His Despair by S. N. Nina Arthur (e textbook reader txt) 📕

Davina’s Pov:- 

“What the hell,” I muttered under my breath in pure annoyance, the file had five pages of rules and regulations and where she is allowed to go and where she’s not allowed. My head spins while I read them, it’s pure nonsense. He basically allowed her only to enter the living room, kitchen, my bedroom and her’s, that’s it and garden, nowhere else. What’s wrong with him?  How can someone put these many ridiculous rules?

She is not allowed to come in front of me when I come home? She is not allowed to roam around my room? She is not allowed to… bluh bluh bluh bluh!

This is very childish, I have to talk to him about this, She’s a kid for god sake and who puts these many rules she will feel suffocated with these rules and it would be impossible for her to live here. I have to ask him to change them, at least reduce the number of rules. I sighed while turning the papers and sitting down on the couch, biting my lower lip in frustration. 

Although I know he hates kids but that doesn’t allow him to suffocate them by putting these stupid rules, she’s abused and scared, I want her to open up to me and talk to me, his rules will spoil it all instead of opening up she could get suffocated and decides to leave as she did before. 

I have to talk to him, I thought and got up from the couch while closing the file and placing it on the coffee table, making my way to my bedroom. As I opened the bedroom door, my eyes directly landed on the empty bed causing me to panic, I rushed to the bed and saw it empty. I looked around, “April,” I called but there was no response. 

Where is she? Oh god! Where did she go? 

I immediately glanced at the washroom and saw the door closed, quickly I opened it and saw it empty. 

Jesus, where is she? I panicked, 

Look under the bed! Maybe she’s hiding? My subconscious said. 

I turned around and bent down to see under my bed, I gasped when I saw her curled into a ball and covering her ears shutting her eyes tightly. 

“April!” I called out but she didn’t respond and kept covering her ears. 

“April it’s me, Davina,” I called while extending my hand towards her trying to reach her but she was far and my hand couldn’t reach her. 

“Come on, Take my hand,” I said desperately while trying to reach but she didn’t respond. 

“It’s okay, April, It’s me, Davina, Take my hand,” I asked but she didn’t respond to that either. 

Try something, think Davina! Think!  And something hit me, I looked at her while taking a deep breath, calming myself.  

“April,” I called but she didn’t respond. 

“Take my hand, NOW!” I commanded in an authoritative tone and what she did shocked me. She looked up at me and immediately took my hand with a fearful expression on her face, I slowly pulled her out and lifted her up. 

I gazed at her face and saw her looking down, I swallowed the lump formed in my throat and placed her on the bed. I sat beside her and looked down at her while pushing her hair out of her face. I made her look at me gently, I smiled at her trying to ease her fear. 

“Please don’t hide from me like that,” I said, smiling at her, “I won’t hurt you,” I spoke, taking her small hands in mine, “I promise,” I said while kissing her knuckles. She just stared at me, there was no fear in her beautiful eyes and it somehow calmed me. I pulled her to my lap and hugged her, kissing her on the head. 

“Come, You need to brush your teeth,” I said and lifted her up, I took her to my bathroom and gave her a toothbrush and put toothpaste on it before giving it to her and gestured to brush her teeth. 

She stared at the brush as if she never saw it before which confused me, “What happened, April?” I asked her in confusion. Her eyes moved from the toothbrush to mine and back to the brush. I bent down to her height and took her face in my hands, “April,” I called while stroking her hair. 

“Brush your teeth, sweetheart,” I said while smiling at her, but she just stared at my face as if I was speaking a foreign language. 

What is wrong with her? Why isn’t she taking the brush? Why is she staring at the brush like she never saw it before? 

“April?” I called while maintaining the smile, 

“Do you know what this is?” I asked while showing her the brush, I was anxious and something inside me made me scared of her answer and I don’t know why. 

She looked at me and slowly shook her head, what! I glanced at the brush and went back to her. I swallowed the lump formed in my throat and tried to smile at her.  

I explained to her about the toothbrush and helped her brush her teeth, and showered her. I dressed her up into a Yellow & Pink Printed, Halter-Neck, A-Line Dress and combed her hair. She looked so cute in that dress. I lifted her up and placed a kiss on her cheek and walked out of my bedroom. 

I fed her breakfast and had mine. After breakfast, I asked Coop to arrange an appointment with the doctor for April’s health check-up. I wanted to know about her health and why she is behaving like that, maybe he can tell me about her condition and help me with her. Coop said that he will ask Arthur and will do it as soon as possible.    

I took April for shopping after having breakfast, I bought a few clothes for her and the toys she liked. I kept asking her to choose what she likes but she never opened her mouth and I ended up buying what I think she likes. We had lunch in a restaurant and headed back home after buying everything for her, Coop drove us back home and helped me place her things in her room.