Tears by Reylinn Sutcliff (spiritual books to read TXT) 📕

"Len, you should sit down." He says in a soft voice. Len obeys, and goes to sit in the arm chair he fell asleep in only a few days earlier. He looks up at Dr. Rossen, an expression of curiosity crossing his face.

"What is it?" Len asks.

"Well, you see, you have a choice. We can keep Rin on the breather for another five days. But... it may be very bad for her. She might start to depend fully on the breather. And not be able to breath for herself.... ever. Which would result in certain death one way or another. But if we take her off tomorrow, there is a chance she may breath by herself. Yes, it is a slight chance. Very slim. I hate to be so blunt, but I must. But.... I just wanted to let you know that you have a choice." Dr. Rossen tells Len, his voice low but fast paced.

"So.... if you take her off tomorrow.... she might breath? But if she doesn't, she will die? And if we keep her on the breather.... we give her five more days to wake up.... but if she doesn't wake up.... she dies for sure?" Len asks, his voice shaking slightly.

Dr. Rossen nods solemnly. Len looks up at the ceiling and sighs.

"How long do I have to consider my decision?" Len asks.

"Until tomorrow. And we will allow you to stay the night." Dr. Rossen tells Len. Len nods and looks back at the doctor.

"Okay. Let me sleep on it, then." He says. With a small nod, the doctor turns and leaves the room.

There is a win and a lose in each situation.... but situation should I put my hope in?

(A/N:
So..... the next chapter is going to be the end. I don't think I am ready, guys. Are you? I mean, really. This is.... yeah. My first BR fic.... ending. I hope you guys have been enjoying this ride as much as I have. So many feels, though. *sighs* Well.... thanks for reading. Hope to hear from you in the last chapter ^.^)

It's mid day, and Len sits in the chair, drinking a cup of coffee. He didn't sleep at all last night. He sat in the chair next to Rin's bed and thought hard about everything.

What would Rin do if the roles were switched?

He keeps asking himself the same question over and over again. He takes a sip of his coffee and glances over at Rin. She hasn't moved. Nothing about her has changed. She has showed no signs of recovery. Len looks back at the floor, the cup of coffee still resting against his lips.

Would she let me go? Probably.

Len sighs. Rin would let him go. She would want to end his suffering. She is selfless and caring. She would miss him, yeah. But she would let him go.

He looks back at Rin and stares at her, he eyes taking in everything about her. Her blond hair that now looks like a pale yellow color. Like yellowing pages in an old book. Her cheeks are hollow, and no blush graces them. Her mouth is slack and in one straight, thin line. Her body looks small, frail, and shriveled up. Like that of an old, dying woman. Len knows he should let her go. He knows she would be better off.... in a better place.

Dr. Rossen walks in and pulls a chair up. He sits across from Len and doesn't say anything for a few seconds. Finally, he speaks.

"Len.... I am afraid it is time to make a choice." He says, looking Len directly in the eyes. Uncomfortable, Len looks away from the doctors stare.

"I.... I don't...." Len wipes his eyes with the back of his hand and sighs. "I don't know." He whispers, his voice cracking slightly. Dr. Rossen nods, as though he can relate to everything Len is going through.

"I know it's difficult. Trust me. I have seen a lot of people break down at this point and not know what to do. But you are strong, Len. You wont break down, right? You can make a choice. And it will be the right choice." Dr. Rossen says. His voice is soft but firm, and gives Len the slightest bit of courage.

"Can I have about ten more minutes?" Len asks. His voice wavers slightly.

"Yes.... but that's all. We can't stretch this out any farther. I believe in you, Len." The doctor stands up and leaves the room. Len walks over to his sisters bed and tucks her hair behind her ear. Then, he leans down and kisses her on the lips gently. Her lips are cold and clammy against Len's warm, soft lips. Len pulls away and stares down at Rin.

"I have to make a choice. And... I think I am going to have to let go.... l-let go of you Rin. I w-wanted you to fight but.... go be with.... go be with mom and... d-dad.... I love you, Rin.... More than just a sister. I know that's wrong, but I... I can't help it. And I figured I should say it before they.... b-before they..." Len can't finish his sentence. He is trying to fight back tears, but he finds it to be difficult. Every time he blinks them away, they just come back in seconds. He bites his lip, hard, and turns away. Closing his eyes, he tilts his head up and takes a deep breath, waiting for Dr. Rossen to re-enter the room.

***

Dr. Rossen walks in. Len stands at the foor of Rin's bed, his eyes closed, his hands shoved into his pockets, and tears clinging to his long eye lashes.

"Have you made your decision?" Dr. Rossen asks, even though he already knows the answer. Len nods, his eyes still closed.

"Yeah. I'm going to... let her go. You can unplug her." Len says. His voice gets caught in his throat and he bites his lower lip again. He opens his eyes and looks at Dr. Rossen. He nods again, then walks straight past him and out of the room. He knows what Dr. Rossen is about to do, and he doesn't want to be there when Rin takes her final breaths. Dr.Rossen told Len yesterday that he was positive that Rin would not breath. Len knew he was right. Rin was too far gone. Len walks down the hall, looking down at the ground. His hands are shoved into his jacket pockets. Len listens to the noises around his as he walks, trying to push out the thought of his sister lying dead in a casket. His beautiful Rin. Dead.

I couldn't protect her.

I couldn't keep her away from death.

I have failed.

I broke my promise.

Len clenches his hands into fists inside his pockets and digs his nails into his palms and bites his tongue, walking faster. He hears a little girl run past him, laughing. Len thinks of Rin's laugh and tears flood his vision.

That's when he hears it.

A high pitched voice behind him, pure and sweet. It sounds a little crackly and soft. But he hears it nonetheless.

"Len? L-len? I fought. I fought for you."

Len turns around, not breathing. At first, he thinks he is just imagining things. But there stands Rin, still in a nightgown. Dr.Rossen stands behind her, a look of astonishment plastered across his face.

"I love you too, Len."

And that us when falls to his knees and sobs the tears that he has tried to hold back for so long.

He kept her alive. He kept his promise. Rin is alive.

(A/N: GUYS IT'S OVER AND I HAVE GOOSEBUMPS!!! I AM CRYING! So, what did you think of the ending? Leave reviews, fave, share, read again, idc just..... *cries a river* Just keep being awesome, guys. And don't forget to check out some of my other works. TT_TT)

Text: Reylinn Sutcliff
Images: suzunosuke
Editing: Erik Powers
Publication Date: 08-15-2015

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Dedication:
Dedicated to Raven Henry- the biggest Rin and Len Kagamine fan I have ever met.