His Despair by S. N. Nina Arthur (e textbook reader txt) 📕

Davina’s Pov:- 

Punishments? Previous actions? I gulped hard while staring at him confused and also terrified. I don’t know what punishments he was talking about, but something in the way he was looking at me made it clear what type of punishments he was talking about. 

“A-Arthur… I didn’t d-do anything” I stuttered while placing my hands on his chest and tried my best to control my breathing but I couldn’t. 

“You-you’re hurting me,” I choked a sob while saying that, I couldn’t control the pain anymore, I can’t control the pain he’s inflicting on me. His eyes moved towards his hand which was gripping my arm painfully, he quickly removed it and glared at me. I glanced down at the place he gripped my hand and saw red fingers marks, it was so dark that I’m sure this may turn into an ugly bruise tomorrow. 

I glanced at him while biting my lower lip in pain, I don't know what to say or react, the hate he had for me is confusing. I don’t know why he hates me and why he is doing this to me. I never met him nor did I do anything to him then why? Why does he hate me so much? Whatever happened between him and Allen doesn’t involve me! I had nothing to do with what he did! Then why me? Why? 

I took a deep breath trying to control myself, if he wants to punish me, then he has to tell me the reason for the punishment! Even if I’m his slave and he's my master, I have a right to know the reason why I’m getting the punishment. 

I looked at him, “Why?” I asked with a calm expression on my face, his eyebrows furrowed in confusion. 

“You broke one of my rules?” he gritted his teeth while glaring at me, 

“Which rule?” I asked immediately, he clenched his jaw in anger. 

“You have to follow whatever I say without asking questions! and... you didn’t follow that…. The rules were clear, she shouldn’t be out of her room when I come back home and what the fuck was she doing out in the living room!” he yelled on my face making me flinch at his tone. 

“The file you gave me was rules and regulations for April… not for me! You asked me to take it and I did! I read every single rule you mentioned there….” I said while letting tears roll down my cheek. 

“I let her stay in the living room… because I wanted to talk to you about her! About the rules!” I said in a broken voice. 

“And you…” I said while looking into his eyes, “You’re not even ready to listen about it!” I said, 

“Because I don’t fucking care… I don’t care about you… nor do I care about her,” he replied immediately making my heart clenched. I swallowed the lump formed inside my throat while I stared into his eyes. 

“Then let me go…” I yelled in frustration and hurt,  “I don’t want to stay here!” I sobbed while shaking my head. 

“...I… I don’t feel safe with you, Arthur,” I said in a weak and defeated voice, “I can’t live like this… always thinking of what you might do… to me!” I cried while looking into his eyes, “... I don’t know why you hate me so much… and why… you treat me this way!” I continued, 

“I can’t live in constant fear… the hatred I see in your eyes when you look at me!” I stared into his eyes and saw a glint of hurt but he covered it up, “...Scares me,” I said with a sob. 

“Please…” I cried, he stared at me with a blank expression. There was no anger in his eyes anymore, and before I could say anything he took my hand in his and pulled it up. I gasped and glanced at his hand which was holding my hand, my eyes moved to his with fear evident in my eyes. 

He turned around and dragged me with him to his bed, he sat on the edge of the bed and looked up at me. “Bring that chair over here,” he ordered, I glanced at the chair placed at the coffee table in the sitting area. I looked back at him and slowly turned around, as I walked to the chair there were a lot of questions running in my mind. 

What is he going to do now? 

I slowly pulled the char towards him and placed it in front of him with a good distance in between, “Sit down!” He ordered. I swallowed hard and slowly sat on the chair. 

After 15 minutes. 

There was complete silence in the room, he kept staring at me while I sat there and did everything to not meet his eyes. I don’t know what was running in his mind and why he wasn’t saying anything but I was very nervous. 

“Tell me,” he said suddenly making me jump in surprise, 

“What!” I asked, confused.

“About the rules!” He said while raising an eyebrow. I stared at him in surprise, he’s ready to listen now! I thought. 

Tell him before his mood changes! My subconscious said, God! This guy’s mood changes faster than a woman in her cycle, It commented. 

“Oh!” I said and tried to swallow my nervousness,