His Despair by S. N. Nina Arthur (e textbook reader txt) 📕

Davina’s Pov:- 

“It’s a long story,” he said while looking into my eyes, still maintaining the serious expression. I just stared at him waiting patiently to tell me why he hates kids so much. Something must have surely happened, which made him hate kids. 

He took a deep breath, “I will make it short,” he said and there was irritation in his voice. 

Maybe he hates remembering that, my subconscious said in my head. 

Probably! I replied. 

“My mother held a big birthday party when I was 17 years old… and she invited every single friend of hers to the party…” he began and I tried hard to ignore our closeness and concentrate on what he’s saying. 

Jesus! Why is it so difficult controlling myself when I’m this close to him…

Arthur’s Pov:- 

I hate that day, just by remembering that event makes my body shiver in disgust. My hatred for kids has begun from that eventful night which I can never forget in my life. I stared at her beautiful baby brown eyes while I kept touching her soft and rosy cheek, “...including my aunt Anne… she had a 1-year-old baby girl with her and my mother asked her to bring her too... Anne stays out of the county and my mother misses her a lot... she was at her parent’s house at that time... which was not far from our house...“ I said while staring into her eyes. 

I could see her, listening with great interest in her eyes, it’s funny how I always find myself wanting to touch her and I don’t know why? It never happened to me before and it’s very confusing to me. Her intoxicating body smell always pulls me to her, making me want to stay close to her to control myself and surprisingly, it somehow relaxes me. 

It’s strange!

“... after cutting my birthday cake… everyone got busy… chatting, laughing and enjoying themselves... “ I continued, while my fingers rolled a strand of her soft dark brown hair between them, she seemed to not notice what my fingers were doing as she kept staring at me, listening to what I am saying. 

“... Anne called me and asked to help her with the baby… I took her to my bedroom… her baby! Her name was Lexi I guess… whatever! She began crying nonstop… Anne asked me to hold Lexi while she began removing Lexi’s diaper… as she removed that diaper off… baby thought it was the right time and… she peed on me…” I said with clear disgust in my voice as that event flashed in front of my eyes. 

“Before I could react to that… she pottied on me…” I said while gritting my teeth, and before I could continue I saw her lips slightly moving upwards. I glared at her while raising an eyebrow at her, challenging her to laugh, but she didn’t react to my glare and burst out and laughed. she was laughing like an adorable kid, I swear even the birds would shut up to hear her beautiful laughter emerging and filling the air with those gorgeous sounds coming from deep in her chest as if her gentle sound could make the lamplight more golden and the fires burn warmer.

Her melody voice and her beautiful face somehow made me warm inside, she looks adorable when she laughs. Her baby face always made her very attractive among others, the way her rosy cheeks shine when she cries and laughs makes her more attractive. I quietly placed my elbows on the arm of the chair and rested my chin on my palm, I watched her laugh while closing her eyes and throwing her head up, placing her hand over her pink cupid’s bow lips. 

Something inside me wants to make her laugh more often, to watch her laugh, listen to her laughter and I don’t know why I want to do that! 

What the fuck Arthur! Control your fucking hormones! She’s Davina! Allen’s wife for god sake… 

I shook my thoughts and before I could do something to stop her, she slowly stopped laughing and cleared her throat. She looked away from me while controlling her laughter, I watched her take a deep breath, closing her eyes while placing the back of her hand over her mouth. 

“Sor-sorry,” she said quietly and looked at me, I raised an eye at her with a serious expression on my face and tried to intimidate her. 

“That wasn’t funny!” I said in a serious tone while staring into her brown orbs, I noticed slight fear in them which satisfied my ego. 

“Sorry… Go on,” She said in a low voice, 

“....” I stared at her face for a while before opening my mouth, “...when she did that… my cousin recorded it… that video somehow became very popular… and everyone in my school began making fun of me…” I said while looking at her closely, I could see her swallowing quietly.  

I tried to control my smirk and moved closer to her until my nose touched her, “And...that’s why I hate kids…” I said in a low voice, I noticed her unstable breathing and smirked looking into her eyes. 

“I-I understand,” She replied and my eyes moved to her kissable lips, they were so inviting, asking me to kiss them.  

No Arthur! Control yourself! My subconscious yelled inside my head. 

I swallowed hard while trying to control this sudden hunger inside me, which was making me hungry like a fucking vampire’s thrust for blood. 

“It must be…” She began saying but I cut her off by slamming my lips against her. They taste so sweet like sugar and strawberries, making me want to taste them again and again like a drug addict, the sudden hunger inside me began to disappear making me feel bliss and warmth settled inside my heart.