His Despair by S. N. Nina Arthur (e textbook reader txt) 📕

Am I falling for him? Is it why I am feeling this way? No, I just missed him, that’s it. I thought. 

I sighed and looked up at him, yeah I just missed him, I deemed. I placed my hands on his and pulled his arm off my body while slowly slipping out of his hold. I walked towards my clothes, which were lying on the floor, I quickly wore them and walked out of the room, closing the door behind. 

I walked into my bedroom and strolled directly into my bathroom, after doing my morning routines I got dressed up and reached the kitchen. The butler had already prepared Arthur’s breakfast and was waiting for me, so I smiled at him as he greeted me. I began making my way up to Arthur’s room with the trolley. 

I knocked on the door and stepped back, “Come in,” Came his deep voice from the other side, I pushed the door open and pushed the trolley inside. He was buttoning his white shirt and he looked like he just came out of a hot shower, his hair was still wet. 

He’s hot!

Stop! Stop it right now, my subconscious yelled in my head. I quickly shook my head before walking to the sitting area. I began placing the breakfast on the coffee table and making his coffee, I could feel his gaze on me but I tried to swallow the nervousness. I stood beside the couch and glanced at him. 

He titled his head while staring at me, “Good morning,” he greeted while a smirk formed on his lips. His eyes roamed on my body, his gaze made me a bit self-conscious and very nervous. He walked towards the sitting area and stopped in front of me, I swallowed hard and lowered my head. 

DON’T LOOK AT HIM! My subconscious yelled in my head.   

He bent down till my height, I glanced at him, his face was just a mere inches away from mine.

Shit, 

I turned my face away from him and looked away, DON’T YOU DARE LOOK AT HIM, my subconscious yelled. 

Oh god! I thought as he turned in the direction of my face, I again turned my face in the opposite direction and he followed that move as well, I turned my face in the opposite direction again.  

He grabbed my chin and turned my face towards him, “What’s the matter?” he asked with an angry look on his face, I quickly shook my head while swallowing hard. A small smile appeared on his face as I shook my head, he moved closer and claimed my lips. 

And… I lost my senses, again.

He pulled away and traced my lower lip with his thumb, he smiled at me before sitting down on the couch. As he began to have his breakfast, I stood there lost in thoughts. After he finished his breakfast, I began placing everything back. He sat there watching my every move, I tried hard to not look at him and control myself. 

I quickly walked out of his room and made my way to the kitchen, I released the breath I held while placing my hands over my chest. After having my breakfast, I woke April up and helped her with the shower and other things. I dressed her up and fed her breakfast.  

Day went on, I tried to avoid Arthur the whole day, I had to do it. I have no other choice, to save myself I have to stay away from him. 

I was sitting with April in the theatre room, watching Ice age. It was our 4th movie. I glanced at her and saw her watching the movie with a grin on her face. She looked angelic when she smiles, such an adorable kid. 

As I was watching the movie with her, the door suddenly opened, I looked at the person but couldn’t see the face. He walked towards us and sat beside me, as the light flashed on his face, I saw him smirking at me. 

Shit!

I widened my eyes and quickly turned around, what is he doing here? Jesus! How should I get away now? 

I turned my face to April and saw her enjoying the movie, I can’t disturb her, what should I do!?

“Excuse me,” I said while getting up from the chair, but he grabbed my hand and pulled me back. I gasped and stared at him in shock, “Wha…” I opened my mouth but he cut me off, “Sit down,” He said in an authoritative tone. I gulped hard and sat down. 

I tried to ignore his gaze and watch the movie, but it was getting hard by passing seconds. He popped his elbow on the chair and rested his chin on his palm, his face was turned to me while he kept staring at me for the whole movie. 

I gulped hard and tried hard not to look at him, “Arthur,” I whispered, getting affected by his intense gaze. 

“Hmm?” He asked, still staring at me. 

“Watch the movie,” I whispered back, 

“I am,” he replied, I sighed and moved closer to April and away from him.

Suddenly his phone began ringing, he pulled it from his pocket and glanced at the caller. I tried to peek but I couldn’t see the caller's name. All of a sudden he grabbed my hand, “Come with me,” he said while cutting the call and pulling me up. 

I tried to stop him but his one look shut me up. He dragged me out of the theatre. As we stepped out, Coop walked inside immediately, to accompany April. 

Arthur dragged me to the living room and made me sit on the couch, “Why are you avoiding me?” he asked, his tone held anger. I tried to make words but couldn’t, the nervousness and fear weren’t helping. 

“Speak up damn it!” he yelled and anger and frustration, I flinched at his tone and opened my mouth, 

“I-I” I stuttered before I could make out words, his phone rang again. He glanced at me before walking away from me to take the call. 

“WHAT!” I could hear him yell at the person at the line,