Len hears Rin's words echo in his head. The words she spoke just an hour before she got in the crash. An hour before she slipped from Len's fingers.

Len stops pacing, frozen in the spot he stands in. His arms are crossed across his chest, and his face is pulled into a look of grief. Only Rin can save herself now. Without thinking, Len runs over to Rin's bedside and grabs her hand, squeezing it gently but firmly.

"Rin. Rinny I know you are in there. I know you are. You have always been someone to fight. Fight for everything. And now, you are in the middle of the biggest battle you will ever have to fight. The fight for your life. And only you can fight this battle. Nobody can help you. So I need you, please, for me Rinny, I need you to fight like Hell. I need you to summon all the strength you have and fight. I can't live without you. I can't." Len bites his lip to keep the tears from falling. He has to be strong, too. For Rin. So she can fight.

Rin's