His Despair by S. N. Nina Arthur (e textbook reader txt) 📕

Davina’s Pov:- 

I closed my eyes while moving my hand to the back of his head and kissed him back, he placed his hand over my chin and wiped my tears away while kissing me. He pulled away and stared into my eyes, we both were breathing hard and kept staring into each other's eyes. 

A comfortable silence fell in between us, no one spoke anything and he sighed deeply before pulling me closer to him while his arm around my waist, it felt nice laying this way with him and all of a sudden a vision flashed in front of my eyes. A vision of me and Allen doing the same thing, sleeping in the same position and all of a sudden uneasiness filled me. 

I want to get away from him, but how can I do that without upsetting him, he will do what he wants and I have to obey it as per the contract. I gulped hard not knowing what to do, 

Give an excuse and get away from him, My subconscious replied. 

Okay, but what excuse, I asked myself and something hit my mind.

“I… need to change my clothes,” I murmured without looking at him, anxious to hear his reply. I felt him take a deep breath, I glanced up at him and saw him looking at me curiously. 

He slowly moved his arm away from me, freeing me from his hold, I slowly sat up and climbed off the bed and made my way towards the door. I could feel his eyes watching me which made me almost run out of the room.  

I walked to my room and shut the door behind me, I leaned my back to the door and placed my hand over my chest while controlling my breathing. Tears rolled down my cheek as I closed my eyes, I took a deep breath and wiped my tears. I walked to the bathroom and washed my face and changed my clothes. 

I climbed onto my bed and pulled the blanket over me, whatever Arthur said thinking me as Olivia rushed back to me, 

“I don’t want to live like her…. I don’t… dying every second in your memories and getting hurt over and over again… I don’t want to live like that,” 

I sighed deeply and closed my eyes, I should stop remembering Allen and move on with my life but it’s getting hard day by day before I used to keep myself busy with work so that I could forget him and what he did to me but now, it’s getting hard. 

As all this was running in my mind I heard my door being open and footsteps coming closer to my bed, I shut my eyes tighter as I gripped the blanket hard. I felt him climbing on my bed and moving under my blanket.

His hot breath hit my shoulder making a shiver run down my spine, He wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me closer to him. I could feel his hard chest against my back and his steady breath, “Relax and sleep,” he said in his husky voice making his chest vibrate against my back. 

Relax Davina, My subconscious said and I found myself relaxing a bit and moving closer to him letting his warmth fill my body.

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I woke up feeling his hot breath hitting my face, I slowly opened my eyes and came face to face with his lips which were very inviting as he was sleeping peacefully. I glanced at myself and widened my eyes when I took in our position. 

My leg was on his waist and my hand was laying on his right nipple, I slowly removed it from there, my head was on his shoulder and his hand was comfortably resting on my butt. If I try to move away I will wake him up, I glanced at his face, he was sleeping soundly. I slowly moved my leg from him and moved my head from his shoulder while my hair back. 

He groaned and opened his eyes, I stopped moving and looked at him in panic, he blinked while trying to adjust to the sunlight coming from the window, “What are you doing?” he asked in his morning voice which was a lot sexier, spent a shiver down my spine. 

“I-I,” I stuttered, he looked at me in confusion and glanced down at our position, when his eyes moved back at mine I quickly looked away. In just a blink of an eye, he flipped me over and climbed on top of me, I gasped and looked at him, shocked at his sudden action. 

“Arthur,” I whispered when I noticed lust in his eyes, I placed my hands on his bare chest and pushed me, “Get off me,” I said but he grabbed my hands and pinned them over my head. I was breathing hard and I sucked in when I felt his boner poking my belly, a smirk formed on his lips when he noticed my reaction.   

He chuckled while moving away from me, it confused me, I stared at him in confusion as he climbed off my bed. He walked towards the door and glanced at me before walking out of my room. 

What’s wrong with him?

I got up from the bed and did my morning routines, I dressed up and walked towards the kitchen. 

“Miss Ellis,” I heard Coop calling me from behind, 

I turned around, “Mr. Spencer said he wants to have breakfast at the dining table,” he said and I nodded my head at him. I walked to the dining table, sat down on my chair and waited for Arthur to join while the maids began placing the dishes on the dining table. I turned towards the stairs and saw Arthur walking towards the stairs, he was dressed in a black suit without a tie, It made him look hot. I gulped and looked away, control yourself, Davina. 

He walked to the dining table and sat on the head chair, from the corner of my eye I saw him glancing at me while sitting down. The maids began serving us breakfast, and I dug in. 

Remember you have to ask him about work, my subconscious reminded me and I sighed internally. I glanced at him and saw him peacefully having his breakfast. Ask him, Davina I said to myself and cleared my throat.