Alive (Notes #5) by DeYtH Banger (suggested reading txt) 📕

scenario which you can get over... you want it... you gonna get it

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So most people come here on this planet and :

1) I want to be rich
2) I want to be famous
3) I want more action movies
4) I want more toys
5) I want more money
6) I want more space 



But hey you fucking biatch are you ready to give some value to this world... you can't only fuck around... by wanning and wanting and banning and vaning and all this fucked up words I want to ask you why life isn't random as fuck? Comedy: Life Sucks and Nobody Tells You That

  31.07.2018 

 

 

 by DeYtH Banger


Did somebody yesterday or today... came and said to you life sucks and all your expectations are going to get underground.... Below 15 meters of soil... down there... that's life how it gets in you in the end... you get in below 15 meter in a coffin.

And the most ironic thing is that people celebrate this day by crying and saying things like

- I am sorry wasn't there for you...
- How could this happen...
- Life could be better... you and me we know it very well...
- You are a grown up man... you didn't needed to go so far...


All people wanking... and wanting... and needing you... and crying and acting like a biatch.
After all it didn't went their way... if it doesn't go their way... this is a reason to make them angrier...

But the best thing is when you die... this is a celebration... in which you are invited and your body exposed and no any type of signals are needed... - How cool is this?


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The song could go and on and on and on... the same is for life... suicide is the best choice you got now in your pocket... people tell to other people to play with all their cards and why not now they don't play and with the last card which they got, it's something like a





Ace... but down and up it's written 

"Die you BIATCH"


- So here is the thing which I have learn from life... 

Life can beat you up
Life can fuck you up
Life can screw you up
Life can make you feel miserable
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But if life says you that

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Buckle up and do what's needed after all this is going to be your prom night... did you had such celebration in life?...
Yes


OR

NO?


Look my comedy is horrific... I write something and then I put it in horror... because it's gets in horrific levels....


This fucking assholes could go with... (About you):

- He made the right decision... (P.S. - We both know that this isn't true.. .you don't think the same thing as what you are saying...)

- He is a fucking asshole... (Note: I fucking love this compliment... another example of ruining my day... do you know that I hear you and see you?... Or if this is not true... the bible is fucking wrong and the last thing which I want to add... lies end up in making Jesus sucking my dick...)

(Note: After all... I am non religious person and I can say all type of shit and I don't need to get punished... life is a hell... another blow of offer won't be bad idea as for now...)

- Hey... wake up... son... I am sorry... I am sorry... please wake up.... Wake up son... (....and now is my turn once... having the chance to ignore you wake up and sorry's... I am very tired from that crap... don't ask yourself why I am here... it was the best investment I have ever done...)

Comedy: Life As Whole

 30.07.2018

 

by DeYtH Banger


Always giving a fuck

- For that
- For that and that
- For what and so
- For why and who
-  For where and when
- For How and ...


Always caring life is a selfless fuck.... we all give a fuck
I have seen myself in such type of circle.

Caring:

- For others
- For nobody's
- For things
- For stuff
- For people 
- For related people
- For relationship


and one moment you head is buckle up with too much fuck then it comes
the data... which I call "Important as fuck"... which is a data which your mind you wants to write down. If you are writer your mind always wonders around information and for better scenarious... my life went so fucked up that I started using chess... and playing deck cards for metaphors. 
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My mind as a writer always got what to tell one moment is good thing other... it really fucks you up... you could be not sleeping and all day thinking.


Like:

- What if I didn't did that... yesterday?
- What if I did that?
- Why did I got bullied in school?
- Why people start to ignoring me?
- Am I enough funny and joky?
- Am I enough the person I want to be?
- Do I know enough?
- Is there any type of reason of being here?
- Is it possible people to be selfish.... (In theory... yesterday I got beaten up... my mom wasn't even paying attention to me... and what if I just tried not to talk to that girl and go with my father out... whe he was still alive?... Bullied been in school isn't even funny... it's a long-term pain it always fucks me up when I come back to the old days stories... People stopped answering my calls... stopped wanting to see me out and started just in a polite way saying "Go fucking else where..." - Have you ever felt that?... It's a cold feeling... it's a feeling which you feel but nobody says anything which means... they don't say anything for me to quit or so on and so on... but the way they behave you can see and feel that they don't want you...

Have you wondered why this joke didn't went well?
..> Have you ever wondered why you are out of jokes... in my world... I wonder... I am not always smart asshole... funny guy one moment ... I am so much under the soil that I am like a animal... a biatchy animal... who gets pissed off anything...)

Note: And life continues no data can help you skip this hell... the hell wants you in there... and nobody really wants you in heaven...

- I don't think people are selfish...
- It's fucked up that I want to kill myself... it's the most arrogant... selfish decision ever taken from me

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It could be not questions... it could be data or things which you say and with minutes and seconds it gets to somewhere bigger and larger... my brain and totally ruin you... I have so much data...

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S
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From seducing women up to man... up to manipulation and con-crime... and I am just a normal guy or 

AM I?

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So life is a selfish decision but not the most,
selfish one...

ANd they want to roll the game and nobody even give a fuck
to the noobies....

Cradiale

 23.07.2018

 

by DeYtH Banger

 

 

 

So here is the truth we always think,Not in  numbers... but my our mind always goes somewhere,Not really  in a good way.

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So it comes a thought... then another and the whole process
fucks you up.
- "Life Sucks"- "This sounds like a cool thought let's write it down."- "Now you should call that guy..." - "Now say that..."- "Mhm... doesn't sound... right or cool... come with something else..."- "Oh god... this is worse than I ever thought..."
Overthinking kills you... by building up anxiety... now that's not right, now this doesn't give too much value...

And one moment in life you end up in the trash... constant worry isn't life
all about...

- "Now let's try this..."- "Now let's try to give some fucks..."
Your mind probably wouldn't be saying  this but... sub-level this is what a simple thoughtis perceived by the mind. 

 

 

 

And now the person who is speaking with you is brain in anxiety,
Good Night!

Watch And Stare

 18.07.2018

 

by DeYtH Banger

 

 

 

I am not a number... but one day I gonna end up like a number.

- DeYtH Banger

People pay me to stare, it's an easy job… In and Out!
I go to random houses or apartments in the middle of the night and I do it for few hours. The whole idea is researching.

Taking Notes and Be as much silent as possible.

Note: It's fucked up the whole idea of security, it doesn't exist, it has never existed and it will never ever exist.


People think that they are safe home from predators, but theu don't give a thought to people which they know = predators or even home invasion.

The whole trick is to not be to noisy. (P.S. - I just can't hold myself there are plenty of material on the internet which help you to become a con-man, what you really need is a reason… how to and somebody who is doing it….)

If you get in somebody home… try to do it in the moment when you expect good stuff to come. People tell me I should feel the woman side..


It's kinda fucked up… I haven't been raised to be a gay… so to do that I ask women questions (No dumb questions exist)… I take notes when I stare them having sex… seeing what she