His Despair by S. N. Nina Arthur (e textbook reader txt) 📕

Davina’s Pov:-

“Wh-When I signed the D-Divorce papers,” I said and swallowed the lump formed in my throat. I glanced at him and saw him looking at me confused, “Tell me clearly,” He said through his teeth. 

I swallowed hard, “She accompanied Olivia when I signed the divorce papers,” I said, looking at him, I noticed him clenching his jaw when I said that. 

“She-She was there... supporting Olivia’s and...Allen’s relationship.” I said while controlling my tears. He moved back while lowering his head and looking at the floor, He grabbed my hand and pulled me away from the door. He walked out of the room while slamming the door shut. 

 I glanced at the door while tears rolled down my cheek, I sat down on the edge of the bed while looking at the floor. All those things she said to me that day rushed back to my mind,

Allen doesn’t love you, Davina, he loves Olivia… her voice echoed in my ear. I closed my eyes and bit my lower lip while looking at the ceiling. 

You can’t live happily with him… knowing he loves someone else and has a child with her! Her venomous words were playing in my head. It hurts to remember how she sided with them without even feeling guilty about it, it hurts to know that she was also a woman and has a husband, how can she do that. 

She’s Arthur’s mother, what might be running in his mind now. He definitely looked hurt when you said that to him, My subconscious stated. 

Yeah, why did she support Olivia instead of her own son? And the way Arthur behaved at the dinner was clear that he knew she supported Olivia. Oh god! What might he have gone through when he discovered that his own mother supported Olivia’s affair behind his back. 

How can she do that? Why? No one can ever justify cheating and whatever Olivia and Allen did had torn relations and broke one’s trust in love and marriage. One mistake has destroyed my life and also Arthur’s. Now I understand why he is like this, he’s hurt, betrayed and heartbroken. 

Maybe he was a good man before whatever happened to him, maybe he couldn’t bear the pain Oliva has caused him and perhaps the pain has turned him into a monster. No one’s born this way, something must have happened to them or situations made them the way they are. 

When this thought ran in my mind, my legs began working on their own. I was now searching for Arthur and I don’t know why I was doing that, but I had this strong desire deep inside which wants me to see him and make sure he’s okay. I don’t know why I care, after whatever he did to me. I guess, I’m not a person who would be happy to leave someone in their misery. 

I walked up to his study and knocked on the door, No answer, where is he? I walked to the living room and saw Coop talking to someone on the phone. I walked to him, noticing me he hung up on the call and turned to me, 

“Yes, Miss. Ellis,” he said, 

“Where is Arthur?” I asked, 

“I saw him walking out of the mansion, but I don’t know where he went,” he replied, 

He went out! what if he does something to himself out of anger? He does impulsive things when He’s angry. 

I pushed my hair back in tension, “Coop, do you know where he goes when he’s angry?” I asked, 

He thought for a sec before answering, “Yes, I know,” 

“Can you take me there,” I asked, 

“Yes, please,” he said while gesturing to me to follow him. I nodded my head and began following him outside. 

Why are you so desperate to see him, Davina? My subconscious questioned. 

Did you forget what he did to you? Let him suffer, let him drown in his misery, why do you care? 

I don’t know! I replied back because I genuinely don’t know why I care, I don’t have answers to all these questions and I hate myself for being this way. 

Coop opened the car door for me and I quickly climbed in, he shut the car door and walked to the driver seat. He quickly drove us out of the mansion. I was feeling restless and I don’t know why, 

“Miss Ellis, are you alright?” Coop asked while keeping his eyes on the road. 

“I’m alright,” I replied while looking at him, he nodded his head. 

He stopped the car in front of a bar, “This belongs to Mr. Spencer, he comes here when he’s angry,” he said while unbuckling the seat belt. I glanced at the club while unbuckling my seat belt, Coop opened the car door for me and I stepped out of the car. 

He closed the door and led me inside the club, as soon as I stepped inside, the smell of different colognes, drinks and smoke hit my nose. The music was playing loudly and there were so many people dancing on the floor, sitting at the bar, some were making out at the corners. 

Coop led me to the stairs which were at the corner of the club, we climbed up and walked towards a separate section which had a VIP tag and was guarded by two bodyguards standing on either side of the entrance. One of the bodyguards looked at Coop in acknowledgement and nodded his head. 

He opened the door for us and led us in, it had a separate club inside with men and women sitting on couches and having their drinks, some were dancing on the dance floor. This section wasn’t crowded and people here looked rich. 

Of course, it’s a VIP section, My subconscious commented.  

As I looked around, I spotted Arthur sitting at the bar, “There he is!” Said Coop pointing at Arthur. I walked towards him and when I got closer to him I saw a woman sitting near him, way too close to him. She was wearing a revealing red dress, which was very revealing to my liking. She was trying desperately to get his attention, but he was ignoring her and gulping the glass of alcohol one after the other.