Lost Wife by pokhila (life changing books to read txt) 📕

PANCHI ............ THE COOK

 

 

    Today was not sunday , but Amar was at home ,  the university was having a seminar , so all the other departments were closed , He went for his monthly grocery shopping and even bought his favourite fish . 

 

Amar was going through some students project  papers   , it needed correction . House maid was making his lunch  , she was an elderly of fifty years and an half indian . She works   part time , and cooks his dinner and store it in the fridge , Amar like Indian food , thats why she worked here for nearly five years now .

 

After putting a morsel of his favourite fish , Amar spit it out on the boneplate .....

" Aunty ... the fish is  not cooked properly , its still raw ." Amar  called her " you didn't even put the right spices and its smelling " Amar love this steamed fish  , but today it's raw ,he looked for an explanation from the elderly cook .

 

Helper aunty looked at Amar , she looked at him , but don't know from where to start , She took a long breadth and started .......

   " Amar sir , actually I ....I don't know how to cook this steamed fish , I never cooked before ," the elderly said ,  with a guilt . 

 

" What do you mean , you don't know ....never cooked , " Amar was staring at her  " you cooked so many times , it was so perfect , and today you act ...." Amar was now angry , she must admit today something went wrong so the fish was not properly cooked , instead she was making an excuse that she never cooked .

 

" Sir , " she  thought it was better to tell the truth , or she will loose this part time job , she need money to survive .    " Sir , actually  ....a young girl comes to  .....uh ...she comes here ...sometimes , " aunty was scared , Amar was staring at her . 

 

" tell me everything ....and only the truth ..." Amar turned his chair , now facing her  , his lunch put aside , his apetite gone  .

 

 Helper aunt  told him about Panchi , how she often comes to his place and cook all types of delicious foods like chicken , mutton  , varities of fish , evening snacks and even all types of sweet dish , ....hearing all this for the first time Amar was stunned , he was trying to see the things going around his house .

 

She  asked his forgiveness for not telling him earlier , she also said the lively girl clean his books and study  and even took care of the  flowers that  nearly dried up , now it was blooming flowers .

 

Amar now remembers , how he brought so many varieties of flower plants ....so that Runi will feel at home , as their house was adorned with all types of flower plants big and small . He stood up from his chair and looked towards the small flower pots , hanging  in the  back varandah with colourful blooms ...and then he turned to the backgarden below , there also..... , rose ....Chhaya's favourite , was in full bloom . 

 

After Chhaya left ...after she went to France with Anirudh , he neglected everything , his own health , he even starved himself , he felt like the whole world has come to an end , Amar hardly touch alcohol , even if he takes a glass in parties , it was just for the sake of the host , he never drink , but after Chhaya left , he drowned himself in this poison for weeks , he didn't let anyone come inside his house  ....not even the helper aunt .

  

 He don't  remember whether it was day ...or ...night , or even the date and the days . He don't know whom to blame ...and why ? ?

 

He took  that drastic step of engagement , after knowing everything ...it was all his fault , he was doing it deliberately . He tried to break his friends marriage , he engaged himself to a married woman ...and that too of his best friend .

 

Now he remembers when Panchi came to visit him for the first tome after three weeks .......afteer Runi left him all  hanging between , she came like  fresh air ....... . She tried to normalise , talking calm and friendly , but he showered all his anger on Panchi  .  Chhaya's  fault ....and scolding Panchi .... hah....

 

He remembered   that day , he said some insulting words after he came out of the bathroom , Panchi was folding his blanket , after hearing his words , she ran out of the room , though he didn't see her tears , he can feel her pain and her hands wiping the tears away .

 

Amar knew it was not her fault , he felt bad for her afterwards ...even thought , maybe he should go and ask sorry , but when he reached their gate , Chhaya's face  flashed in his mind ....he turned his car and left at once .

 

 

He still cannot forget Chhaya , what he felt for Chhaya was more than love , he want to protect her , after knowing about her past and her accident from Anjali aunt he was more determined to give her all the happiness ....she was so innocent , so truthful and so ..so  beautiful ...just the perfect  one .....  like he was in search for a girl like her , to make her his better half . 

 

Amar cannot admit ....he can never admit his own mistake , not  even to his own heart , till today he worry about her , her studies , Amar was worried ... she was absent for nearly two months now , she will stay behind , and he don't want Chhaya's grade  to come down ...... Unknowingly he  collected all the study materials for her and gave it to Neel and Sumit , rest they know , either they will send it or they can keep it aside . 

 

Now Panchi .....she was totally a different  topic , Amar remembered her childish acts ...whenever he went to visit Chhaya , she  was always  teased , by her brothers  ......no doubt she was pampered by all , being youngest in the house . 

 

Amar , never looked at Panchi  ......his eyes always searched for Chhaya  ....but looking back , he remembered ..........he never even kissed Chhaya , never tried any intimacy , not even once , but why ? why he never felt that pull to hug her , engulf her in his arms ...why he never tried to kiss her , yeah he kissed her goodnight many a times ...but not as lovers or couple , it was just the friendly kiss that he shares with all his friends . 

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